Chapter 6- Isabella Swan

What was I thinking agreeing to study with him sometime? I had no idea who he was, but there was something drawing me to him, like a moth to a flame. The further I got to Forks my heart was aching and the tears were streaming down my face. I knew it was because of him. I just I needed to be near him. When he sat down beside me in class. I was highly aware of his presence. My body betraying me, wanting me to reach out to him to have some kind of contact. I was thankful when he initiated contact because the pain was pure agony. What had caused this to happen?

I didn't think he would hurt me, but his cold touch reminds me so much of James. I knew deep down that the people who killed them weren't humans. I'm pretty positive they were vampires, but vampires don't exist. It's just some myth. I never dwell to long on thinking about what they were. The doctor's had drilled that into my head.

For months after my parents died I had seen doctors. I could see the look on all their faces, they thought I was crazy talking about vampires and I knew it wouldn't have been long before I would have been living in a mental institution. I then decided to put the thought of vampires out of my mind, but I knew deep down in my heart what I had seen. It would never leave me.

Jasper or even Carlisle for that matter act nothing like James. They were nice and caring. With Jasper it's like there is a deep connection with him. Almost like we have known each other forever. They are nothing alike, so why am I so scared to get close to him? Perhaps it's something deeper on my end? Maybe I'm scared to let anyone in? I have lived and been alone for the past eight years. Why was I so scared to let anyone into my life? This is suppose to be a new time for me, a new life, so why was I so bent on keeping my old ways? All these questions plagued me, but I wasn't ready to answer them.

I finally made my way home. Time I walked in the door my phone was ringing. I dug it out of my purse, flipping it open without even looking at the caller ID.

"Hello," I answered dropping everything down on the table.

"Bella?" Someone asked with a velvet voice. It sounded so much like Jasper. Hope and butterflies swelled in my stomach at the thought that it was him calling.

"Yes, this is her,"

"Hey it's Dr. Cullen, I was wondering if you wanted to go ahead and set up an appointment to get the stitches removed?" Disappointment settled in the bottom of my stomach. I should have known it wasn't him. In fact I never even gave Jasper my phone number in the first place.

"Oh, hey, umm…yeah," My reply came out more as a question.

"Bella, are you okay?" He asked with a worried tone.

"I'm great, I am actually just walking in the door, but we can go ahead and schedule it,"

"How about Thursday at ten, will that work," he asked nicely

"Perfect," I said

"Alright I penciled you in. You haven't been having any problems with it have you? Carlisle asked going into doctor mode.

"No, it hasn't. I think it's healing pretty nicely," I said looking down at it. When I took the bandage off at night it looked fine to me.

"Well that's great," Carlisle said "So, I will see you then, bye Bella."

"Yes, thank you, Bye" I replied and hung up. Okay see they are nice people. Even if they had the same features as James and he was a vampire. There is no way Carlisle could work in a hospital where there was blood everywhere. Sometimes I wonder if I read too many supernatural books. The phone ringing again brought me out of my thoughts. I really needed to stop thinking so much into everything, I was overreacting in true Bella style.

"Hello," I said

"Bella, it's Jake,"

"Oh, hey what's up?" I asked

"Well I was wondering if you wanted to hang out at the reservation Friday night. We are having a bonfire," Jake asked excitedly.

"Sure, that sounds fun. What time? You want me to bring anything?" I asked

"About seven," Jake answered. "And no we have everything covered."

"That's fine. I will see you then," I said.

"Okay, Bye Bells,"

"Bye," I said pressing the end button. I really liked hanging out down there. The rest of the night was spent working on some of my homework. Tomorrow was my off day and the start of my online classes. Once I was done I went back downstairs and cooked dinner. It was nice and quiet, but sometimes I just wish I had some company. Once I was finished I went to bed and fell instantly into a deep sleep of dreaming.

Jasper Whitlock

I watched Bella's car pull away from the school and made my way to the Volvo. Edward was already sitting in it listening to some music. All we had to do now is wait for Alice to finish class and then we could head home to deal with everything else. No doubt Rose was going to have something to say.

"So how were your classes?" Edward asked making conversation. I climbed into the back seat.

"Great, my history class is with Bella," I said excitedly

"That's good now you can spend more time with her," Edward said.

"Yeah," I said and then thought about the question I wanted to know. Would it be weird to ask my ex wife's husband that type of thing? I saw Edward giving me a questionable look. "Edward when your with Alice do you get an electric charge running through you?" I asked curiously.

"Yeah I do, it's more like a shock though. Why?" he asked turning around to face me.

"It happened in the hallway with Bella and I didn't know what it meant. It was like I was being tied to her and I could have sworn my heart beat a few times," I stated.

"Hmm… maybe it's a way of saying that we have found our other halves," Edward said with his brow furrowed "But I wouldn't know. That's something Carlisle could better answer for you, especially the heart thing," What if this was a way of figuring out or identifying one's other half. It would be remarkable.

"I will ask him once we get home," I said. "But if that's true and Alice was your soulmate why didn't you two figure that out once we met?" I asked completely wondering.

Edward just laughed out loud "You're asking me about it now, five years later,"

"I guess I am" I stated wondering if it was a complete mistake for wanting to know if my ex wife ever felt something for another person while we were still married. I mean I wouldn't have cared now if she did.

"First of all you can get off that train of thinking. Alice and I never acted on anything. When I first met her and we shook hands there was this electrical thing running through our bodies like you are talking about, but we didn't think anything of it, but it was like I knew everything about Alice and vice versa; like we had known each other for years. The more we really got to know each other we just figured it had to do with our gifts. That was really the only way we were connected; with our minds. Later on I did see the visions of you and her with other people, but I could never figure out who they were, so imagine my surprise when I see it and it's me she's with. I won't lie to you Jasper, there was always something there between us; we just never knew what," Edward said and I could tell he was telling the truth. There was no way he could lie to me and like I said I never felt anything coming from them.

"I believe you, but why do you think it took Alice that long to see it was you she was with? Shouldn't the vision have revealed itself the first time you met, because your souls found each other?" This was a really in-depth conversation and I knew I would have to talk to Carlisle at some point to really understand. He spent some time with Marcus of the Volturi, who has the power to see relationships, so I was sure he got some insight to relationships.

"I really don't know Jasper; maybe fate has a funny way of dealing with things. What if Alice had a vision of us when we first met? Then that would have changed everything for you. You might not have stayed with us and went back to your other lifestyle or done something completely different. I think that you were supposed to be with Alice at first to understand our lifestyle and figure yourself out. That way when you were ready you could be with Bella and Alice's visions came full force. She could see clearly, which changed her future to," Edward explained. So I was supposed to be with Alice. When I left Maria I had no idea of what the world had to offer. I was with her for more than a century and she just taught you to hate, kill and fight. I never knew what love and family was until Alice brought me to the Cullen's. Yes Fate as a funny way of dealing with things, but one thing I know is that it will all work out in the end. "Yes it will," I heard Alice say walking up to the car. What is she a mind reader now? Edward just laughed.

"Hello, boys," Alice said climbing into the passenger seat giving Edward a kiss on his lips. I really need to get my own car. Hearing it all at night is enough, but seeing it up close is just too much.

"Why you're just going to start riding with Bella soon enough," Alice said winking at me. Edward pulled out of the parking lot and started the drive home. With every mile we went to pain lessened. I guess because I was getting closer to Bella.

"So how bad is it going to be when we get home?" I asked referring to Rose's pissed attitude.

"Not as bad as you think, but she will say some hurtful words just to prepare you," Alice said.

"Jasper, don't listen to Rose. You and I both know how her mind works. She will try to bring you down to get her way, but she has no say so in the matter," Edward said encouragingly.

"I won't. I will just hit Emmett with a mean dose of lethargy when she's in the mood to get some," I said smirking. They just laughed with me.

We finally made it home after school. Rosalie was still not talking to me; which was fine. No one had said anything about Bella at all, but I could tell they were all happy for me.

Once I got home I went upstairs and started on some of my homework, who gives homework the first day? I was finished about an hour later and then I started reading. Everybody else was downstairs. I was waiting until Carlisle and Esme got home. If I went down there now a fight would start and I might not be able to stop myself. When I heard their car pull into the garage about an hour later, I joined them in the living room. Rose was glaring daggers at me. I growled a little at her. She instantly turned away. There is no way she is winning this fight. I looked over at Edward, he was smirking at me. Carlisle and Esme came in a few minutes later. They looked at us with confusion and came around to join us on the couch.

"What's going on?" Carlisle asked. I looked over at Rosalie waiting on her to begin.

"Jasper met Bella today," Alice said speaking up happily. She would always be the one to start up a conversation.

"Oh, she's a wonderful girl," Carlisle said looking at me. I could feel the happiness coming off of him. He thought highly of Bella.

"Yes, she's perfect," I said proudly

"She's human. How can you agree to this?" Rose said. I could feel her anger building.

"It's called L.O.V.E," Alice said spelling it out. That made Rose go over the top and Alice knew it would. I could see her smirking out the corner of my eye. It looked like Edward was trying not to laugh to. We all knew she was not going to win. She just wanted to put on a show. I love Rose very much, she's my sister, but there was some things she had no control over and she needed to learn that. I would always want her happiness. Why couldn't she give me mine?

"No, this is just wrong. Don't you see this is going to ruin our family? She is going to find out about us and then we are going to have to move or better yet the first time she bleeds, he is going to go right for her. Jasper's control is not that good. Humans cannot be a part of this family. Then what will happen if the Volturi find out? Huh?" Rose said finishing her rant.

"Rosalie, shut up! I have waited the last five years to meet my soulmate and I will not have you take away that happiness from me just because you despise humans. She is my mate and I will be with her. I would never hurt her. Well as for the Volturi, they hardly ever check on us, but if Bella does want to become part of this family I will grant her that request," I said sternly. I could feel how proud my family was for standing up to her.

"Well if you do stay with her Emmett and I will be leaving this family. I will not be around when you kill her and we have to move again," She said.

"Rose, you would leave?" Esme said starting to dry sob. She was hurt that her family could not get along and that two of her children would be leaving the family.

"Look you have made you mother upset," Carlisle reprimanded. Rose's gaze softened a bit.

"You listen here. Jasper has been working on his self control for the last four years. He has done perfectly and can even go into a hospital without his blood lust taking over. He will be with her. I have seen it happen no matter what," Alice said

"Rose, I really don't want to leave the family," Emmett said sadly, but I knew he would follow her wherever she would go. They were mates and could not be apart.

"So that's why you have been working on your control?" Rose asked with wonder. I could feel a hint of how proud she was of me.

"Yes," I stated.

"I really think you should give Jasper the chance to be with her. We all have someone we love and right now Jasper is pretty lonely and trust me I know how it feels. I don't think he would hurt her. You should have seen them today. I could practically feel the electricity radiating off of them. It was like they were in there own little world. Why would you deny him his happiness?" Edward said. Rose's features softened after that.

"Ugh… fine I see how it's going to be. I'm not going anywhere, but I will not be nice to her either," There is the cold-hearted Rose coming out again.

"Thank you," I said. "I will prove to you that I can be with her. I'm tired of being the weakest one in this family,"

"Jasper, it's not that. It's just that I don't want some human to come in here and ruin this family. There are a lot risks associated with this," Rose said sincerely.

"I understand that Rose and I know that you don't like humans because you want to be one, but please just get to know her when she starts coming around here. You never know you two could become best friends," I said.

"I'll see and I'm sorry; you are my brother after all and I care about you," Rose said sincerely. What she was really trying to say was I love you and I could feel it in her emotions.

"Thanks and I hope you can come to understand in time," I said. Rosalie just nodded. Esme looked thankful that nobody was leaving in her family, Alice looked smug, Edward looked amused, and Emmett was just happy to be staying here. This conversation was done for now and hopefully would not ever be a problem again. "Well I'm going to hunt," I said standing up. Everyone just nodded and left the room to go do their own things.

I ran out of the door and just took off running I had no idea of where to. I finally picked up on a scent. It was a grizzly bear about two miles south. I took off full sprint and took it down. It was wonderful. Today really was a good day. I didn't feel my thirst or bloodlust all day. That could also be because all my attention was on a small brunette, but I was proud of myself nonetheless. Hopefully I had changed for the better now. I buried the carcass and took off running again. It wasn't until I was in the middle of Forks did I realize where I was going. I had no idea of where Bella lived. I started sniffing the air. Her scent was not in the air at all. I then decided to try a different method. The ache in my heart was still there and that could help me find her. It only lessened when we were closer and touching each other. I walked around in a circle feeling my dead heart for any lessening pain. It was when I was facing north the pain let off a fraction of an inch. I took another few steps and it went down more. So she lived that way. That road basically led to the outskirts of Forks.

I took of full speed again, following my heart. I was getting closer. It was then Bella's scent me. She smelled so delicious, but I would never harm her. I finally spotted her car in the driveway. It was a nice cozy house at the end of a lane. There was only one other house further up. I snuck up to the front window to see her. She was sitting down having dinner at the kitchen table. It was fascinating to watch her eat. I had no idea of what human food still tasted like, but it looked revolting. I watched how Bella moved around gracefully in the kitchen. Every now and then she would stumble a little over nothing. It was kind of funny, but I really didn't want her to get hurt. It was still hard to believe that after five years I was sitting here staring at my future. She was everything I wanted. I knew we had a deep connection and it was so much stronger than Alice and I. I had finally found my missing piece and I was going to do everything in my power to keep her in my life.

After about an hour of watching her she finally made her way upstairs. I could hear the water running; she must have been taking a bath. I pushed the pictures of her naked and water running down her creamy pale skin out of my head. It would not help at all if I projected my lust. I walked to the side of the house and climbed up the tree. I stopped right outside her bedroom window. Bella climbed in the bed and soon her breathing evened out and I knew she was asleep.

I moved from the side of the house and started looking around on the porch for a hidden key. No such luck. I walked over to the door there were about five locks on it and most of them were deadbolts. Why did she have so many locks? Who was she trying to keep out? The back door was the same way. I then started checking all the windows they were also all locked from the inside. There really was no way for me to get in without breaking something and I didn't want to do that, it might scare Bella. I went back around and climbed the tree across from her bedroom. I made my way over to the window sill and just sat there basking in her emotions. It was serene and calming.

After about thirty minutes I jumped down and started making my way back home. I couldn't wait for tomorrow, I was going to stop by and visit her. I just wanted to know so much more about her. The further away I got the pain came back. I was surprised that Bella didn't realize the pain had almost completely gone away while I was sneaking around outside her house. Surely she must have felt that. I was about a mile from her house when my vision started to glaze over and I stopped completely falling to the ground and darkness overtook me.