Beast in my Heart

Summary: What if Misaki's parents weren't killed in a car accident? That was just a cover up to hide the fact that their bodies were mangled up and torn. What if it was truly Misaki's fault that they died? Misaki would always disappear once a month to a place only he, his brother, and a trusted friend knew of. Usagi gets concerned and curious. When he asks Misaki, Misaki would always avoid the question and never tell him anything about it. So Usagi decides to investigate for himself.

Rating: T (for now)

Warning: This might contain some certain scenes later. Just warning you before hand.

Disclaimer: I do not own Junjou Romantica

BTW: I changed my name from Blk Mage Mirei-Wht Mage Mark to Black Magician Mirei. Just so none of you would get confused. Sorry for the inconvience if I did.

This is my first Junjou Romantica fan fiction. So give reviews that offer encouragement or advice, please.

Now enjoy the story.

"Misaki. It's alright. It's not your fault."

"Yes it is, Nii-san. It is my fault. I killed them."

Chapter 1

"Only four months left until the Center Exams."

Misaki was walking back to his and Takahiro's apartment while reading a sheet of paper containing his report card and the results of his acceptance percentages from his desired colleges.

"With results like these, I might be in trouble."

He took out the key to the apartment. Then he unlocks the door.

"Tadaima."

He walks in on his brother and a silver haired man, who was trying to kiss his brother. Takahiro, thinking that his friend was just playing around, played along. Then he notices his little brother standing in the doorway.

"Oh"

The silver haired man with purple eyes notices Misaki when he heard the door closed.

"Hmm."

Then Takahiro says,

"Okaeri, Misaki."

Misaki just stands there, shocked, with wide eyes and his mouth opened with disbelief. He blinked three times to see if the scene before him was an illusion. When he realizes that is very real, his whole body became encased in ice as a chill went up his spine.

"Come on, Usagi, get up already."

Takahiro pats him on the shoulder but Usagi refuses to move.

"Nii-chan?"

Usagi, still clinging to Takahiro, asks Takahiro,

"Your little brother, Takahiro?"

"Yes. Misaki. This is my friend, Usami Akihiko"

"Hmm."

Akihiko looks at Misaki with little interest. Then he smirks.

"He doesn't look a thing like you."

Misaki flushes in anger. Then Usagi gets off of Takahiro.

'I'll leave now so you two can have your family time together. Bye, Takahiro."

"Bye, Usagi.'

When Usagi closed the door, Takahiro's face suddenly become serious.

"So, I believe it is going to happen again tonight. Am I correct, Misaki?"

Misaki's face turns pales as he looks down at the floor and back up at his brother.

"Yes it is. I can feel it."

Takahiro nods.

"You better change. We don't want your uniform to get ruined."

"I know, Nii-chan."

"Go on. Hurry up. We'll have to get that doctor's excuse from Him. Then we'll go There."

"Okay. Done."

Misaki had changed out of his high school uniform and into a loose T-shirt, some unimpressive shorts, and

cheap sandals. And also on his wrist, he wore a black wristband that had a white circle on it.

"Perfect. Let's go."

They drove west of Tokyo and stopped at the Tamakyuryö Hospital. They walked into the family doctor's office. Takahiro knocked on the door. Inside, a voice called out.

"I'm coming."

The door opened and the doctor revealed himself. He was a tall 31 year old man. His long black hair was tied behind him. He was still attractive for his age. In fact once in a while, patients and nurse would ask him out. He declined to both. The one he loved dearly died many years ago. He wished to never feel that pain of losing a loved one. He had known the Takashi brothers since the accident ten years ago.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Flashback begin~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

The two ambulances' siren blared as the medics placed the bodies in the body bags.

"Such a shame," One medic said, "To leave children this young behind."

Misaki's hands were covered in blood, the result of the accident. His brother stood by his side the entire time. He knelt down and wrapped his arms around Misaki and pulled him close, not bothered by the blood that covered Misaki.

"Misaki. It's alright. It's not you fault."

That only made Misaki weep harder as he looked up at his brother.

"Yes, it is. It is my fault. I killed them."

Then a 21 year old medic, fresh out of medical school, (btw: he is a prodigy) came up to the brothers.

'Hey, Takashi Takahiro. Did you see what happened?"

Takahiro responded by pulling Misaki closer to him. The young medic noticed and gave them a reassuring face.

"Don't worry I told them that your parents died in the car accident. And that they were that way because of it."

Takahiro's eyes widen.

"But-"

"But that not what happened, right?

Takahiro gave him a glare.

"Hey, don't worry. You don't have to tell me. I heard this kind of thing happen before from my grandfather."

Takahiro and Misaki both looked curious.

"The illness that Little Misaki has is similar to the one your grandfather had. It is an illness that pass through the Takashi family."

"Is there a cure?"

"Unfortunately, no."

The Takashi brothers began to give up hope. But then the medic then gave them that hope back.

"But there is a treatment for the symptoms."

"How is it done, Mr. …"

"Tamaki. Nakano Tamaki. Call me Tama-kun."

"Alright. Tama-kun, how do you treat the symptoms?"

"You just-"

He stops taking and looks around. The other medic was calling him to go back to the ambulance.

'This is not the right place to talk about this.'

"I can't tell you here. I will go to your apartment in a week. I'll tell you everything I know then."

Tama-kun walks back to the ambulance.

"But what if Misaki's illness comes back?"

Tama-kun stops, turns around, and surprises Takahiro with a smile.

"Don't worry. It comes only once a month. It happened tonight. So it won't happen again till next month. See you two in a week."

He turns back around and waves at then as he walks away.

"Oh. And be sure to give my respects to your parents for me, will you?"

Then he got into the ambulance and it drove off, leaving the Takashi brothers, drenched in the rain and blood. They were all alone except for the other medics and ambulance that were still there with them.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Flashback end~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Then Tamaki allowed them in his office. They sat chairs that were present and waited while Tamaki wrote the note that will excuse Misaki for not being in school tomorrow.

"Here."

He hands the note with his writing on it to Takahiro.

"You know where to go."

Takahiro took the note, gratefully.

"Thank you for helping us these ten years."

"It's nothing. This is the only thing my family could do for your's. And besides I don't think Misaki is yet ready

to use that second option."

"Yeah. Don't worry, Misaki. Your Nii-chan will protect you."

Misaki's face begins to blush in embarrassment.

"Nii-chan. I'm not a child anymore. I can take care of myself." 'Nii-chan still treats me this way. He's lucky he

doesn't have this illness.' "Let's go , Nii-chan."

Then from the hospital, they went to the forest that was southeast of the hospital. They drove about 3 miles in and walked the rest of the way until they reached a place that felt evil yet safe. They had finally reached their destination.

"Alright. You know what to do."

Misaki nods. He closes his eyes and says the words.

"Sanctuary of Darkness that protect the children from the lunar madness. May thy protection extend to the lost

child before you."

Then the world seemed to shake as the rock in the center of the small clearing began to rise, revealing the

doorway to the depths of the Earth. The Takashi brothers walked down the dark stairway, knowing what will happen next. When they reached the end of the stairs, the earth shook again, signaling that the entrance (which was also the exit) was closed. They kept walking until they came to a well lit room. The room contain numerous 7 ft cages with cloth that covered the top of the cages. In the room, there were already people there. Those with the black wristbands with the white circles had illnesses similar to Misaki's. And they were called Ookami. The Ookamis were accompanied by people called the Helpers. As Misaki and Takahiro walked past them, they all nod at Misaki and Takahiro in recognition. Misaki and Takahiro nodded back.

Then a teen who was a bit younger than Misaki came up to Misaki.

"Hey, Misaki. You came again."

Misaki ruffles the teen's hair and smiles sadly.

"Yeah. Tetsu. I came back."

Takahiro and Tetsu's older brother, Rei gave their greetings. Misaki and Tetsu began talking about school.

Then Ookamis began to feel a chill. Then Misaki and Tetsu looked at their siblings and said,

"It's time."

Then all the Ookamis got into their cages. Misaki and Tetsu got cages next to each other. Then the Helpers locked the cages and pulled the cloths down, covering the cages. Then they all went to another large room that contain beds, couches, and carpeted floors. This place was called the Helper's lounge. This was the place that Helpers wait in while the illness took effect on the Ookamis. Then the iron door that was the entrance to the room closed, sealing and protecting the people inside. There was air conditioning inside so there was air in that underground rooms. After a few minutes, the howling, the growling, and the shaking cages could be heard. The Helpers could do nothing more than wait until it was over. After a few hours, some fell asleep in the bed. Most sat on the couches while the rest just stood or sat on the floor. Then the last howl was heard, and everything was quiet. Then a man with gray hair opened the door.

'I'm sure I seen him somewhere before. He's an author. I know that much but I can't remember his name.' Takahiro thought.

Then all the Helpers left the Helper's lounge and went into the room called the Lupus Domain. They walked to their Ookami's cage and lifted the cloth. Then the victims of the cursed illness were revealed. There were some whose clothes were torn badly. There were some who were nude with their clothing surrounding them on the floor. Misaki was one of them. The majority still had their clothes on. It looked as if nothing really happened. But the claw marks on the dirt floor said otherwise. When the Ookamis were let out of their cages, they gathered together in a circle with linked hands near the entrance of the entire underground room. Then they said together,

"Oh Great Sanctuary of Darkness, we thank you for thy protection. May you now grant us passage to the world of Light."

Then the earth shook again and the passageway was open again. Then everyone left for home, knowing that next month they will have to endure that again.

And that's the end of Chapter 1. I've got to study for midterm now so this is all I can put for now. Please review.

The hospital is a real hospital. I had to research it. Gave me a headache. And the forest is real, too. But the secret cave/cavern/room under the forest is purely my imagination.

This will be a Akihiko X Misaki and a Miyagi X Shinobu. I might include the Egotist couple if you want. Might be lemon. Might not. You are going to have to tell me. Thanks for reading. (^-^)/

Oh another thing. If you girls/guy were wondering "What about their clothes?" Well, of course, they put it right back on. Silly. :P Those with torn clothes are replaced by ones that the helpers bring with them.

Oh btw. this is not black magic and that sorts. And this is not a cult thing. So please -_-;; don't think that it is.

-Mirei (^-^)/

edit: yeah. i had to edit somethings in this chapter to work out some things in the future chapters.