Sometimes, there are precious moments when no words can explain what they go through, tho we know so much is going on within their heart & soul. This is one of these instants in time when all kinds of feelings are mixed and hard to cope with (and I admit, I sometimes look for a tissue in my immediate surroundings). Thanks for reading and especially for your review. It's always a strong incentive to go on.

I'll try to make these in forms of drabbles or double drabbles, if I manage.

I can't wait to read what you think of these. I'll post more as they pop in my head... With warm regards, Lyxie.

This first one is related to ep. "Gillian".

Just Love

Damn, it hurts!

Like my heart had been ripped from my chest.

I feel so empty.

Alone.

Betrayed.

The pain is never gonna disappear.

How could you do this to me? Why did you get here first? Why does it have to be YOU to destroy everything. I thought I could trust you. I thought you were my friend. You traitor!

I can never survive this. I don't wanna hear any more of this.

I hate you!

I want you to feel exactly how I feel right now. That's why I hit you. And it's not even enough for what you've just done to me.

I should hit you hard, again and again, until you're hurt bad too. Until you understand you ruined my life. My love. My hope.

I'm lost.

Why do you even try to comfort me now? Why do you put your hands on my shoulders? Why do you try to hold me in your arms?... Where I feel... safe...?

Oh man, please, hold me tight. Close to you. To your heart. Where my life will find meaning again. Where I know I can survive all this.

I'm sorry I hit you, Starsk.

I love you, Buddy.

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