I AM SO SORRY

Honestly I cannot remember the last time I updated my story, and as you can plainly see, it was apparently a lie when I said I was going to update in a month.

Updating has really been the last thing on my mind lately, but I remember how much I love Alpha every time I get a glimpse of Alan Tudyk, or listen to 'Blood on my Hands' by The Used, and then I hate myself because I remember the promised new slate.

Look, blame my mind, but the promised new slate became so complicated and twisted with ideas soon it actually became an ORIGINAL story *gasp

I was shocked too, and I actually fell in love with it. I hope to get it published as a story one day, but that day is sadly far away. "Alpha" however is the main character, though his name is now different and his backgrounds different and he doesn't have 40+ personalities... I know, it seriously takes a lot away from him, but with copyrights, what can you do?

I've gotten sporadic emails about how people want to read this new slate (not a lot but still, a few here and there), and I decided I'd left you hanging for too long.

I wont ever post it. I am sorry, but this original story means too much to me to force it to become copyrighted. Alpha isn't Alpha anymore, even though deep deep DEEP inside my story he's still the same psycho we all love.

I probably won't write anything for a long time on here actually. For personal issues and also writer's fanfiction block. This is a shitty AN, but I'd like to think you'd prefer shitty news to no news at all.

I'm sorry to all the people who actually DO love Alpha, and were excited for me to update. All I can say is sorry.

My awesome friend on this site though, DOES update. She just went through a ton of shit, so she hasn't updated in a few months, but I know for a fact she's going to update within a few weeks.

Her name is Nightmare's Court (and yes, she totally added the court because I am just that awesome of a friend), and while it is pretty shameless of me to point the finger at her while I hide behind her back, that's what friends are for right :)

You can look her up if you like or not, she's currently writing a Harry Potter fanfic and has a Death note one-shot- not a lot until you compare her to me, with ONE measly unfinished story.

I love you guys, and thanks for your patience. I'm sorry I can't give you much in reply, but in the end honesty is better then avoiding huh? Just you guys wait, one day when my story hits the shelves, you'll get to buy it and fall in love with Alpha in a whole new way- and you wont even know he was inspired by Alpha! :)

Goodbye guys... Wish me luck in the real world!