My name is Jethro Gibbs, I am an NCIS supervisory special agent, well I used to be. That was until I lost the only woman I ever truly loved, yeah I loved Shannon, but this love was somehow different. The woman in question was a red-head yes, as you may have guessed this special woman is Jenifer Shepard. The true love of my life, my soulmate, and I love her. When we met years back she was just a probie, but she was was one amazing one. I loved her from the moment I lay eyes on her.

Sha-la-la-la-la, sha-la-la-la-la
You used to call me your angel
Said I was sent straight down from heaven
You'd hold me close in your arms

While we were in Paris I fell for her even more, pretending to be her husband was so hard because to begin with I wasn't allowed to touch her or even kiss her. That was until something went wrong and as a cover I pulled her out of the way and kissed her with all the pent up passion and love I had for her. She kissed me back at that moment and I held her close to me. She smiled up at me, she was smiling in a dream like manner, and her eyes were sparkling brightly as she kissed me softly again.

I loved the way you felt so strong
I never wanted you to leave
I wanted you to stay here holding me

The problem now is that she is gone, she died and I wasn't there to protect her, or even hold her. The love of my life died alone, before I could even tell her that I still loved her. I wish I had taken all those chances with her, and told her that she is my everything and always will be. I failed her. Just like I had failed Shannon and Kelly. I was asked once whether I would have children, after Kelly's death. I had said no but truth be told, that was because I only wanted them with Jen. She is my everything, my true love and my soulmate.

I miss you
I miss your smile
And I still shed a tear
Every once in a while
And even though it's different now
You're still here somehow
My heart won't let you go
And I need you to know
I miss you, sha la la la la
I miss you

I miss the way she smiled at me, the way her green eyes would sparkle when she was happy, and I realise I yet again have tears on my face. I miss her, I see her in everything I see and everything I do. She is in the boat I named after her, the sea I now sail on, and even the sky above my head. She is the sunshine that has tanned me, the birds that have landed upon the boat and even the rain that has cooled my burning skin.

You used to call me your dreamer
And now I'm living out my dream
Oh how I wish you could see
Everything that's happening for me
I'm thinking back on the past
It's true that time is flying by too fast

This was my dream, to sail and to be free, I told you that years ago, but what I failed to tell you was that my dream was with you, with you and the children we did not have the chance to create. To sail alone is not my dream, and it never was. To be with you, wherever you wanted, was what I wanted.

I know you're in a better place, yeah
But I wish that I could see your face, oh
I know you're where you need to be
Even though it's not here with me

They say you are in a better place now, but I wish I could see you again. I wish you could be with me because I love you so much, but for now I know that in heaven you are safe my love.