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Dear Diary,

I love Stefan. Those three words were the one and only thing in my life, which I hold to close to my heart, that kept me sane in times of complete insanity. I thought they were absolutely, positively true beyond a doubt… well, I've been second guessing myself so often that maybe just maybe it's wrong.

If someone would have told me last week that I could possibly love someone even more than I love Stefan, I would have laughed at the thought. However, thanks to recent events, I've began to wonder if I'm in love with two different people that so different, but yet alike.

I unconsciously began to fall in love with someone I never thought possible. I feel this invisible force that lures me into him, this dark, handsome, mysterious creature. There's no way to explain it, except that… it feels right when I'm with him.

I'm not sure what I'm going to do yet, but I do know for sure, that I have to save Stefan no matter what the cost since its all my fault he's trapped in that awful place of a prison. I can still picture exactly what it looked like. The defeated look in his eyes, he'd given up on all hope, just crushed my heart. Oh, wait no! I guess there's two things, because I have to start listening to what my heart has been trying to tell me.

I never thought I would have to do this, but I have to find a way to choose between the two of them. I promise myself; no I swear I will not tear up the Salvatore brothers any more than I already have. I won't make the hatred they feel towards each other any deeper. I don't want to hurt them like she did. I will NOT be like Katherine.

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