-Edward is in new Mexico
-Bella did jump off the cliff but Alice did not go there.
- Jake is a werewolf
-EPOV
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7 months.
28 weeks
196 days.
4704 hours
282240 minutes
1694400 seconds
And each second- I saw her face, heard her voice.
The desire to go and check on Bella was killing me. But, hadn't I promised peace? A lifetime without her seeing me? There were many promises that I'd never kept-so why keep this one? I just wanted to see that she was happy, having a normal life-was that so bad? I knew that my life was meaningless without her. I didn't have a motive, a reason, to live. I had promised her that I would never,ever leave her. But I just had to. She would welcome me back with open arms. I saw her-her brown eyes, her heart-shaped face, her lips that were curved into a forgiving smile. No. I would not disturb her-my mind was ordering. But my heart-yes, my heart,the same heart that I thought was in Forks- was telling me to go back. I would beg her to take me back. As long as I was with her.
The ring of my cell phone stopped me from debating more.
Alice.
But why was she calling me? I picked up the phone and pressed the button.
"Edward" she paused before saying more "Come home-please."
"Why?" I asked. My voice sounded dead. Lifeless.
"I have to tell you something- I saw-" she stopped.
"What did you see?" I prompted.
"I saw Bella jumping off a cliff. I swear- I wasn't looking for her. But I could see. And if you don't want to come home, then go to Forks, please. Because I also saw you and Bella together again. Were you planning to visit?"
I could not answer. Bella jumped off a cliff? Why? Was she trying to kill herself? Because of the pain I had put her through? I clearly remembered the empty, broken look on her face when I was telling her that I didn't love her anymore. It was heart-breaking. But..Alice had seen us together again. My decision was made in that instant. I was going back. If she was dead, then I would kill myself, too. But, I had to see her first-alive or dead.
"Bella is..dead?"
"No..well..I'm not sure" she paused "Edward, you have to go!"
"Yes. I'm going."
"Okay. I'll tell Carlisle and Esme. We want you back. Bye" She hung up.
I was going to see Bella. Finally. And I had a good reason to visit her. But..what if she was...dead? I would die. I would cease to exist if something happened to her. But, if she was alive-and I was desperately hoping for that.
Before I knew it, I was in my Volvo, driving to Forks. I could not wait to go home. Bella was my home. My life. I started to debate again. What if Bella was alive? Would I leave her again? Would I be strong enough to? I had to be. She was too good to belong in my world. I could not destroy her like that. I had to stay away from her.
What if?
What if she didn't want me to stay? What if she had moved on? what would I do? Kill the boy she wanted? And force myself on her? That would be very wrong. She deserved him-not a cold, selfish vampire. I knew exactly what I would do- kill myself.
I just noticed where I was. Phoenix. The memory hit me like lightening. The sun. James trying to kill Bella. Me thinking about going to Italy.
I knew exactly what I would do if Bella was dead or if she didn't want me- I would go to the Volturi and do something to irritate them.
I drove and drove. I just stopped to fill the gas in my car. When I went inside to pay- the female attendant's thoughts caught my interest. She was thinking about my looks- how sad and lifeless and dead I looked. how I looked like a mad man.
I almost ran from there. I did not want to know what she thought about me. I wanted to know what Bella thought about me.
I started driving again- at the speed of 120 miles per hour.
A sign caught my eye- Welcome to Washington.