Amarantos

By TwinEnigma

Disclaimer: I do not own Doctor Who, nor do I make any money from doing this. It's just for fun.

Warnings: angst, character death, implied character deaths, spoilers for Journey's End, End of Time, etc.

I: The Never-Fading

She drifts, silent and mourning, in the vastness of eternity.

A long, long time ago, he came – that rakish, charming man – and had stolen her away. As experienced as she was, she'd never known such an amazing, curious fellow and she'd fallen for him as hard as she was able. They had such adventures together, such grand, lovely, terrifying adventures!

All that was past now.

He is gone and this time it's for good.

She is lost, so very lost, without him.

A part of her seeks death, but she cannot bring herself to move. The depth of her grief is agonizing, unending, and utterly paralyzing. She wants no other, but he is lost to her and the others are long, long gone.

She keens out her despair to the ether, moving on autopilot, not caring where she goes.

She should be dead, and yet she is still here, still clinging on, but she doesn't know why. Without him, what good was existing?

At long last, drained and tired, she stops, sleeping and dreaming of things long past. All pleasant and painful and beautiful things mash up against each other as he walks through them with her and oh, how she misses him. Then, near the end, an old memory, one she had not thought of in so long, wakes her from her sleep.

There is a way back to him. It was dangerous, very dangerous, and he'd be mad, oh yes, he would.

But he'd get over it soon enough.

Her Doctor always did.

AN: A startlingly sentient blue police call box has taken up residence in my skull. She's very insistent. Hence this speculative post-13th Doctor's death TARDIS-centric fic was born.

It was curious the way this wanted to be written - if you ignore little bits here and there, it almost sounds like Rose more than the TARDIS. I might expand on this a little, if the mood and inspiration strikes me in the future.

Reviews aren't necessary. I just needed this out of my brain, if that makes ANY sense.