Title: Alex's Support

Disclaimer: I do not Law and Order: Criminal Intent, Dick Wolf does.

Author's Note: A series of flashbacks with Alex with serious mood swings. Italics=flashbacks and bold italics character's thoughts.

Rating: T (references to moodiness and depression)

Chapter 1: Slowly Getting Back to Normal

Summary: A lead in to a short two chapter story.

-November 2003, shortly after Nathan's birth-

After holding Nathan in her arms for a period of time, she gently put the newborn infant in Liz's arms. As Liz sat down in the chair close by Alex couldn't help but think.

Liz looks so happy as does Peter, but where does this leave me? I mean I wouldn't change a thing about this whole experience but now all I feel is emptiness. Will
I ever get to hold a child to call my own?

-Early to mid-December, 2003-

It had been only a few weeks since she gave Nathan to her sister and Alex had been feeling numbed and detached ever since as she just sat there staring out into space.

Suddenly a came knock on the door, at first she ignored it but when there was another knock this time a little more persistently; Alex rolled her eyes as she dragged herself from the couch and slowly went to open the door. When she saw who it was she was a bit miffed.

"What do you want?" asked Alex in a biting tone when she saw Bobby.

Bobby who was just stopping by with some food for Alex and to see how she was doing was startled by Alex's cold greeting. Sure he knew she going through a hard time, as a matter of fact he was the first to notice when he visited her while her whole family was fawning over the newest family member.

"Um-uh I-I came by with some food and check on you."

Alex let out a lukewarm sigh and said, "Whatever Goren you can just leave the food and then be on your way."

With that kind a response, Bobby resolved to be there for his partner and help her through her rough period.

-January, 2004-

Alex was amazed at how committed her eccentric partner had become in the last couple of weeks. He was there even when she was not good company. One other thing she noticed was that he gave the best foot rubs.

Mmmm oh yeah I can get used to this.

And the visits continued.

A/N 2: Thanks for reading chapter 1 of "Alex's support", chapter 2 to follow. As always your reviews are appreciated!