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Chapter 22

BPOV

A knock at the door woke me from my sleep. I fought with the covers to get out of bed, ending up on the floor with a thud. Ouch! I dragged myself to my feet and went over to the door to reveal Jasper on the other side. I automatically swung the door to shut it again, but Jasper put his foot in the doorway to stop me. I sighed, turning and walking back to bed, pulling the covers over my head.

Jasper coughed from the foot of my bed, I ignored him. He coughed again. Nothing. "Bella?"

"Go away." I mumbled.

"Bella!" Jasper shouted annoyed as he pulled the covers from my face. "We will be leaving for school soon. I thought you could make a habit of getting up each morning. That way when you return to school getting up in time won't be so hard on you."

"I'm tired."

He sighed in frustration. He walked over to my bedside table and placed down a notepad and pen. "Carlisle spoke with me last night. It is both our understandings that you would like to be turned. In order for that to happen you need to work with me to process what has happened." He waited for me to speak. When he saw that I wasn't going to he continued. "I would like you to start writing down your feelings and anything else that you would like to discuss or cover." He patted the notepad. "When I return from school we will have our first session." He didn't bother waiting for a reply. He turned and left. I heard the door click into place. I picked up the notepad and tossed it across the room.

I woke up a few hours later with the sun streaming through the window. Someone had opened the curtains and placed the notepad back at my bedside. I decided to ignore it and I made my way into the shower, quickly getting washed and dressed. I then headed down stairs and grabbed some toast for breakfast, tossing the dishes in the sink. I sat at the table starring out the window wondering what to do. It was already Eleven o'clock. I thought of investigating the town, but I really didn't want to be around people. Maybe I would go at night when everything was closed. I eventually settled on going for a walk. I packed some food in a backpack as I wasn't sure how long I would be gone. Then I headed out.

As I walked past the pier at the side of the lake I decided to jump in one of the boats. I wanted to check out the island, it had been on the back of my mind since I first saw it. I grabbed a thick branch that was laying around the ground, to use for protection should I happen to meet any more wild life. Then I started rowing to the island, I was only about half way there when my arms began to throb. I wasn't cut out for this exercise. I wasn't like them, I did get tired.

I really didn't want to be left sitting on the lake for the rest of the day. I had to get there and back before they returned from school. I pushed myself to row and row till I made it to the island. I was exhausted by the time I got there. I stumbled out the boat and my foot slipped into the water. My shoes were soaking and so was my trouser leg. Great! Just great! I struggled to pull the boat onto the land and then went to take a rest underneath a tree.

I rested till I caught my breath back and the pain in my arms dulled. I then go up I removed my trousers, hanging them over a branch that was in direct sunlight, hoping they would dry. I wasn't sure if they would, the sun wasn't at its warmest and the wind was blowing hard. I was left to walk about in my t-Shirt, boyfriend pants and squidgy shoes. If only I knew how to start a fire then the jeans would have dried quickly.

It was too cool to stand around, I had to keep moving to try and keep myself warm. I picked up my branch and started to move around the island. I quickly began to realise I was on the wrong island when in ten minutes I had reached the other side and could see a bigger island further in the distance. I hadn't noticed there was more than one island. I huddled against a tree, trying to use it to break the wind as I starred over at the other island. I really wanted to see that island.

I took my shoes off and tossed them behind me, followed by my socks. I was going to see that island. I dove into the water and swam as hard as I could for as long as I could, before I got tired. I was still too far from the main island and just as far from the island I had left. It was a lot further than I had thought. Maybe not such a good idea.

The water was cold, the longer I stayed in it the harder it was becoming to move my arms or legs. The cold was seizing my body. I was starting to get so tired, too tired to keep fighting. I need to rest. Maybe if I just floated here for a second. My body felt so heavy.

EPOV

Edward! Alice's thoughts called to me as I sat in the middle of my English class. It's Bella, I'm coming to get you out of class. She then proceed to play the vision she had of Bella in her mind. She diving into the lake, trying to swim, but water was too cold and she was starting to get hypothermia. She was going to drown. I curled my fists in anger. What the hell was she doing? I had to go to her. Stay where you are! I'm outside the door. Alice commanded.

There was a knock at the door. My teacher Mr Fawlker, an older man, slowly got up off his seat to answer it. He peered through the window of the door before answering it. "Yes?" He asked Alice when he eventually opened the door.

"I'm sorry for interrupting your lesson, sir. I am here to remind my brother, Edward Cullen, of his appointment at the hospital, which he is suppose to be attending just now. My father, Dr Cullen, asked me to remind him this morning, but I'm afraid I forgot. If you'll forgive me, as its my fault and not his. Now I'm afraid he is late and he will have to hurry."

He seemed taken by her charm and good looks. "Very well. Edward if you will." He said as he turned to face me.

I grabbed my bag and coat and hurried out the door to my sisters side. We marched along the corridor as fast as pretence would let us. "How long do we have?" I asked her.

"I'm not sure." Alice hesitantly answered. "She could be in the water just now."

"Where?" I snarled.

"It wasn't very clear. I think she is on one of the islands, trying to get to the larger one. I'm sorry Edward. I didn't think she would do anything like this. I've been trying not to watch her future all the time I thought it might make things between us better."

"It's not your fault Alice. Get the others. We don't have time to waste." I ordered her.

I marched as fast as I could out of the school and then out of sight where I was free to run as fast as I could. I run to the nearest part of the lake which was on my side near Ely. I stood there listening to for any splashing or signs of distress, but I couldn't hear anything over the the waves, the wind was making them strong. She would have no chance against the water. I listened again, but still heard nothing. Maybe we had time, maybe she wasn't in the water yet. I raced towards the house at the other end of the lake. When I got there one of the boats were missing. She had already gone.

"Edward!" I heard Esme cried to me as I waded into the water. She came running to my side, grabbing my face in her hands. "I'm sorry, Alice called. When I left she was still asleep, I only went into town to grab some food. I'm sorry."

"Esme, it's okay." I sighed. "We just have to find her as quickly as possible. Please, we have to check all the nearby islands. She is on one of them..."

I made my way to the nearest island from the pier. That's where I found the boat and Bella's jeans hanging on a tree. What was she doing? As I made my way around the island I found her shoes at the other side. This had to be the right one. I scanned the water, but there was no sign of her. "Over here." I yelled to my family. "I think she's gone under."

I dove into the water, holding my breath as I went under. I looked around the water, but was dark and murky, making it hard to see even for our eyes. With every passing second I knew I was closer to losing her. Then I heard him call. "I've found her."

I rose to the surface to find Emmett pulling her onto the nearest island. "Hurry Edward, she's not breathing."

I swam over to them as fast I could. Emmett was sitting at her holding her hand as she lay lifeless on the muddy ground. I opened her airways and began CPR breathing into her mouth several times and then pumping her chest. One, two, three. Nothing. I pushed air into her mouth again. One, two, three. Nothing. Again, I started breathing into her mouth, then pushing her chest. One, two, three. Nothing.

"Come on, Bella, breath." I yelled at her.

Again. I pushed air into her mouth. I pushed on her chest. ONE, TWO, THREE. Nothing. I began to start again when Alice placed her hand on my shoulder.

"Edward, she's not going to make her."

"No!" I growled, shoving her away.

"If you bite her now, you can change her... Edward, it's the only way!" Alice cried as Jasper tried to pull her close to him.

"No!" I yelled, followed by a cry of pain as I looked down at Bella's motionless body. This wasn't how it was meant to be.

"If you don't do it now she will die." Alice yelled at me freeing herself from Jaspers arms and trying to push me out the way. "If you wont do it I will."

"No!" I snarled as I tossed her to the side.

I took one last look at Bella, my Bella, my love. I'm sorry.

I sunk my teeth into her neck, sending my venom through her body and starting her transformation. I pulled back and cradled her in my arms. What had I done?