I sighed. This wasn't what I planned. I didn't choose to fall in love then lose him. That was me though. I was the girl that falls hopelessly in love and then he always disappears leaving me in the rain.

This happened with Sasuke and now it's happened with Gaara. I guess I thought I'd have a better chance this time. I really am just a fool.

"Sakura I'm so sorry!" Ino cried picking up the stuff on the ground that fell. She had bumped into me dropping all of my papers. I couldn't bring myself to get angry with her or even show any emotions. What can I possibly do in a situation like this?

"You can keep that love story if you want. I won't trust anyone for a long time anyway. My story is called 'Forbidden Rain' read it you might like it." I said with no emotion in my voice as I walked past. I saw her immediately begin reading the story from the corner of my eye.

I looked up at the sky as clouds passed by. I felt dazed… like my whole life just changed in two seconds and it was amazing like an adventure out of a fairytale, but suddenly everything is back to normal and I'm the only one who noticed it.

"Sakura, do you want to eat some ramen with Hinata and me?" Naruto asked me, grinning his stupid grin as his arm wrapped around the blushing Hinata.

"No thanks. Catch you later Naruto." I told him using my same no emotion voice.

I want to get out of shock.

I want…

To die.

I walked to the training grounds when I saw Sasuke. He had come back from Orochimaru a few months ago and this was my first time seeing him.

I hugged myself as I walked over to him and smiled slightly trying hard so he wouldn't notice.

"I guess you've finally come back." I told him as he turned to face me. He examined me his eyes full of scrutiny as I acted like I was fine.

"You've changed. You're stronger and you're sad. What the hell happened to screw you up?! I can tell your upset so don't bother to hide it. I also know you don't 'love' me anymore." He said and stared at me for a second longer before he hugged me.

I didn't feel shocked or anything as he informed me of all these things. I just allowed him to do as he pleased knowing I have no will to stop him. This life… just doesn't seem worth living.

"It's nothing that you should concern yourself with Sasuke… just leave me alone." I told him and backed away from him wondering why I even bothered. Suddenly everything started to go black and me… I fainted.

When I woke up Tsunade was smiling at me sadly. "On your mission to the sand someone poisoned you. I can't find a cure but according to our charts you will die in a few days time." she told me then hugged my weak form.

"How do you know this?" I asked softly then she showed me my charts. The poison has already damaged so much… luckily none of it will stop me from doing missions until the last day. I just most likely will have a ton of black outs.

Inwardly I smiled. My wish had been granted. Everything I cared about was gone anyway. Naruto would be sad at first but he'd get over it with Hinata. Sasuke might be sad for a little bit but he too would forget me. Ino would get depressed but give her a month.

Tsunade would be fine of course. Lee would go suicidal till he realized he was in love with Tenten.

I got up and left the hospital. When I got home I put on my silky black dress with my black heels. I had on my diamond necklace that I had been saving for a special occasion that was never to come.

"The Kazekage is coming to inspect you and see if his medic ninja can heal you." Tsunade said and just as she said this Gaara entered the room. I wanted to cry when I saw him but I knew the new me wouldn't cry.

"It's okay Tsunade. I'm fine with the way things are right now." I said smiling making Tsunade and Gaara gasp.

"See you couldn't expect me to keep this charade forever. I have a top secret mission I was supposed to do anyway. It was a huge life or death mission. My mission of course is to survive and with me about to die anyway I can do this mission with even more urgency. Tsunade may I please talk to the Kazekage alone for a second?" I asked smirking as she left silently thinking about what I said.

"Hey Gaara!" I said grinning as he stared at me bitterly.

"Why do you want to die?" He asked making me cringe.

"It wasn't like that! I just lost too much over the past few days that succeeding for my village might be for the best! I-I loved you so much but it's okay. It's okay now. I'm fine." I told him grinning a cheesy grin like Naruto's making him smile.

"Liar." A voice behind me said making me turn.

"Sasuke what are you doing here?" I asked him as I took a step back.

"Uchiha this is none of your business!" Gaara said glaring. He was obviously mad that he couldn't tell I was in pain when a boy I didn't like could.

"She's my friend so of course it's my business. Gaara you idiot, why did you dump her?" Sasuke asked hugging me from behind so I couldn't see his face.

"I can't let her lose it all with me and her happiness is what's most important. I can't let her be taken away from her friends and family." Gaara said angrily as though this was obvious when I hadn't even heard any of this!

"I have to go prepare for my mission… bye!" I said and disappeared in a puff of cherry blossoms.

I'm leaving and I'm dying.

Can anyone save me?

Or am I already dead?

Goodbye Leaf.

Goodbye Sand.

Goodbye Gaara.

Goodbye Sakura.