Hi every one this is my first fanfic. It's about Jacob and Renesmee's relationship when she grows up.

Hope you like it. Rating will change to M due to future lemons. Lol

PLEASE REVIEW and tell me what do ya think!

Disclaimer- I don't own this song or the characters. SM has it all.

THIS IS EDITED AND BETTER VERSION OF MY STORY. THANKS TO MY SUPER DUPER BETA.

Cause with out you I can't sleep
I'm not gonna ever ever let you leave
You're all I got
You're all I want
Yeah
And with out you I don't know what I'll do
I could never ever live a day with out you
Hear with me do you see your all I need

-I will be; by Avril lavine

Today is Friday. Yippe!! I've always loved Fridays mainly because today my best friend Jacob Black is going to come and spend the rest of the week end with me.

This tradition started about 3 years ago. I was technically 3 yrs old but looked about 12 years due to my accelerated growth. There are defiantly pros and cons of being a half vampire and half human hybrid.

You've got the super fast speed and strength. Beauty like you've emerged out of a magazine plus a much better mind than humans. But my human side makes me weaker than my vampire family. I can bleed and I get bruises and lately I've been feeling cold. My temperature going lower than normal. Grandpa's first reaction was that my immortal vampire side is dominating over my human side. But that was impossible because I'll always be a half human, no one can deny that. So he is still trying to find the reason for it.

So 3 years ago people in Forks started asking grandpa Carlisle about his age. And more and more teenage boys were turning to young wolves in la push due to the large coven of vampires next door. So my family decided it was time to move on. My first reaction was HELL NO!

We had to move on and that meant that Jacob, my best friend, had to stay there. I'd become accustomed to living with him, so this was not ok. He'd always been in my life since the day I was born. I was afraid. How would I survive in this world without him? I mean I had my parents and my whole vampire family but still, I needed him. After all he's the one who kept me sane through all these years of such an accelerated growth. I know that I'm a freak. A stupid hybrid who tried to kill her own mother during the delivery. He got me through life. All this time Jake was there with me. Even if I was a freak he made me feel special. Like I was his top priority.

He was willing to leave his pack, his family, to be in the company of a hybrid freak like me. But I didn't give a fuck as long as he was coming with me. Then dad explained me how important his pack was and how he was the only alpha now because Sam had given up his wolf form to age with his wife and baby. Then, mom told me that his father, Billy (who was like a second father to me), should not be left alone at this age. Jacob had a family there and he shouldn't give all that up for me. I promised mom and dad to convince him to stay in La Push. So I tried my best to convince him. Even if somewhere in the back of my mind I was hoping that he would come with us.

It was very hard to convince him but at last he agreed to stay. As always Jacob would not deny me anything. We made an agreement that every weekend he'd come spend time with me and once every month I would go and spend 3 days with him in La Push. But this weekend was special because I'd been at Tanya's wedding with my family for two weeks and I had not seen him since before then. Initially, he tried to come with us and I was very excited about that. Then as always dad ripped my aspirations to shreds and told us that it was not a good idea for Jacob to come with us as there would be lots of other vampires and it would make everyone uncomfortable. So we agreed to that. Actually there was left nothing to choose from. So this was the longest I'd ever been away from my Jacob.

I was still feeling very cold, but then grandpa Carlisle started to think it was because I spent two weeks in Alaska and my human side was not used to sudden weather changes. He did say that I'll probably be back to my normal temperature in a week or so.

So here I was sitting in the cafeteria of my school with my group of friends, away from my family who were sitting there in the far corner. My friends didn't mingle with my family much. People found them intimidating, but they found me friendlier and less "eerie" so I made friends easily. Anne was a very good friend of mine. She knew everything about me except my vampire secret. She understood me well. She knew my likes and dislikes and she had no problem with the way my family acted. My dad did me a favor by searching through her mind for any discomfort or if she was a mean girl like the other girls who were jealous of my family's beauty, but she had a "pure heart" as my dad quoted it.

"Vanessa! Vanessa! You here?" She said waving her hands in front of me to get my attention.

"Oh … yeah I was just thinking about someone. I am pretty excited about this weekend."

"Why? What's happening this weekend? Is this someone a boy?" she asked

"I was thinking about Jake. He is coming up tonight and he is spending the rest of the weekend with me. Don't make a big deal out of it. I've already told you that it's nothing like that between us. He's my best friend and has been there since I was born" I said but she didn't look convinced.

"You've grown up together, right?" she asked

"Yeah…kind of" I lied.

This was the part I hated the most about my life. She was a very good friend and sometimes I just didn't want to have any secrets from her. I just wanted to have a normal life. But what would I say to her 'Hey! Anne, Guess what? I'm a hybrid between a vampire and a human. My parents are vampires but my mother was still a human when she conceived me. She almost died in the birthing process. Well technically she is dead and as you can see, so is the rest of my family sitting there. They all are immortal vampires but we are different, we are vegetarian vampires. We feed only on animal blood and the ones I call my brothers and sisters are actually my parents, aunts and uncles. And that guy I call my best friend, Jake, who I was thinking about before, is a werewolf. You know shape shifters – a man who turns to a wolf at his own will. And we haven't grown up together exactly. I grew up, abnormally fast by the way, but he stays the same. Well, I mean, he can age but only if he gives up his wolf form, which I hope he does not do because I won't be able to live without him. And I, your best friend is technically only 6 and a half years old. It's that fast growing thing. Yeah it's a little hard to believe, I know. So what do you think Anne?' Yeah she totally wouldn't freak out at that.

Soon the bell rang and we all moved to our classes. I was too damn exited to notice my dad standing in the way of my class with my mom.

"Vanessa can we talk to you for a second? "My dad said.

My family called me Vanessa in public but it was still weird to hear myself called that by my family.

"Sure sure" I replied and smiled at the taste of the words I'd picked up from my Jacob. At that my dad made a hissing noise through his nose. Not so common for a graceful vampire like him. What was up with him? Then I realized.

"Dad you know that I wasn't really going to tell her about our family secret you should to trust me about that at least! I don't want to have to move again." I defend myself but he soon he cut me off.

"I know Renesmee!" he hissed lower so no human would be able to hear.

"We are here to talk about Jacob dear." My mom spoke for the first time.

I almost went limp, hearing the sadness in her voice.

"WHAT?! Is everything all right? Is he okay? Did something happen?" I asked as I started to hyperventilate.

"Why do the women in my life care so much about that mutt?" dad said under his breath, frustrated.

"Honey, calm down. Jacob cannot come today; he's got some important pack stuff. He'll be down tomorrow." Mom said and then placed her arm around my shoulder as if I was going to collapse.

My voice was struck in my throat and I wanted to run away so fast. To my Jacob. To La Push. I wanted to be alone with my disappointment. But as helpless as I was I just nodded.

Mentally I told my dad not to follow me. That I was going to home and they could make any excuse for my not attending class. I didn't even wait for his permission.

Once I got to the woods behind the school I started running at my full speed running towards my house. Now that no one could see me, the tears came and I did nothing to stop them. They blurred my vision but I still reached home in no time.

Grandma Esme was in the garden watering the flowers. This reminded me of Jacob how he used to come early and spend time with grandma Esme gardening. But today he was not coming. Maybe he came to his senses and finally realized that he was wasting his life on me.

I think grandma saw me because she was coming towards me. I just stopped her saying "Please grandma understand, I. Need. To. Be. Alone."I put emphasis on each word, yet my voice still seemed small.

And in the next instant I was running toward my room.

"It's ok honey!" She called up, even though I could have heard her normal soft voice, "Call me if you need anything."

My sobs increased as I burst into tears lying on my bed.

I didn't care if grandma was able to hear me. I was working myself up, and I knew it. Jake was coming later, but I'd talked myself into the thought that he'd never come back. After some time, when all the tears were finished, and I'd calmed down a bit, I drifted off to sleep.

There was a superlative contrast between my skin tone and his. We were at First Beach in La Push. Our favorite place.

The sun was setting across the sea leaving everything around us an orange-pink color. His arms were around my waist and my hands, as if they had a mind of their own, rose to come around his neck.

The look in his eyes was one I recognized very well, but I wasn't able to place it. He was looking at me as if I was the only person in the world. Like he had wandered lost in the desert, been thirsty and hungry for weeks and now he was seeing a lake.

A blind man seeing sun for the first time.

Our faces were close. Closer than they ever had been. Close in a not so platonic way. As our noses brushed, my breath came in pants. I'd never wanted anything so much in my life. It would only take a millionth of a second to reach out and touch his lips with mine, but I was already stretched far beyond my limits due to his towering height.

"Please Jacob!" I said, breathing hard.

"Please? Please what? Say it Ness. " He said teasing me to go on. As if he didn't already what I was asking for.

"Jake…Jake…pl-" he cut in before I was able to say anything.

"Yes honey I am here. What happened?" He was more realistic than ever. I felt as if something warm and cozy was wrapped into my side. It was running its hands up and down my opposite side. So warm…so nice…

WAIT……WHAT?!

The realization came crashing over me like ice water, making my already cold body shiver. I opened my eyes and blinked them rapidly to check if I was still dreaming.

"Good morning honey!" he said his breath tickling my shoulder blades.

In the next instant I flew across the bed to the opposite side and was hiding my hands behind my back. Did he see that? Did he see my dream? Oh my god! If he saw it then our friendship will be ruined. He'll never want to see my face again.

"Nessie, what?" he was confused. That must mean that he hasn't seen anything. Of course my Jacob had morals. He wouldn't watch my dreams without asking.

But I was still upset that he came late. "So you're here now? Your pack stuff is over? Sure you have time in your busy schedule for me?" I said, a little too harshly.

His seemed hurt. I kicked myself for being rude. Here we were, after so many days, and instead of welcoming him and telling him how much I missed him, I was scolding him for being less than 12 hours late.

"You know that Alice can't see me so she tries to see through blind spots. She made a wrong assumption that I wasn't coming. I was…well I am…I mean…She miscalculated. I'm here to take you to La Push to spend the weekend there. We're having a bonfire tonight!" He sounded so cute, stumbling over his words. Typical Jake. And he sounded so darn excited to go, it melted my heart. "But I understand if you don't want to come. " He said and I could see the hurt in his eyes.

In the next heart beat I flew into his arms and buried my face in the crook of his neck. I inhaled his scent deeply. It was a scent that was purely Jake. Like a musky spring, rain and the forest. He smelled like home.

"I'm so sorry Jake I didn't mean to be rude. I was just upset, because I missed you. And then suddenly you were next to me when I woke up all cuddled up. It just startled me. That's all. You know how I get when I first wake up." I apologized to him.

His arms around me tightened and he held me closer. He began rubbing my back soothingly like my mom used to do to calm me down when I was younger. But it was so different with Jacob. I was sitting in his lap and a shiver ran down my spine, my heart thrumming faster than ever.

"I missed you too Ness. More than you know. Your mom told me to snuggle up with you because she said you were feeling colder than usual. So she thought this was the only way to bring back your normal temperature. Are you okay now?" He asked.

"I'm alright. I would love to come to La Push Jake. How could I pass up a bonfire with my wolf family?" I said and then removed my head from his neck to smile up at him.

Jacob chuckled, his smile brightening the whole room.