Adieu

Mom….

I remember the time where you hugged me with your warm arms. I miss that time, mom…. But now, only cold wind that grasp me. Can I have that warmth I miss so much again?

I miss your voice. It was a lullaby that always drifts me to sleeps. And now, all I can hear are voices of people. People that hate me for the sin I've done. Can I somehow hear your symphonies again?

The way you yelled at me and Al when we bullied each other, I also remember that time. Hearing you yelled at me made my heart shattered, mom. Though at the time, I'm so foolish. I just stormed away without saying sorry to Al. And to you. Aren't I stupid? But…. That emotion showed that you cared about both of us. Can I hear your yells again?

How I miss your laugh, mom…. Your laugh always cheered me back then. The first time you laugh, I love the sound. And from that time, I decided to make you laugh, always. But can I bring your laugh again, mom?

And your smile. Your smile is the best thing I've ever seen in my life. I love how the pure smile graced your lips. I love the looks in your face every time you smile. It brightened my days. Can I have your smile again, mom?

If I look again now, I realize that there are many things that I wish to be here again.

Mom…. I miss the times we've been through together. The sweet times you gave me. Now, I can only wish I will see you again. But after the sin I've done, will you even accept me as your son? Although, if you reject me as your son, I will still love you mom. Because you're the one person I will love until the last day I stand on this ground. The person I will always remember until my heart stop beating. Until the breath leave me. Until the world shut down on me.

But mom, the moment I remember so much is not the ones that I just list down. It's something else. Something deeper. The one that had been carved since then. Since the day. The day you slipped away. I was holding your hand at the time, mom. And then you just slipped away, as easy as the wind that passed through the clouds. What people usually say is true. "When you have the one you love dies in your hands, the feeling will be carved eternally in your deepest heart."

Mom…. The moment I remember you the most will haunted me forever, isn't it? That time…. When your eyes shut the world down and your hand fell from mine. Those memorable times. The moment that hurt me the most in my entire life. You don't even say goodbye. You only left like that. Leaving me and Al alone.

And that was the time when I said…. Goodbye, mom.

A/N: Done! A 500 words drabble ;D Sorry if there are typos and grammar-error. And sorry if that's not really good.... I'll try my bestest! Review to tell me what you think. I really appreciate your reviews, readers! :D