Dear Everybody!

So if you don't know I really never have the slightest idea where I'm going. I always plan a beginning and an end…any more than that and well I just sort of wing it, like a lot. :D big cheesy smile. What can I say I like it when my characters surprise me! Anyway I'm glad so many people like, especially in my lack of long-term skills, so yeah sorry it's been so long and I really love the reviews!

Cross High

Chapter 8

Silver and Gold

6/13/2010 5:42 PM

Kaname's hand felt good as it rubbed across his shoulder. The light spilled into the room through the thin curtain staining the room in a soft golden light of the morning. Zero sighed into his pillow. Morning had been well not long before. It had also been well… an inconvenience. More of its existence was the trouble. It shouldn't have found him there in Kaname's room curled up under the cotton covers where he had spent the whole night, which he had also spent, curled up under the cotton sheets. The perpetrator of the whole event presented himself; Kaname moved closer his breath danced across Zeros skin. That awful cursed breath! It should be acid based for how it seemed to bring only more and more trouble. It burned through Zero bringing him to situations exactly as horrible as the ones he was in at this very moment. Zero turned more into the pillow. He wasn't sure if he was ridiculously embarrassed or if he was absolutely insatiably furious! The night before had been well…unforgettable. Everything Kaname had promised. And still even more! Somehow the bastard had wrangled him into staying this morning. That horrid morning. He had wanted to leave. He should have left! But he didn't and now he was lying on his side trying to suffocate himself with Kaname's pillow and wishing he wasn't even there! All of this belonged to that bug-eyed faggot! If it wasn't for his cursed eyes and his perfect flattery and well sometimes insane, but always, effective methods!

Oh and that freak was curled so close up around him he wasn't sure which limbs were his and which were Kaname's and the worst of it was. besides all the little things like being so wrapped up in his sheets and having his cloths scattered all over his floor and knowing he had spent all night with that impossible freak! It was that right this second Zero knew that faggot was smiling. He knew that perfect and completely charming smile was plastered out on his face.

Kaname slid closer tugging Zero's waist closer to his own…Zero wanted nothing more than to wipe that smug smile right off his face…preferably with a chainsaw! But unfortunately with that option out of the question, he simply prayed for asphyxiation.

Zero had to concentrate on his breathing as he slowly crawled onto Kaname's bed. The room was incredibly dark, that he was very thankful for. It hopefully hid the fact he was shivering so hard he could barely keep on his hands and knees. He felt like his whole body was strung up, like a bow! So taunt and stiff he felt he would soon snap in two. He stopped as he felt Kaname was over him. He slowly let himself down on the bed. He felt Kaname's hand slide up his back. He sucked in another full breath trying to stay calm. The first time the two of the them had done it Zero was thinking 'okay, get it over with, then I get out' now it was—well he wasn't sure what he was doing now. He wasn't even sure of what exactly he was thinking. He had made a deal, but it didn't feel like a deal now. Now that Kaname had well…confessed? He wasn't sure if that was the right word. The point it wasn't just a deal anymore. Kaname had made it very clear it wouldn't end here. That lying queer!

But then again what was he suppose to do now? Kaname had made it even clearer that Zero was not leaving here until morning. So Zero had ended up staying. At the moment he knew he wasn't regretting it, especially after a brand of healthy threats he had gotten just a few moments before. What he was worried about was later… then he knew he'd regret this.

He heard a chuckle above him.

"What?" he had meant to growl it out at him but it had come out as more of a squeak.

"I thought you were nervous for the first round. But now you're even shivering?" Kaname leaned down to press his lips to the back of Zero's neck. "Really, Zero, do I have that much of an effect on you?"

Zero wasn't sure what to say to that. He lay there for a moment. He couldn't think of anything to really say. He wanted to look up at the man but he stifled the want deciding on something to say instead.

"This will be nothing like last time will it?"

He heard Kaname chuckle again still leaning down his lips pressing repeatedly to Zero's shoulder. "No, Zero, this is going to be nothing like last time."

Zero lay with his face buried so deep in to Kaname's pillow if he pressed any deeper his forehead would touch the floor possibly. Kaname in contrast was next to him his arms tugged around the teenagers waist he smiled at him, his head rested against his shoulder blade. Kaname was euphoric at this position. Elation over this whole situation was more like it. The dark haired boy looked up watching Zero as the boy fisted his hands in the pillow he was working on trying to smother himself with. Kaname chuckled a bit at him. He turned and looked back at the window the golden light spilling in to the room through the blinds was perfect for the situation absolutely perfect for it. Like a reflection of what Kaname had worked so hard for and now it was all here in his room. He had thought the night before had been amazing but this was truly amazing.

Kaname looked back to Zero. He let his hand run up his spine and to that pale soft hair. He laced his fingers through it enjoying the soft strands pulling against his fingers. He smiled as he did. The fine thin wisps of hair were so unlike his, but in the light they had almost a sheen to every strand. He looked to the window again. Like silver and gold. He rather liked that Idea the idea of a morning made of Silver and Gold. Kaname let his gaze wander back to Zero.

He pulled his hands from Zero's hair before he cupped his palm over Zero's head and tugged at it to get him to turn to him. His other hand went to Zeros shoulder tugging him to turn also. Zero responded turning on his side. Kaname smiled at 6he stone cold expression on the boys face. Those silver eyes stared straight ahead. He barely acknowledged that there was another presence in the room let alone whom that presence belonged too. Kaname let his hand curl around Zeros shoulder and his other tangle in his hair. Then he leaned down resting his chin on Zero's shoulder and simply watched him.

His mind wandered through thoughts as he watched the unyielding boy. He would have loved to claim that he had planned every moment of this down to the seconds he was spending now. The truth was he never planned on this. Well at least not at this moment. He hadn't planned anything like this moment. He had simply made sure that they would get too this point but well now he wasn't sure what was supposed to happen, and for once he didn't care. He brushed the long silver pale strands out of Zero's eyes. This moment was worth all the confusion. He'd deal with the world later but now he only wanted to deal with one thing and that was a 17 year old boy that he was tangled up with at this very instance. This one very blissful instance.

For the first time all morning Zero's eyes moved slowly to focus on Kaname.

"Hey." Kaname breathed

Zero's eyes turned back to the room. Kaname chuckled lightly. He ran his knuckles across Zero's fair colored cheek.

"I still hate you." Zero whispered.

Kaname climbed half way over Zero smiling before he leaned down and whispered himself. "I know." Then he lightly pressed his lips to that porcelain cheek.

Zero groaned as Kaname devoured the skin at his neck. Gritting his teeth he turned his face down to the mattress. Kaname ground down in to him. He was a lot more fierce than he had been the first time. This time now less asking of him and now was simply demanding. Forcing Zero to bend to his will. Kaname ground down harder, making Zero groan a bit louder from the pressure. The two had reduced their clothing to nothing but boxers. But as their situations became more apparent that wasn't hiding much either. Zero could feel Kaname grinding into him. Only the thin clothing was holding them back from the actual act.

Kaname's Lips traveled across Zero's skin. Zero would almost swear that he could hear the man purring. It was becoming more and more apparent who exactly was in control. Not that Zero hadn't known all along, now it was just obvious. Defeat subsequently was the last thing on his mind though.

Kaname shoved Zero down on to the mattress hard, Zero gritted his teeth his hand fisted in the first thing he could find, a pillow off to the side. He could feel the warm tingle of Kaname's breath tracing his spinal cord. He squeezed his eyes shut sure that what he was about to happen was nothing to what had happened to him. He shivered suddenly. A slight breeze coming through the window was stopping them both. Zero could feel the cool air stopping them both. Upon instinct he looked to the open window. His eyes widening as he caught the sight before him. The white rimed window was half way open or there abouts. The night air was drifting in through it. The thin white curtains drifted with the wind like ghosts in the pale dim light from the stars. The ghost's themselves seemed to shiver with the cold air and started to dance. zero watched fascinated as the two ghosts seemed to dance together, elegant almost in their slow flowing movements. They were perfect for each other really knowing each other's steps before they took them themselves. It was most certainly a dance for none but the most adept. His eyes followed the movements with great intent.

Abruptly his eyes flashed though as Kaname started to move off him to the window. The darker haired teen moved over him to the illuminated window, his bare feet touching down on the white carpet. Zero was fascinated further and the pale light touched the teens face and seemed to have the same effect on it as it did the wispy curtains. In that light those same cruel and controlling eyes changed. They shifted, changed completely and now surprised Zero to even look at them. Cruel turned to compassion and controlling to depth in those few scant seconds Zero focused on their magenta color, that was now somehow cooled. Kaname slide his other foot from the bed to hit the floor Abruptly bringing Zero back.

"No!" He said far more sharply than he had intended. His hand snatched Kaname's from the air. "Don't." he said a little less fervent, realizing how strange he must sound to the other teen.

"I was just going to close the window—" Kaname started, as if he felt there wasn't much cause for him to need to explain his actions.

"I know." Zero stopped him. He looked to Kaname's hand before back to his face.

"It's cold, Zero."Kaname continued this time.

"No, its fine, really." Zero said looking to the ghost of cloth again. they still danced lightly through the pale light.

"Zero," Kaname said turning to the window. "You're shivering, we're not leaving it open—"

"No!" Zero panicked a little, grabbing at Kaname's hand trying to hold him back.

"Zero!" Kaname said sharp surprised and a bit panicked himself. He turned back to Zero his eyes searching Zero's.

Zero looked to the window, the two ghost stepped slowly with each other, flowing, no leader, no follower, just a matchless dance of equals. He flashed his eyes back up to look in to Kaname's' eyes.

"If I'm shivering fix it." he said trying to shove the words out of his mouth before he would stop himself from saying them.

Kaname's eyes softened at he stepped slightly back to the bed. "Zero." it was a whisper this time.

Zero pulled Kaname's hand back to the bed pulling him down with it. Kaname let himself be pulled to the bed. Zero turned pulling Kaname down far enough to hook his other hand around his neck. He laced his hand through the dark strands pulling Kaname to him to meet his lips. He released Kaname's hand, abandoning it to run his fingers along his cheek. Kaname reacted instantly pushing the two of them to the bed, and opening completely to the kiss Zero offered to him. Kaname seemed to collapse in to the kiss, pulling his arms tight around Zero's shoulders. Kaname snatched at the opportunity Zero was giving him and the willingness he was finally showing. Zero himself pulled himself a little closer.

A moment later Zero broke the kiss. Kaname didn't protest burring his face in the curve of Zero's shoulder. He pulled at Zero to get him under him. Zero turned to the window his eyes tracing over the scene he'd become fascinated with. The ghosts were still there dancing along with the small breeze pushing them into their dance. they matched each other perfectly fluttering wisp-like in nature as the wind tossed them together. They complimented each other and welcomed each other's movements.

The clouds outside of the window shifted and Zero felt himself smiling as the moon shone in through the window. The entire room lit up with the pale silvery shimmers through the thin curtains tossed with the breeze. Zero pulled his arms a little tighter around Kaname's neck as he watched the small phenomenon through the window. The silver light stretched across the floor and reached the bed shining and shimmering across the two figure tucked so close together around each other. The light un like the sun only showed the bear minimums nothing more, but that was enough to reveal the scene the two were caught up in.

"Zero." Kaname said pulling Zero from his thoughts. Kaname had said his name like a call but more like a plea.

Zero turned to Kaname. The man had backed up several inches to look at Zero.

"Yes?" Zero inquired as his silver gaze, now striking in the silver laced light met Kaname's cooled magenta gaze. The two stayed there for a moment looking at each other. More than looking, finely seeing each other was more like it. Both of them finally looking at each other in agreement, with each other, or more of an agreement of what each other was as a persona and being content with that.

"You're mine!" Kaname whispered like it was an order, shattering the moment in to small shimmering diamonds as he pulled Zero to him meeting their lips before he shoved the boy to the mattress harshly.

Zero's eyes went wide at Kaname's actions. He smiled in to the kiss despite and simply pulled his arms around Kaname's neck as the teen pushed him down flat to the bed. Kaname's hands shoved at Zero's boxers. Zero kissed up in to the teen still though not stopping till he felt a cold touch. He broke the kiss with a loud groan.

"You're mine." Kaname repeated. This time pulling at Zero at the same time making the boy moan.

"Zero!" Kaname hissed.

Zero looked up. "I know." He said softly. Kaname's unoccupied hand curved around the back of Zeros neck forcing the boy to look straight at him. Zero wasn't looking anywhere else now though.

"I won't be letting you forget it." Kaname replied pulling himself farther over Zero and pulling the boy closer to him. The two's foreheads were almost touching now.

Zero watched Kaname. He really didn't have a choice the teen was taking up his entire field of vision. He had nowhere else to look.

"You really don't think I haven't realized that?" Zero said.

"I'm just making myself perfectly clear before we do this." Kaname countered. He moved his occupied hand slowly up and down as he finished, putting emphasis on what he was planning on doing.

Zero tilted his head forward touching their foreheads, but he glanced down before meeting Kaname's eyes again. "Just promise me you're not lying to me." he said.

Kaname broke the space between them with a gentle kiss before whispering, "I promise."

"Alright." Zero said in reply.

Kaname slowly started to speed up his hand a little. "Would you hold me too it at all?"

Zero waited a moment thinking before he answered. "I don't know how I ever could."

Kaname brushed his knuckles lightly up Zero's face. He looked down to his moderately pumping fist. The two were more than ready by now to continue. He swiftly acted then getting to his hands and knees. Zero groaned quietly as his hand left his most sensitive organ. Zero barely had time to be disappointed as Kaname flipped him, before pulling him up to meet him. Kaname himself only took a few seconds to slip out of his boxers. He smiled at Zeros moan s he lightly rubbed against him.

"I won't make you worry about it, then." Kaname whispered at Zero's ear. Then he gave a single kiss at Zero's neck and reached down to Zero's entrance.

The window had been shut at some point in time. Zero had no idea when exactly but as Kaname pulled him to look at him he had noticed it. It didn't bother him now. The dance the curtains had performed the night before was over. It had been something only important in the moment and now that the moment was over he didn't feel the need any longer. He kept his eyes down as Kaname pulled Zero closer.

"Should we try it again?" Kaname whispered suddenly at his ear.

"Kaname!" Zero growled into the sheets. He would have thought the man knew better by now. He was sore enough anyway.

He heard a blissful chuckle before and arm reached around his field of vision and pulled him straight to Kaname. Kaname's mouth was now right at Zero's ear. His warm breath that had been one of the define characteristics of the night danced now down Zero's neck.

"Alright, how about a shower then?" that same voice spoke. It had sounded so different the night before. It was lighter now, less intense. Like a heaviness had been lifted from Kaname and now he was almost cheerful. In fact as Zero thought on it he was in his own way.

Zero on the other hand was intent not to change. The night before had been…changing to say the least, but now it was over, he had to get back to normal and he was going to do it. He had no choice. With in the very day he would have to return home. He would have to start going on like nothing had happened…and more importantly like nothing had happened that he had consented too. They would have to go back ot the real world and they would have to do it soon. He needed to be able to do that. He wanted to be able to do that…he knew though.. there was no taking what they had done back now. He couldn't go back, he simply had to go on and Kaname had made it clear that he was good as claimed, but what about anything more? Neither of them could let a soul know what had happened in this room.. neither of them wanted a soul to know what had happened in this room.

"Whatever." He growled and buried himself in Kaname's chest, pulling an arm around the man, and himself deeper in to Kaname's embrace.

Kaname smiled looking down at the contradictory boy. With his voice he tried pushing him away but with his body he pulled himself deeper. The teen was so deep now Kaname himself might have trouble stopping him. He knew he would have trouble even stopping himself. That might be the hardest part. He would want to touch him… he would want to touch him in public even. He would have to force himself to not.

Kaname quickly forced those thoughts away though as he lifted slowly from the bed half taking Zero with him.

"Come on, my bathrooms just in here." He directed as he stood form the bed. He turned to the bathroom holding Zero's hand firmly pulling the teen with him.

Kaname didn't have any other option now. When the time came he would pick Zero. He'd promised he would. He knew this coudlnt' stay a secret, he just hoped they had enough time to get their lives in order before it was flung out of control.

"NUHHHH!" Zero screamed. He hissed and sputtered at the pain. It was shooting through him. Screw whatever the two had said to each other done, he was hating his decision now. What ever made him willing to endure pain like this? He was an Idiot! Who would go through this kind of torture willingly not just once but twice now!

"shhh." Kaname tried comforting at his ear. Leaning over the boy in the dark room. He had thought he would have been already stretched plenty enough. Zero had quite apparently tightened up since then. Kaname had not expected it in the least. Zero was no longer moaning in pleasure exactly. "It'll be fine, calm down."

"It hurts!" Zero hissed. He was panting hard his fists in the sheets and his body shaking. "I thought you told me this would get easier!" he hissed.

Kaname cued at his ear trying to move as slow as possible. They had tried fast already, Zero had only gotten louder and the screaming had gotten more pained.

"I know, it's okay though."

"Anhhhh!" Zero let out again as Kaname slide slowly back in. he breathed hard for a moment before catching his breath he spoke. "How about we switch places, then you can tell me it'll be okay."

Kaname rocked back out again. "shhh, Zero. Have you forgotten already? It gets better."

Zero groaned painfully and bit down on to the pillow in front of him. Zero breathed heavy for a few more seconds before he finally answered.

"It gets better once you hit it!" Zero snarled and cleaned up again. "So far you have yet to come close."

"Zero." Kaname hissed over him, his hands at Zero waist tightening.

"You're the one that told me I'd enjoy this!" Zero snarled more violently now. He placed his hands at eh top of Kaname's mattress pulling himself forward and away from Kaname.

Zero!" Kaname hissed quieter but razor sharp now.

Zero continued. "You wanted me Kaname not the other way around!"

"Zero, please." It wasn't a request, as Kaname spoke it.

"I—"

"Zero!: Kaname snarled and slammed forward as hard as he could. He stopped the second he figured out what he had just done. His eyes wide he froze. His hands started shaking as he reached up Zeros slender heaving back. The fact of what he had just done replayed in hid head. Yeah the two had beat each other up on a regular basis but this had felt out of line. If he'd hurt the teen under him he had no idea what he would do. He couldn't hurt Zero! He couldn't hurt him at least right now.. he already hurt the boy. They fought like cats and dogs. It was expected this had simply been… different.

"Uhn…" Zero let out softly.

Kaname's eyes darted forward as he leaned down, preparing to pull out. "Zero?" he asked shakily.

"Do it again." Zero said. His voice was much different now. Shaky but not like before it was breathless and desperate but not like before now it was breathless for a completely different reason.

"I—" Kaname started

"Do it again!" Zero demanded.

"Fine." Kaname hissed. He rocked in to Zero just as hard again. His movements were accompanied again with a softer moan. Kaname smiled as he pulled Zero too him starting a rhythm. Content to know the boy was lost in him movements again.

Zero moaned louder and louder as Kaname started in to him harder than ever. He growled as he started to move his hand down. His hand was quickly pinned by Kaname. The two were out of breath and very close. Zero tried turning back to growl at him but he was abruptly forced up on to his knees. Kaname slipped his hand around Zero's shoulder and up to cover his mouth hushing his protests.

Kaname then simply leaned his head against Zeros. Content to finish as they were. Zero breathing was just as deep as Kaname's breathing. Their bodies shuddered against each other with every breath they pulled in. Kaname was amazed at how in unison the two were. He never stopped the deep thrusting as he went along. Resting his head against Zero's shoulder he was feeling perfect hearing the boys heartbeat increase with his own. He could feel his warmth and taste his salty sweat slicked skin.

Zero gave out a whimper moan and pulled his hand down to his member. Kaname smiled, he couldn't blame him he himself was very close to the edge of a climax. All the same Kaname released Zero's mouth to pul both of Zero's hands away from stroking. Zero let out a pined whimper. Kaname pinned Zero's hand behind his back using one hand he held them there as he replaced his hand over Zero's mouth.

"shhh. It's alright. I'll handle it." Kaname comforted as Zero whimpered more demanding this time. Kaname smiled and continued to thrust deep and hard. The dark Haired teen was very close to Cumming.

Zero pulled back on Kaname's hand he pulled his head back to Kaname's, trying ot burry his face in the side of Kaname's neck. Kaname complied and let his hand slide down to the boys neck. He nuzzled at Zero lovingly as he continued.

"Kaname." Zero whimpered, pleading.

"Mhnmmm." Was all Kaname could manage. He thrust faster, erratic now. Then it hit. He pulled Zero as close as possible and slammed himself as far in as he could get moaning loud as his seed filled the teen in his arms. He groaned and nuzzled at Zero more letting the orgasm ripple through him. a few moments passed as he pushed the boy down to the mattress and lazily stretched over him, enjoying the feeling of his soft pale skin.

He finally came to himself opening his eyes and he noticed Zero struggling with his hands. He chuckled softly before flipping the teen.

Zero's hands were to the swollen organ in half a second.

Kaname pried them away. "Calm down."

Zero was panting still his eyes half lidded he was staring down at Kaname with malice. Kaname gave a deviant smile before he slowly lowered down. His breath slowly went down Zeros length. A loud moan escaped form Zero's lips startling Kaname. He'd thought he might have just cum. He smiled again and opened his mouth and slowly lowered it down over Zeros tip. he sucked lightly before continuing down farther

"K-Kaname!: Zero let out and Kaname's eyes widened and his mouth was filled. Kaname was mildly surprised. He'd barely started. He had thought Zero would have held out at lest a little elonger. He looked up to see Zero's eyes on him, he wasn't sure how to interpreted the expression on his face. Fear? Anticipation? Anxiety, definitely.

He abruptly swallowed, before sucking lightly still at Zero's member, getting as much out as possible. Zero groaned in to it. As Kaname finished he let Zero's member drop from his mouth.

The pale haired teen lay there, eyes half lidded as Kaname crawled his way back up his body to lay next to him.

"Do you regret it?" Kaname asked softly.

Zero smiled up a him already drifting in to sleep. "No,"

Kaname smiled himself. "Alright." He then pulled the boy to him and resigned himself also to sleep.

So questions to you guys. I just went to my Cousins Wedding this weekend, had a blast and all that but I thought of something, What is the definition of Love? Like the real deal not infatuation. So that is my question to you guys. Define Love. My definition would have to be—Love is an organism, created slowly between two or more people. It is alive or it is dead, as an organism it has many different forms and comes in many different way, it can be dysfunctional like a live being and it can be perfect. Love is as awful as it is beautiful and love has a zero long shelf life—it is either growing or denigrating not just in waiting. So love to have reviews if you have the time to leave some and if you want you can answer my question too. See yall next time!