Edward lay in his bed again that feeling of not wanting to get out and just to lie there day in day out but he knew Roy would come and that was good bacause Roy Mustang made him feel better again like the whole in his heart was gone.

The whole had first started to rip open when he lost his mother as a boy then when his father never returned to him and his little brother but it got bigger when Al was lost and his thoughts consummed him... Could he really ever be loved with metal limbs.

He heard his appartment door open he always left it open now today he just didn't want to go out because he knew Roy was taking him to see winry and granny he didn't want to go. Winry and Granny had been told that year ago about the situation but Edward had never gone back to risembool to see them he couldn't bring himself to.

"Ed?" He had gotten used to the colonel calling him by his name but at work it was always Fullmetal he shifted in his uncomftable bed and grumbled.

"I thought we agreed you would be up and dressed when I got here" Roy sighed and stood with his hands on his hips making him look strange to Edward as if he was mocking a woman.

"I don't want go" He mumbled.

"You have to face them sometime Ed" Roy leaned down to face the boy who was wrapped in blankets but his face was showing and he looked adorable like that.

"I'll be there with you" He whispered kissing the boys head.

"Fine" The teen mumbled getting out of bed his boxers were slipping off his small hips as he walked to the bathroom and at the last moment he grabbed them and pulled them up Roy chuckled and waited in the dinky kitchen while he did that he made Edward some breakfast.

Edward slumped down into a chair with a sad look i n his face Roy sighed and was about to talk when the boy mumbled something.

"She'll cry" He muttered.

"I'm guessing you mean Winry your friend and all women cry there's nothing wrong with it and if she does don't blame yourself like always" Roy told Edward who sank more into his chair.

"Do we have t-" Roy interupted.

"Yes you need to go see them there like family right you should go and see your family" Roy said sternly but his face had a softened look to it.

"Okay but not for long!" The teen shouted grabbing his red cloak Roy stood up and nodded but he wasn't entirely happy.

The train ride was quiet as Ed fell asleep on Roys shoulder and Roy just read but as the train stopped Ed woke up and things got a bit uneasy.

Roy had to knock on the rockbell's door and practically push Edward in there.

"ED!" Winry almost knocked him over when she hugged him.

"Hey Winry" He said quietly.

"You big dummy you haven't had your automail checked in a whole year and you didn't call again" The girl cried hitting Edward with her wrench over and over again.

"Sorry I tightend the screws myself though" He mumbled.

"YOU WHAT!" She shreiked.

"It was just a few" He cowarded away as Winry clawed at his shirt to look at rusty automail and the skin it was attached too looked sore.

"EDWARD! YOU RUINED IT AND LOOK AT YOUR SHOULDER!" She screamed Roy didn't like how this was going.

"Oh shut up like my automail is a big deal" Edward spat walking out of the house.

"Ed?" Winry said seeming upset.

Roy stood there uncomfotable and glanced over at Winry.

"Why did you come here?" Winry asked none to kindly.

"I made sure he came here other wise he wouldn't be here" He said back looking at the window and then glancing back at the girl.

"Oh Thanks then... So how has he been for the past year I can only guess he's been a wreck since A-Al..." She satrted to tear up Roy didn't know waht to say.

"He's been difficult and a mess its hard just to get him to work and he hardly soicalizes anymore." He explained.

"How do you know all that I thought you two hated each other" Roy chuckled and decided to go and find the FullMetal alchemist.