My own look on what might have happened in eclipse when Edward rejected her on the bed before the fight.

"No" Edward had said when I tried to yank my blouse open

What was that feeling that was building up inside me oh yea rejection and a little anger. I started to tug my hands free of Edward's one hand and pull my head away from the other my eyes began to burn with tears he didn't seem to realise that I was trying to get away from him when he did he let go immediately he wouldn't want to hurt me now would he. When he let go I jumped off the bed and glared at him he just hung his head and kept mumbling "I can't I'm sorry I can't" I decided to speak

"Well why the hell not I mean I'm here you're here nobody else is here"

"After after you're changed"

"Yeah and we all no why you want to wait until then don't we little human Bella nice to have around because she's so interesting to watch her stumble all over the place and not being able to read her mind that sure as hell should be fun for you but when it comes to turning you on oh no that wont work your going to have to wait until I'm a perfect beautiful vampire to have some sort of sexual desire towards me"!!!

"Is that what you think" he whispered so low I only caught the jist of it

"Bella I don't want to hurt you that's all I'm so sorry but I can't I can't please understand me please" his voice trailed off I turned my back to him and then I herd his tearless sobs. What have I done to him with my teenage hormone need for sex . I was so selfish how could I have been so selfish I've hurt Edward he was upset crying if he could.

I turned back around to face him he was still crying tearless sobs.

"Edward"? "Edward please don't be upset I'm sorry" I walked over to the bed and kneeled beside him I grabbed at his hidden face in his own hands. He sniffled and spoke.

"Bella do you really believe that I really think any of what you said"

"Edward no it was just always in the back of my mind I'm so sorry I no its not true I do" he held my wrists in his hands and looked quite intently into my eyes

"Bella the truth not just to make me feel better what do you really believe"

"I no Edward its just sometimes I think that everytime you stop a kiss your glad in some way I don't know its hard to explain"

"I am glad when I stop a kiss glad that I see your still alive in one piece that I didn't lose control glad that I didn't rip your body to pieces"

"I understand Edward I do" he breathed in a deep breath and then pulled me around so I was cradled in his ar,s

"No you don't Bella but its ok theres plenty of time to explain it"

And for one of the first times that night Edward opened up to me about his biggest fear…hurting me