Rin feels only one emotion, sadness. While trying to take care of her dying mother, her father treats her like dirt, and she can't do anything about it. She has no hope that life will get better. So why is Sesshomaru interested in her?
Eh, I know I should be doing other things besides this, but ah well, I smiply had to right this down, all this in one night, and now Im extreamly tried, Im so going to pass out soon XD
enjoy!
Thoughts are in Italics
March 6-
Nothing good can happen in my life.
It was another sad note she had written down in her journal. She had written many other depressing notes down, some more sad then others.
Rin sighed and closed her journal, yet again she only wrote a few words. Of course, what she wrote down seemed cliché, even if it was true. It would take her hours to write something, and when she did, only a few words describe what she experienced or felt. Rarely, something longer than ten words would be written, but rarely. She was never a talkative girl. She was like the girl who was always depressed, but then sooner or later, the girl would find happiness, but her hope for that was long gone.
She put the journal in her large music box, though, no music played. She took out the key from her pocket and locked it, she then put the box behind a stack of magazines in her small closet. Rin put the key on one of her shelves under a teddy bear.
It was a good place to hide them, her father would never look there, plus he would always have to find the key…
Father…
Rin flopped on her bed, burying her face in the pillows.
'He always treats me like trash, calling me useless, and weak. I suppose I should not complain, it will do nothing…He was once a good father…why do things change for the worse for me?' She tried not to remember the good times…
'The good times…they where only a few…
Rin turned around to face the ceiling, she closed her eyes, and sighed.
I wonder when the next happy moment will come.
"Rin…Come down stairs…please…" A voice called from below.
'Mother!'
Rin jumped out of the bed, and quickly ran down the stairs, trying so hard not to fall, she ran to her mother, who was on the couch watching TV. She was covered by a warm pink blanket.
Rin kneeled in front of her mother's pale face. "What do you need Mother? Are you ok?" Rin asked worriedly. It was obvious that Rin cared for her mother.
"I'm fine," Her mother told her, smiling a bit, "Rin honey, can you get me a glass of juice?"
Rin sighed, glad that she was ok, she nodded her head, and went into the kitchen, and poured juice in a glass, trying not to spill it, she gave it to her mother.
"Thank you very much Rin." She sipped her juice slowly.
Rin nodded her head again watching her mother closely for anything wrong.
"Rin, I'm fine, you can stop worrying about me now." Her mother told her.
"I'm sorry…" she apologized, looking at the ground.
"Rin…I just don't want you constantly worrying about me, because you are sad that…I'm in this condition"
"But mother, it's my job to worry and care for you…" Rin argued.
"Yes…but it is also my job to worry and care for you. You are my only child Rin." She smiled at her. Rin only nodded her head, sadden by her mother's words. 'But are you strong enough to care for me mom?'
Her mother glanced at the clock, 9:47 pm. "It's getting late, you should rest, you start your new high school tomorrow."
"Mother…," Rin stood up and walked to the stairs. "Please don't remind me."
Rin's mother laughed, "You will be fine, just promise me to make new friends."
'I'm sorry mom, I don't think I can make that promise. "I will try my best mother." She lied.
Making new friends is hard to do, unless you have the right looks and attitude, you'll be fine, but to Rin, she would never have those things, plus she hated the attitudes of some girls, with their dirty language and such. Rin would never fit in with any kind of crowds. A loner, nothing more, and she preferred it that way. It made things…a little easier.
"That's my girl." Her mother smiled a big smile for her daughter. It was the only thing that made Rin a little happy.
Rin tried to smile back, but couldn't, "Good night mother, sleep well."
"You too Rin, have wonderful dreams!" She called.
'That's another thing I can't do."
Rin said nothing, instead she went upstairs to brush her teeth and change into her blue fuzzy pajamas. She had already taken a shower half an hour ago.
After done all those things, she went to her room, and went under the covers, staring at the ceiling.
'I truly hope that school won't make things worse that it already is…'
She was lucky that her father was not home now.
Rin closed her eyes, wishing that she wouldn't dream about anything.
Morning-7:00 A.M
In the very second Rin woke up, she wished she hadn't. The sound of her alarm clocked buzzed, and she got up to turn it off. She stretched her body and rubbed her eyes. Rin went to her closet and picked out an outfit that was perfect. (Even though, she really didn't care) She left her room right before she got another key, and locked her room, another reason to love her room. Rin went down stairs to start breakfast for her, and her mom. She knew there wasn't must in the fridge but she knew she could make something.
Awhile later she set 3 dishes of pancakes on the small table and began eating quickly.
"Rin…please don't eat so fast, you'll get sick."
The sound of her mother's voice made her stop eating, Rin chewed the last bites of her pancakes, and gulped it down. She took a sip of orange juice.
"I'm sorry mother, I wanted to leave early for school. Good morning." She told her quietly.
"Good morning to you too, and school starts at 8:30, its only 7:10. Why so early Rin?" Her mother asked, as she sat down at the table.
"I'm walking to school, remember, I don't want to be late to school mom." She answers tiredly.
Her mother shook her head, and took a bite out of the pancakes Rin made. "You didn't get much sleep did you Rin?" She asked. Still shaking her head.
"I did, but I want to sleep more than 8 hours." Rin said, narrowing her eyes.
"Rin…," Her mother smiled, chuckling a bit, "Your just going to have to get used to it!" Her mother cheered.
It was one of those moments where Rin wished she could laugh along with her mom. But she couldn't. Life was too sad to be laughing.
Rin's mother knew that she never wanted to laugh again, she even made a promise to her that she never again, and that sadden her. She was a smart woman, but she doesn't have the power to make Rin truly happy.
Rin's mother thought for a moment. 'Hmm well maybe this year she would find the right boy to love her and protect her. Oh yes! I can think of all the possibility!' She giggled loudly.
Rin sighed, knowing her mother was somewhere off in lala land, 'she does that quite often these days' Rin sighed again.
'Well, if you're done day dreaming, I'm going to go head for school."
"Remember your promise Rin."
"I know mother, I'll try my best, and I can promise you that."
Her mother smiled at her, and hugged her only child, Rin hugged her mother back.
Rin left for the door, picking up her backpack she then reached for the door knob.
But something made her stop.
"Hey kid! Where's my breakfast, I'm hungry!"
The voice made Rin freeze, and she couldn't move.
Her Father was wake. And he sound mad.
Rin snapped back to reality, "Your food is on the table, the newspaper is there also. I'm going to school."
Her father narrowed his eyes at her, "Like I give a damn where you go! It doesn't concern me! Just like…"
Her father went on, insulting his 15 year old daughter, while she blocked him out. Lately she has been getting better at it.
"I'm going."
Rin slammed the door, and began to walk to school. "I Hate life."
It didn't take long for Rin to walk to the high school. She lived fairly close to it. And she was glad that she wasn't the only one walking to school.
It was probably the largest building she ever saw in her life. It was just so huge and wide. Rin began to panic. 'Yeah, I was right, I'm so going to get lost…'
Not trying to be seen, Rin went to the door that said 'Main Office' to get her schedule. It was warm and large, all the desks had millions stacks of paper on it, a women sitting at the front desk noticed Rin.
"Can I help you?" she asked, though, it didn't sound welcoming.
"My name is Rin Akita, I need my schedule." She said, not even looking at the woman.
"Did you lose it? You should know you class schedule by now." She said irritated.
'Ugh, Fool.' "I'm New to this school."
The women drop the pen she was holding, "sorry" she murmured, and took out a piece of paper that was under a basket, and handed it to Rin. She took it gladly.
"School starts in 5 minutes, so I suggest you hurry off to your homeroom. Here's a map, don't get lost."
"Uh huh…" Rin looked at the schedule and the map, and headed for the door, off to class.
While opening the door Rin bumped into someone, almost knocking her down.
"Oh! I'm sorry! I didn't see you, I wasn't looking, sorry!" The girl rushed.
The girl had bight brown eyes, and dark hair, she was taller than Rin, the girl had a very worried face on.
Rin took action before the girl would have a heart attack. "Oh, don't worry it about."
The girl nodded, the smiled, "Hey, your new right?" Rin nodded yes. "Oh! Well then welcome to the famous Shikon high school! I'm Kagome, what's your name?"
Rin hesitated. "I'm Rin, and I think I have to go soon, I don't want to be late to class." Rin walked around Kagome, but was stopped by her.
"Hey wait! Can I see you schedule?" Rin gave her the paper.
Kagome studied the paper quickly, she then smiled.
"Oh Rin! You're in luck! We have first, second and fifth together! That's good!"
"How is that good?" Rin asked confused.
"You won't be lonely! You can sit with me and my friends at lunch to make new friends! Come on! Let's go to 1st period!"
Kagome pulled Rin by her arm, almost dragging her by force. Kagome was still smiling.
'Make new friends huh…?'
The two made it to class on time, and surprisingly, Rin sat next to Kagome.
About the time it was lunch, Rin had to admit, she was exhausted. Kagome had been talkative though the whole class, and couldn't wait to show Rin her friends.
There weren't that many students in the cafeteria, so it made getting lunch easier.
Then the moment had came, Kagome will introduced her to her friends, god she hated attention. Rin spoke up.
"Uh, Kagome, are you sure your friends won't mind me sitting with you guys?"
"Trust me Rin, they won't mind at all."
"Kagome! Over here!" Someone yelled for across the room.
"I'm coming!" she yelled.
"Come on Rin!"
They pulled up to a table, with 5 people on it. They all looked at Rin.
"Uhh, Kagome who's this?"
"Everyone, this is Rin Akita, Rin this is Inuyasha, my boyfriend."
It was the boy who asked who she was, he had strange silver hair, with bright gold ... dog ears?
"Hey, what are you staring at!?" But his altitude was downright rude.
"Inuyasha! Don't be so mean! Ignore him Rin."
"Hey!"
"Anyways, next to him is Miroku."
"Why is it simply a pleasure to meet you Rin." Miroku reached up and took Rin's hand and kissed it. She flinched.
"Oh Miroku, stop doing that!" A very loud slap was heard, Miroku had a red hand print, while the girl next to him fumbled. "I'm Sango," she said. "Please excuse Miroku, he can go way too far, so um yeah…" she said awkwardly.
Kagome laughed nervously, and moved on. "Next to Sango, are Ayame and Koga."
The two smiled at Rin, "Hey!" the both said, and then they continue to glare at each other.
'Ok...now everything will go smoothly...I hope.'
"Oh no…" Inuyasha muttered.
"What's wrong Inuyasha?" Kagome panicked.
"He's coming."
Everyone rolled their eyes, Kagome smacked Inuyasha on the head. "Stop being stupid Inuyasha."
Rin was confused.
"When Inuyasha dose that, it means his older brother is coming, he's a junior" Kagome Explained
"Oh…"
Inuyasha spoke up.
"His Name is Sesshomaru. He is one of the cruelest guys you will ever meet. Don't even try talking to him. He hates everybody." Inuyasha grunted.
"Inuyasha, you're exaggerating!" Kagome yelled at him.
"What! It's true! He's such a bastard!" He yelled back.
A cold voice was heard "Talking about me behind my back little brother?"
Rin looked up from her tray to look at the direction of the voice. Her breathing hitched.
He was tall, and had long silver hair and his eyes cold and depressing, yet they held something behind the mask he wore. His face emotionless, his golden eyes landed on Rin.
She could not lie, she was a little scared of this guy. Because his eyes where full of sadness and hate. the kind of hate like her father's.
Rin was terrified.
"Well you are one!" Inuyasha yelled at him.
"Shut your mouth Inuyasha, I don't want to hear you."
Sesshomaru took a seat, across from Rin, she could hardly breath.
'He looks so….I can't even describe it.'
Kagome jumped into the conversation. "Sesshomaru, this is my new friend, Rin Akita, It's her first day here."
'New... friend? Rin thought.
Sesshomaru narrowed his eyes at Rin, "Like I care."
'What a jerk…' Rin was no longer frighten by Sesshomaru, she was a little annoyed at him
Sesshomaru expected the girl to cry, or at least yell at him. But she didn't even blink at his comment. He studied the girl closely, she stared back at him. Not saying anything, not showing any emotion.
Silence fell upon the group. All eyes on Sesshomaru and Rin, waiting to see what would happen.
It was about a minute later, Miroku looked at his watch and smiled. "Well…if you two are done with your little staring contest, I'm going to head to class."
Sango, Ayame, Koga, Kagome, and Inuyasha laughed at his joke and got up to leave for class, they waved good bye at Rin. Kagome stood at the door waiting worriedly . Rin stood up along with Sesshomaru, and they glared at each other.
It was another awkward silence.
"Don't get my way girl."
"And you don't get in my way."
Rin was upset at this guy, 'He's so full of him self, god...He's so strange....
Not letting him say anything else, she turned and left the lunch room with Kagome, leaving Sesshomaru to wonder what the hell just happened.
He thought for a moment, 'What a strange girl….'
About 3060 words, damn, the longest chapter I have ever written In my life! XD
More info about Rin's life in the next chapter, and then the 3rd chapter. I have everything all planned out for once! Mhahaha!!! :D
hmmm, should I update soon? or forget about this idea and stop?
you decide, Review please!
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