Just fyi…I'm not doing accents…I suck at them

I'm calling the voices in her head personas, like pyro's persona

& this is my first fanfiction, i swear i'll get better

Chapter 1: No Real Goodbyes

The icy wind hit Rogue's face making her tears freeze in her eyes. She was at least proud that still not one tear had fallen. She would not cry for a guy, or a broken heart, or for anything else. Crying helps nothing. Her lips were starting to crack, but right now she didn't care. She didn't know what she was going to tell the others, because she was going to have to go the mansion, but after she talked to them she was going to leave. She was going back home. Not that she missed it, but there were things there she left unfinished, and now was the time to solve everything.

She could touch on again off again, depending on the amount of control over herself that she had at that moment. That was new; of course she'd never actually tried touching someone on purpose when she thought she had control. It was going to take a lot of getting used to, and practice.

What had surprised her most had taken place yesterday while sitting in her room.

Flashback

"Rogue, listen to me, please! I'm sorry! It just happened! I wasn't thinking! I love you, you know that Rogue! I love you!" Bobby hollered after her as she stormed off into her room.

She didn't exactly know what to do. Bobby was her boyfriend, ex-boyfriend now, and Kitty was her best friend, and they were making out.

Rogue sat down at her desk and stared at the candle in front of her. How could they do this to her? She trusted them, and they betrayed her. It brought back so many haunting memories all she could do was remember what her life was like before she got her powers.

Before and after her powers her life was one betrayal after another. She was overwhelmed by so much anger it almost didn't surprise her that the candle's small flame had jumped a good six inches, almost.

She could feel him inside her, Pyro. Not even him really, but his power. She didn't feel his memories, or her Pyro persona, no just his power, and control. This weird, overwhelming, control that she knew even he didn't have over his power.

She decided to experiment. She concentrated and acted as if she had just touched Pyro and got his power. She watched as the fire was manipulated. First into a puppy, then she tried something harder and made a little Logan.

She almost laughed out loud when it worked and a miniature Wolverine was left staring at her. It was so funny it took her a little longer to realize that something was wrong.

She started to retreat into her head finding the little persona's but also finding that their powers still worked for her. She had been so surprised to find that she could feel that control just under her skin and could use it she took off to the professor's study without thinking, or grabbing gloves.

She had ran right into Kitty. Her skin touched Kitty's skin but nothing happened. Kitty didn't notice anything, not that their skin had touched or that she had not been absorbed. She dove right into her apologizes. "Nothing happened! We just weren't thinking and it just happened. I swear it was nothing." Kitty pleaded.

"It's okay Kitty, I'm not mad at you." Rogue answered in a daze.

This, she thought, is too good to be true. I must be dreaming.

"Really? You're not?" Kitty asked, surprised.

"No," and in reality she wasn't mad at Kitty, she was mad at Bobby. Kitty is too sweet to do something so heartless on purpose, but she knew Bobby had been dieing for some female contact lately and she wasn't so sure it was an accident to him. "I'm not mad at you."

Kitty smiled, "I have to go, but I'll talk to you later, promise." She said skipping down the hall glad to have her friend back.

End Flashback

She had ended up deciding not to go to the professor and went back to her room. Now she stood in the cold breathing hard. She hadn't told anyone she was leaving yet. She would do that when she got back tonight.

She had broken up with Bobby a little after she had talked to Kitty and she figured that they would get together, and sure she could be happy for them, just not while in the same building that they were in. She wasn't totally selfless, and she was a bit pissed still, and seeing that her powers were getting stronger being in a house with people she might end up attacking did not seem like the best course of action.

Then again neither did going to visit parents who'd thrown you out, a older brother who thinks you're dead, and a little sister who might not remember you.

She sighed. Her brother, Dannie, was 24 now, her sister, Vanity, should be 14, and a brother, Ayden, who was born after she left and is now 7. They are all human. She was the only mutant she knew of in her family, and her family hates mutants.

Still, though, she needed to talk to them. This time of year, a week until Thanksgiving, she knew where they would be at, visiting relatives in New Orleans. She was going, she'd made up her mind.

She stayed out a little bit longer and then figured it was time to head in. The only good thing she had to say was since Wolverine was gone for the week she wouldn't be followed, and it was damn near impossible for them to stop her.

As she got nearer to the house she heard Scott talking to Bobby, shouting was more like it, "What the hell were you thinking!"

"I don't know, okay. I was being stupid, wasn't thinking! Sorry, sue me!" Bobby finished viciously. He had started by defending himself now he was fighting back.

"Now no one can find her, and no one's been able to talk to her since it happened! Yesterday! I hope that you understand that this is all your fault! Couldn't you be a little more sensitive!" Scott yelled back.

Rogue groaned internally. So this was about her. She didn't know whether to be happy that Scott and the others were defending her, or mad because they didn't think that she could solve this by herself. They always treat her like this, fragile.

She decided to be mad.

Rogue opened the door and then slammed it and walked right by them, pretending not to notice that they were there.

"Are you okay Rogue?" Scott asked just as she reached the door across from them.

She fixed her face into the right amount of surprise. "Oh, I didn't see you guys there. Yeah, I had some thinking to do so I went out for a walk."

Scott nodded at a loss for words. He'd never seen her so calm before in his life. Bobby was also surprised, and panicked. The threats he'd received he'd brushed off but this. She wasn't acting like Rogue at all. He was a bit worried. At least when she was mad you knew what to expect, but this calm, cool, and collected Rogue was one that he'd never seen.

She lifted her hand as a goodbye and headed up to her room, and packed.

When she had every thing she needed in duffel bag she tossed it over her shoulder and climbed down the stairs and went straight to the professor's study, luckily not running into anyone.

She lightly knocked on the door. 'Come in Rogue, please come in.' was projected into her head by the professor.

So she did as he asked and walked in setting down the bag right next to the door. "I can feel that you'd like to talk with me." The professor answered calmly.

Rogue nodded and decided not to beat around the bush. "I'm leaving. I'm going to go visit my home, and some relatives." She answered.

The professor stopped what he was doing and looked up. This was not what he had expected. As far as he knew she didn't have any family. "Family?" he asked curiously.

She nodded. "I'd run away by the time Mystique had found me. Before I even knew what the brotherhood or X-men was. I need to go back for a bit though."

She didn't explain her reasons, honestly she wasn't sure if she could explain them to herself. She knew her family history, and she knew being back in town was going to be a problem for them, but good.

She decided to try to explain some of it though. "My family is part of a business. It's what made me so comfortable working with Mystique and made what she asked me to do so easy, and why killing isn't hard for me. I can't and won't tell you everything, but I will tell you this. Don't try to find me and don't let the others follow me. I won't be welcomed back. Especially considering what I did before I ran away."

He looked at her for a moment and then nodded. He trusted her and she could handle herself. On top of that if she ever needed help she knew how to reach them. She smiled. "Bye Professor."

When she was at the door with her stuff he answered back, "Goodbye Rogue, and good luck. It sounds like you will need it more than any of us.
She paused one last time before leaving. "Tell the others what you think best. Tell them I said bye."

She gave a stiff smile and walked out of his study closing the door behind her. He just hoped she knew what she was getting herself into.