"Bell's I'm really not sure about this" Jake said.

"I have to, Jake, it's my fault Alice is dead and I know she would want me to try to help Jasper however I could. He's got to be so lost without her, I know I would be without Edward."

"Then let his family help him. He's an emotionally unstable, extremely lethal vampire, and I'm sorry to say it but you're a very fragile human."

"I was the closest to Alice. I'm hoping my connection with her can help him. Please Jake, please. You're the only one that can help me. The others will refuse."

"With damn good reason Bella"

"Jake." I gave him my best puppy dog look, while still trying to make him believe that I would be just fine talking to Jasper.

"Do you mind if I at least stay close?"

"No, I'm sorry but he'll be able to sense you and that won't help any. You have to let me do this by myself."

Jacob sighed, "Okay but at least take my cell phone, call one of us if there's any trouble or if you need help. And Bella, don't hesitate to use the phone. Promise?"

"I promise Jake. Thank you so much"

"Your welcome. Now get in the car, it may take a little while to find him."

" I know exactly where he is." Jake gave me a strange look but started the car and followed my instructions anyway.

We got to the little cottage pretty quickly, even though it was tucked in the woods down a small path to large for most cars. I had Jacob leave me at the end of the drive and with a deep breath I began walking down the path toward the house. I knew he wouldn't actually in the house but in the small garden out back. The family knew the house was here, Esme built it for Jasper and Alice soon after they came to live with the Cullens. Jasper and Alice stayed at the main house for the most part. Alice enjoyed being around everyone and most of the time the emotions were so calming and soothing to Jasper, but every so often they'd come to their little house in the woods. I would have thought Alice would prefer a much larger, more elaborate house but when she told me the story of it I understood why this house was not the case. There were things Alice could remember from her childhood. Not so much her teenage or adult life but when she was very young, around 6 or 7, she remembered living in a tiny cottage in the woods. Her mother spent all her time in the flower garden in the backyard. Alice would spend hours there while her mother braided her, then long, dark hair singing sweet songs or reading beautifully crafted novels. Shortly after her 8th birthday her mother was brutally murdered Alice forced to watch as she hid from the attackers. That was when she lost her mind. A few nights before the murder she had a nightmare that it was going to happen and when she tried to tell her mother she simply said it was a bad dream, nothing to worry about. Soon Alice was plagued with awful nightmares along with pleasant dreams that foretold the future. No one believed her and simply said she was making it up. Eventually the dreams drove her mad and they had her committed. That was all she could remember of her human years. The rest she believes she repressed because of the atrocious place they had put her in. Mental facilities then weren't so much to help you but instead tortured you. After her transformation and before she met Jasper she had been disoriented and confused, she didn't know who she was or where she had come from. She was scared, alone, and thirsty. Visions began to come to her and that was how she learned to hunt. After awhile the visions changed and she began to see pictures of a man. A beautiful man with a thick accent and honey colored hair. Then she saw a family. They were like her but different, they didn't hunt the same way she did and she wanted to learn more. She decided to find the first man because she felt he was key to finding the family. After she found them she started seeing this house that was like the one from her childhood and a flower garden that looked exactly like where her mother used to sing and read to her. Esme found her one night sobbing outside and Alice told her all about her mother and the home and the flowers. Soon after Esme had a surprise for her and she whisked Alice and Jasper away to a small cottage in the woods. If Alice could have cried she would have been bursting with tears, sad but happy at the same time. When she stepped into the garden Alice felt such a calm come over her, and for once it wasn't Jasper manipulating her emotions. She could feel her mothers presence and she thanked Esme endlessly for the amazing gift. A gift no one else could ever give her. A mother's peace and love. Alice spent days out here sometimes, sketch book in hand always. She was an amazing designer and this garden brought out the best in her abilities. She brought me here once. When I was upset because of my mom being so far away. That was when she told me all the stories of her life. Stories she had only ever shared with Esme and Jasper. Edward didn't even know. She had never thought of it around him. I knew Jasper would want to be somewhere he felt close to Alice, so he would be here. I walked through the house and looked out the back door into the garden and there he was, sitting on the ground below the tall pine tree in the center of the yard. He looked so worn and shut off. Since he didn't hear me come out he was quite obviously much worse than I imagined. I felt strange practically sneaking up on a vampire. Maybe he did hear but and just decided to ignore me. I knelt down and placed my hand on his shoulder.

"Jasper?" He looked up with a blank and cold expression. "What do you want? Haven't you taken enough from me. Go back to your precious Edward and your dog. I'm sure they're all happy your alive. Even though you were never in any danger, no you saved that for the rest of us!"

"Jasper I'm so sor-"

"I don't give a damn if you're sorry." He stood up and began pacing, "You shouldn't be sorry your alive dammit! You forced Edward to stay behind, leaving less people on the field. Ally would've had a better chance with having him with her against Victoria. She had trained her play thing well, he was a better match for me than I expected. I couldn't help her, but Edward could've if he'd been there. If he hadn't been of with YOU!"

"I know Jasper, it's all my fault. She's gone and it's all my fault" I was starting to cry at this point.

"No! Stop! You don't get to feel sorry for yourself. If you had stayed away from my family none of this would've happened. We'd all be happy and whole, but we're not. There's always gonna be something missing now. No matter how much you try to fill the gap you can never replace my Alice. No with me, not with Carlisle and Esme, or Rose and Emmett. Not even your precious Eddy. You took something from all of us that we can NEVER get back."

"I never wanted to try to replace her, I just wanted to try to help. I loved her too Jazz"

As soon as the words came out of my mouth I knew I had made a huge mistake. Jasper's eyes darkened to the onyx color they were when the Cullens got thirsty, but right now he wasn't thirsty, he was angry.

"Do. Not. Say. That." He seethed. So quickly that I barely noticed it happened Jasper brought back his arm and practically clothes lined my torso and slammed me into the giant tree. Things started to fade out whenever I heard a voice, somewhat soft but angry at the same time. "Jasper what have you done! Bella! Bella it's alright, you're going to be alright" And with a slight pain in my neck and the sudden burn of the fire coursing through my veins I knew exactly what was happening.