So, I know it's been forever since I updated this thing, but things have been a little hectic. I had finals and I desperately needed to pick up my grade if I wanted to keep getting scholarship money. Sucks, huh? BUT, I managed to pick up two of my grades by a full letter grade, so yay me :D you probably don't care about all of this, huh?

BUT, after finals were over and it was back home doing nothing, the worst thing ever happened! You know the part of the laptop where you stick the charger in? That hole thing? Well, mine broke. Like, it got pushed in so the charger thing couldn't reach it. I took it to the shop to get repaired over a week ago and just got it back today. And there was the hassle of renewing my license and reapplying for grants and scholarships and whatnot. Oh, the woes of school, huh? But here am I continuing this!

After I left Sirius, I found myself standing on the balcony of the Astronomy Tower. I stared up at the moon shining brightly overhead and couldn't help but think about how beautiful it looked. I sometimes found it hard to believe that something that caused me pain once a month for years could be so beautiful. I looked away from the moon and stared down at the grounds below. I could see almost everything from where I was standing.

I looked down at the place that I knew was the courtyard where I had just kissed Sirius. I wonder if he's still there—who am I kidding? It's been like half an hour since I ran off. He's probably back at the ball or in the dorms or something. I looked back up at the bright moon and sighed. I don't know what had come over me back there. The moment had just seemed so perfect and I just couldn't help myself.

I had lost track of how long I had been standing there lost in a daze. I looked around to see what had pulled out of said daze but saw nothing. I stared into the darkness of the room and realized that I could hear footsteps. It sounded like they were about to reach the entrance of the tower. I ignored it and stared back out at the moon. It was probably just some couple who wanted to fool around up here. They'll probably leave once they saw me standing here.

I heard the door open but didn't turn around. It was quiet for a while. The couple probably thought I didn't know about them and were trying to get away without me noticing. After a few more seconds, I heard the door closing quietly and more footsteps. It took me another couple of seconds to realize that the sound of footsteps was getting louder instead of fading away. I also realized that there were only one set of footsteps and not two.

I turned around and saw Sirius stepping out of the darkness and into the light the moon provided the balcony. I think my heart just stopped beating. What was he doing here? How did he find me? I wanted to run past him and get away, but my legs felt rooted to the spot.

"I was looking everywhere for you," Sirius said as he moved to stand in front of me. I stood still and just looked at him, unsure of what I should say or do.

"Why did you do that?" Sirius asked me softly. I was a little confused at first, but then I realized that he must be talking about how I had kissed him.

"Sirius, I'm sorry. I don't know what came over me," I apologized. "I shouldn't have done that."

"No, you shouldn't have," Sirius replied angrily, causing me to bow my head in shame. "Why did you run away like that?"

"What?" he was angry at me for running away? Shouldn't he have been angry that I kissed him instead? Maybe he was angry because I ran away before he could curse me?

"Why did you run away like that?" Sirius repeated. "How could you just leave me like that? You didn't even give me a chance to say anything!" Sirius's voice seemed to increase with every word he said. He would be shouting soon if he kept this up.

"I…" I didn't know what to say to him. He wasn't acting the way I expected him to. The entire time I was here, I had imagined different scenarios of what would happen when he confronted me. but I never pictured anything like this to happen.

"Things have been so weird between us lately," Sirius continued since I wasn't speaking. "then you kiss me and before I even realize what's going on, you pull away and leave me there standing like an idiot trying to figure out what's going on."

"Sirius, what are you trying to say?" I managed to get in while Sirius stopped for breath.

"Why did you run away right after you kissed me?" Sirius asked slowly.

"Because I shouldn't have kissed you," I replied, unable to look him in the eyes.

"Why? Is it wrong to kiss me?" Sirius took a step closer to me. I took a step back because his closeness was making me uncomfortable. I felt my back hit the railing on the balcony.

"Sirius, we're best friends. We shouldn't be kissing each other," I gave him the only reason I could come up with. I honestly didn't think it was wrong kissing him. I actually liked it. But I knew I shouldn't have done it. "You said it yourself, Padfoot. Trying to turn our friendship into something more would only ruin what we already have."

"But that was before…" Sirius said so quietly that if it wasn't for my werewolf hearing, I probably wouldn't have caught it.

"Before what?" I asked when Sirius didn't continue.

"Right after I said that…when that guy bumped into me and pushed me into you, something changed the way I saw things." Sirius moved to lean against the rail next to me.

"Changed? What are you talking about?" I thought back to that day. The same day that Sirius said we were just friends and nothing more was when Avery caused him to kiss me. afte that we hadn't talked for over a week.

"That small kiss changed how I looked at things. I know I said we shouldn't be anything more than just friends, but—I don't know, Remmy. I just don't know. On eminute, I was thinking that nothing would change the fact that you were my best friend and nothing more, then the next thing I know, I see you in a different light and I just…want to kiss you again."

"I don't understand…"

"Something happened when we had that kiss. It made me re-think everything I said just minutes before," Sirius explained. "I couldn't explain it. I found myself thinking about you and more and wanting to spend more time with you than usual."

"You ignored me for over a week," I pointed out.

"That's because…" Sirius paused and I managed to see a small blush grace his cheeks. "I found myself wanting to kiss you again. I had a lot to think about after that and I know I couldn't think properly if I'm around you and wanting to snog you all the time."

"Sirius, what are you trying to say?" I felt a strange feeling building up inside my chest. I felt anxious, and something else, but I couldn't place it.

"I like you, Remmy," Sirius's voice was barely above a whisper. "And I don't mean I like you as a friend."

"Wha—what?" I felt like an idiot. I was staring at Sirius. I was opening and closing my mouth, trying to find the right words to say, but I couldn't make any words come out.

"I like you, Remmy," Sirius repeated. "I like you a lot. Hell, I think I might even love you."

"You don't mean that," I looked away from him and felt like kicking myself for saying those words. I've waited and longed for him to say those words for years. But now that he's saying it, I'm trying to get him to take it back. What's wrong with me?

"Yes, I do." He said in a firm voice. "I've thought about it for a long time and I know what I'm talking about."

I felt anger building up inside me and I couldn't explain why. "A long time? Sirius, you had like a week! That's not a long time."

Sirius was giving me a confused look. My anger came out of nowhere. I think it's because it took me forever to realize my feelings for him. It took me almost a year of denial and experimenting that made me realize my feelings for him. How could he say that in just one short week, he managed to figure out something that took me a year to understand? "Love is too complex to figure out in such a short amount of time, Sirius. How can you say you think you love me when you've only thought about it for a week?"

"I don't know, Remmy. I just know how I feel. And I feel like I love you."

"You don't mean that, Siri." I tried to keep my voice calm but I was failing.

"Yes I do!" he insisted. "Why are you trying to make me change my mind?"

"Because you can't decide you love me after a kiss and a week of thinking when it took me a year to figure out I loved you!" My eyes widened when I realized that I told him more than I meant to. Oh, crap.

"You love me?" Sirius's voice was quiet and unsure.

"I have for almost two years," The words came out of my mouth before I even had a chance to think about it. Oh, hell. I might as well get this out now. "Sirius, it took me a whole year of thinking and messing around with other guys to realize that I felt something for you that was more than friendship. And after that I spent a year pining after you but keeping it to myself."

"Why didn't you tell anyone?" I couldn't read the expression on his face. Usually, I could read Sirius like an open book, but now I couldn't figure out what he was feeling.

"Because I knew nothing would come out of it," I explained, the anger gone from my voice now. "Lily knew since last year and Avery figured it out after we dated this year and they've been pushing me towards you."

"That explains the looks I've seen them throw me on occasion," Sirius said softly to himself. "Why were you fighting them?"

"Because I value your friendship too much, Siri," I looked him straight in the eyes before I turned away and stared at the dark grounds below. "I didn't want to try and turn it into something more then have it go back and lose you as a friend. I couldn't live with myself if I did that. And, you weren't exactly into guys at the time."

"But you found out I was bi."

"Sirius, I've seen you with other girls. You go out with them, you get bored, then you forget they even exist. I didn't want that to happen to us. You're one of the best friends I've ever had, Siri, and I didn't want to give that up for a small chance at romance."

"But things are different now, Remmy. I love you and you feel the same. So why won't we go out?"

"Because I don't want to lose you as a friend!" The anger was coming back and this time I felt tears welling up in my eyes.

"But you aren't going to lose me as a friend. We'll still be friends, but we'll also get something more. Don't you want that?"

"What happens if it doesn't work out?"

"But you don't know that it won't work out. We could be in this forever."

"I don't want to risk it, Siri," The tears were falling now. I tried to turn my eyes away so he couldn't see but it was too late for that.

"Life is about taking risks, Remmy," Sirius said softly. He reached forward and wiped away some of the tears.

I couldn't help but laugh a little at what he said. "You sound just like Avery. He's been insisting that I take a risk and ask you out for the longest time now."

"Heh, I guess he's smarter than I thought," Sirius mumbled softly, pulling me closer and wrapping his arms around me.

We stayed like that for a while; just hugging each other and enjoying the company. Sirius's words were echoing in my mind. What if we could be in this forever? That would definitely be worth the risk.

"Remmy, I know you're scared and I'm scared, too," Sirius spoke up after a while. "I don't want to lose you as a friend and I'd never forgive myself if I ruin this friendship because I screwed up a relationship. But I think—no, I know I love you, Remus. And even if I don't want to risk this friendship, I want to be in a relationship with you." Sirius pulled away and looked straight at me. "I swear to you that if you accept, I will do all I can to make sure this relationship works out."

I thought about it. I would be lying to myself if I told myself I didn't want a relationship with him. "I need you to promise me something, Sirius."

"Anything."

"Promise me that if this relationship doesn't work out, we'll get past it and still be best friends. No matter what happens."

"I promise you that if—and this is a big if—our relationship doesn't work out, nothing will change the fact that we're best friends. No matter how horrible the break up, I will always love you; if not as a boyfriend, then as my best friend."

The tears that had stopped came back again and I felt Sirius pull me closer and tighten his arms around me. I pressed my head into his shoulder and whispered a soft "I love you, Siri."

"I love you, too, Remmy," Sirius whispered into my hair.

After a few minutes, Sirius pulled away again and looked at me. "So, does this mean you're saying yes?"

I couldn't help but smile back at the grin he was giving me. "Yes."

Sirius's grin got even wider, before he dipped his head down and captured my lips with his. My arms snaked around his neck and I lost myself to the taste and feel of his lips.

Falling in love with your best friend can end in two ways: total disaster or complete bliss. I found myself falling madly in love with my best friend. And, what started as a total disaster is turning out to be complete utter bliss.

Now, is anyone else sad to see this end? Because I sure am; I've been working on this story for a couple months now and I'm glad it's over but also sad at the same time. So, to replace this story, I have a new one coming up so look out for what :D

Guess whose birthday is on Wednesday! That's right, me! Last year of being a teenager, here I come! You know, a review would be an awesome present :D HAHA.

I just want to say thanks to everyone who has stuck with me and this story. Whether you just found it now, or you've been reading since the beginning, thanks so much. All you people who reviewed, alerted, and favorite-d this story have been my motivation since chapter one. When I first started this, I never expected it to go this well, but it did, thanks to ALL of YOU. I love you guys!