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Insecurity 7

"Stupid, stupid, stupid." Shego muttered as she walked back to her house. The streets were empty, it was cold and everything was dark. She walked alone through the streets muttering to herself

"I should've never stopped by." She muttered as she crossed an empty road. I didn't even know what to say and the things I did say made me sound pathetic. She thought and she folded her arms in front of her chest as she kept on walking. She had gone to Kim's house filled with confidence. Yet the moment she saw the girl her confidence slipped away and she couldn't help but mumble what she felt. Or well she tried to mumble what she feels but it didn't really work out.

"God I made a fool out of myself." Little did she know that she hadn't made a fool out of herself. Her words touched Kim and the red head felt compelled to help Shego. She had wanted to talk to the woman and was glad with the opportunity. Though it disappointed her that Shego left in such a hurry. She didn't even give Kim the time to explain what was going on. Kim had stared at the open window; she even walked up to it and gazed out side. Shego had already disappeared out of sight and with a sigh she had closed her window.

She was lying in her bed, still awake and staring up at her ceiling. Shego was still on her mind and she wondered why she had left in such a hurry. This is pathetic. Those three little words played in her mind. She knew Shego wasn't good with emotions but she hadn't thought she was pathetic. Kim felt a strong urge to just hug Shego at the moment. She had held Shego's face that night, tears falling on her hands. She didn't see the tears but she felt them. She figured that crying was what made Shego feel pathetic.

"She isn't used to it." Kim muttered to herself. The red head had enough experience with crying and showing her emotions. She had a hard time controlling them sometimes and she just couldn't help but show how she was feeling. It didn't matter to her, happiness, sorrow, and regret she showed it all. It would ruin Shego's reputation. She thought. She could understand that Shego's bad ass image would be quite ruined if the villain just cried openly. Though she would never tell anyone about the tears Shego had openly cried in her presence.

She was actually glad the villain had cried. It showed her yet another side of Shego she had never seen. She didn't even know that side existed. Closed off. Kim thought as she turned to look at her window. She eventually fell asleep but that couldn't be said for Shego.

The pale woman was still awake, scolding herself for her foolish actions. She wasn't awake because she wasn't sleepy, not at all, she felt like she could go into a coma. She was awake because she couldn't help but think that she had made the wrong choice. I shouldn't have left. Was what bothered her over and over again. She even thought about going back to Kim's house but reasoned with the fact that it was late. She doesn't want to talk to me after that. She thought and she frowned slightly.

"Ugh get it out of your head Shego." She muttered to herself as she turned to her left side. She tried to force herself into sleeping but she stayed awake the entire night while Kim slept peacefully. She just couldn't fall asleep no matter how tired she was. I'm going to feel this tomorrow. She thought as she got out of bed. She figured it was no use lying in bed if she couldn't sleep. She already knew that she would be tired the next day, knowing that even though she was a skilled thief, she needed sleep as well. The morning came quickly, the sun rising fast and lighting everything.

Shego glanced out of her window and just rolled her eyes.

"Great… morning daylight." She muttered and her eyes shifted back to her TV. She had flipped through every single channel on her TV and all of them had nothing to show. So naturally she decided to watch a movie and by now she was busy watching her 6th movie. It was some sappy romantic love movie, which she didn't even know she had. It was a nice change because the first 5 movies had been action; horror and thriller packed movies.

It was around 10 o'clock in the morning when Kim woke up. The sun was slightly peering through her curtains and urging her to wake up. She stretched her arms and let out a yawn.

"Is it morning already?" She questioned herself in a sleepy voice while she rubbed the sleep out of her eyes. Morning? She thought when she was finally able to fully open her eyes.

"Morning!" She shouted in shock and she quickly got out of bed. Her foot got caught in her covers and she caught herself just in time before she fell. That was a close one. She thought as she gently pulled herself free from her covers. As soon as her foot was freed she ran into her bathroom and jumped into the shower. She hadn't fully planned it yet but she was going to confront Shego today even if it was the last thing she did. She couldn't take it anymore; she just had to talk with Shego.

She took a shower in the speed of light and dressed herself in a blink of an eye. Gotta hurry. She thought as she almost jumped down the stairs to eat her breakfast. Her parents gave her curious and questioning looks as she shoved her breakfast into her mouth. She just looked at them with big innocent eyes while she chewed her food.

"What?" She asked with her mouth still full.

"Are you okay?" Her mother asked and Kim nodded in reply. She quickly finished her breakfast, thanked her parents and went upstairs. She dried her hair with the hairdryer and quickly did her now dry hair. Normally it would've taken her an hour to get ready. She broke her record by finishing up in a matter of 15 minutes. With a proud smirk on her face she went downstairs and got her coat.

"Where are you going honey?" Ann asked.

"I'm going to Shego." She replied and she was gone. Her mother just stared at the front door in disbelieve thinking she had heard it wrong.

"Did she say Shego?" Ann asked her husband and he simply nodded, the same disbelieving expression on his face.

Kim was on her way to Shego, her pace fast and steady. If that bimbo is there again I'm going to kick her out. She thought as she walked in the direction of Shego's house. She felt confident and she was determined to tell what she feels. She wasn't going to panic and she wasn't going to chicken out.

"I'm going to do it god damn it!" She shouted and people just stared at her as if she had grown a second head.

"Sorry." She mumbled her face turning bright red as she quickly walked away. That was embarrassing. She thought as she approached her wanted destination. She came to a stop in front of Shego's door and took a few deep breaths. Okay you can do this. She told herself. She rang the doorbell and waited in silence for a response.

Inside Shego was lightly slumbering, close to the edge of falling asleep when the doorbell startled her. For crying out loud. She thought as she got up. Who the hell dares to ring my doorbell in the morning?! She quickly walked up to the door and started unlocking it. Outside Kim swallowed nervously when she heard the locks being unlocked.

"What the hell…." Shego started as she opened the door angrily. She stopped in her sentence when her eyes fell upon Kim.

"Do I want?" Kim offered and Shego just looked at her dumbstruck.

"Uh yeah.. what.. are you doing here?" Shego managed to ask as she came over her shock.

"I'm here because we need to talk." Shego's face fell at hearing that sentence.

"We.. need to talk…" She muttered.

"Not in a bad way!" Kim quickly replied. Shego stepped aside and motioned for Kim to come in. The red head smiled at her and stepped into her house.

"Let's talk." Shego announced and she guided Kim to her living room. They took place on Shego's black leather couch and an uncomfortable silence settled between them. Come on Kim! One moment you're telling yourself that you have to talk and now you're sitting here in silence! Kim tried to motivate herself into talking but the nerves overwhelmed her courage. After several minutes she finally decided to go for it and she cleared her throat.

"About last night." Both Shego and Kim said simultaneously. They laughed a bit and Kim motioned for Shego to go first. Okay it's all or nothing Shego. She said to herself.

"Look I'm sorry I didn't go after you yesterday and I'm sorry that I left in such a hurry. I felt pathetic after that blubbering scene because I'm not used to it. I'm not a person who says sorry a lot so you'll only hear this once. I just couldn't control those damned emotions anymore. It just slipped away and before I knew it I was crying. The last time I actually really cried was over 10 years ago." Shego explained and Kim just nodded in understanding as she listened intently to Shego's story.

"This is just… impossible you know." She whispered as her gaze went to the ground.

"What is?" Kim asked gently.

"Me being in love, I don't know how to deal with it." Shego replied. She was surprised when she felt a hand underneath her chin; Kim forced her head up and looked at the woman.

"Love is complicated." She said simply.

"You can say that again." Shego muttered and Kim giggled lightly. "I just don't deserve it just like I don't deserve to be happy." That comment made Kim stop giggling and she looked at Shego with a hurt expression.

"That's not true! Everybody deserves to be happy and to be loved! How can you just accept the fact that you're not happy?! You deserve to be happy just as every other person and you know it." Kim said firm.

"I know but… being unhappy makes it hard to believe that I will be happy one day." Shego muttered sorrowful. Kim watched the woman and she felt her chest tighten uncomfortably.

"Why do you think that way?" Kim asked softly.

"Because I've never been happy in my entire life!" Shego shouted shocking Kim slightly with her sudden outburst.

"Shego." Kim said surprising said woman with the gentleness of her tone. "I've never been really happy, I've had times where I felt joy but I've never been really happy. I've never even really been in love. That is until I discovered something thanks to my conversation with Ron." Kim admitted.

"What conversation?" Shego questioned.

"I broke up with him." Kim answered simply and Shego felt warmth spread inside of her. "I didn't love him in the right way for a relationship." Shego nodded. It became quiet and they just looked at each other, waiting for someone to say something.

"Who do you love?" Kim asked suddenly and Shego pulled back a bit.

"I can't… "No.. tell me." Kim cut in.

"You told me that you tried to get rid of those feelings. That it seemed wrong and that you told yourself you weren't meant to be happy. You ARE meant to be happy so just tell me who you love." Kim said encouraging Shego.

"But it's wrong." Shego muttered.

"Since when do you care about right or wrong? I thought you were an evil bad ass?" Kim questioned knowing that she was hitting a nerve right now.

"I AM EVIL." Shego replied.

"Well you don't seem evil to me." Kim replied dry. Shego growled and got up, her plasma ignited.

"I AM EVIL!" She shouted again and Kim just looked at her with a dull look.

"Not convincing me." She muttered.

"ALRIGHT GOD DAMN IT! It's wrong and so am I! I fucking hated love and I have no fucking idea how to handle it! Then everything changed because you… YOU came into the picture! IT'S YOU! Alright!? It's YOU GOD DAMN IT!" Shego shouted her plasma flaring and heating up dangerously.

"It's you." She whispered sorrowful, her plasma died out and she slid to the ground. Kim sat down next to her and gathered her in her arms. She hugged Shego tightly and didn't plan on letting go anytime soon. All the pent up emotions and frustrations were coming out. Tears ran down Shego's cheeks after her outburst. She felt relieved, she had finally confessed what was on her heart. She ignored the fact that she was crying because she had never felt better. Kim just held her and let her cry. The tears Shego cried existed out happy tears, tears of joy. It had been like a burden carrying those feelings with her. Now she was finally freed from them and she thought it couldn't get any better.

"You see? You can be happy." Kim whispered happily into Shego's ear. The villain felt completely relaxed in Kim's embrace especially after her outburst.

"Now I can be happy as well." Kim said and Shego pulled back slightly and looked at her with a confused look.

"Why is that?" Shego questioned not understanding what Kim meant. Her ignorance actually amused Kim and she laughed a bit. She became quiet as she watched at Shego's questioning emerald eyes. She had to make a decision now whether to kiss her or to tell her what she felt. Ah fuck it. Kim thought with a smile on her face.

She leaned down and pressed her lips against Shego's dark lips. Her questioning emerald eyes widened in surprise and closed soon after that. Kim gently pushed her lips against Shego's, moving them against hers. Shego finally kissed back when the shock faded and she finally fully realized what was going on. The small sweet kiss lasted a bit longer then 10 seconds and was finally broken when Kim pulled back. Shego had been wrong when she thought it couldn't get any better. The happiness she felt now was 10 times more then the happiness she had felt only seconds ago. She stared at Kim in disbelief after their kiss had ended, expecting an explanation. Kim grinned when she noticed that and she had only one thing to say.

"That's what hit me."

THE END

Well I hope you enjoyed this emotional rollercoaster ride! I just had to force myself not to end the story with:

And they lived happily ever after XD well I sure enjoyed writing this piece of emotion!

hope you enjoyed reading it!

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