I wish you still loved me Chapter 3, a ncis fanfic

Alrighty here is the last Chapter/drbabble. I hope those of you who have actually read this and eviewed for me, I hope you liked it and this would have been true if I owned them so here comes the usual

Disclaimer

I do not own anything except the plot bunny in my head.

On with the story...........

Gibbs came through the door two weeks later, jenny had been released and he wanted to come check on her. She was sitting in her study writing what he hoped was the letter she had been neglecting lately.

"Jenny?"

Jen stiffened and looked up, but relaxed when she saw it was Jethro. She smiled at him and he smiled back, pulling a chair over to where she was.

" Is that the letter?"

" So what if it is, what if I know another Jethroand its for him?"

" Exactly how mny Jethros do you know Jen?"

"Just one"

One Incredibly Handsome one, she added in her head.
" Of course its for you and yes I finished it right before you walked in."

" Well can you read it to me/"

Jen smiled and hit a button on her stereo next to her desk and soft country music floated out of the speakers mixing with the velvet soft tone of Jens voice in Gibbs'ear

Its not easy sayin this to you
Its the hardest thing Ive ever had to do
but boy before you go
I want you to know

Dear Jethro

As you already know I am very sick, I have a cancerous tumor in my brain that s slowly growing worse. I do not want to dwell on that because it reminds me of all the things I will never be able to do now, the things I had the chance to do before but gave up. Right now there are somethings I need to say and you need to know, I have never felt comfortable sharing my feelings or feeling as vunerable as I do now but these things have gone unsaid for far too long.

I wish you strength, when times are hard
Oh, I wish with all my heart you find just what youre lookin for
I wish you joy, I wish you peace
and that every star you sees within your reach
and I wish you still loved me

Back in Paris, when I left, I made the biggest mistake of my life when I walked away from killing Natasha, from my only love, from you. I chose my career and it has gotton me this far but I would still rather go back and stay in the warmth of your arms, maybe I would still be in your arms today. I hope that when I go you do not change, I hope you raise hell and keep your hardass attitude that you are so famous for. I hope you not only always get your guy but I hope you can find someone who cares for you more then herself, someone who can love you more then I still do. I know its not the way Gibbs roles but i hope you ca hold on to a little bit of peace in your heart.

I wish that things were different, you know that
but I still happy for the times we had
you mean the world to me
oh, baby please believe

`I wish that we could have been more then friends our whole lives, if I could do it diffrently I would, but of course you always have known that. I am still not proud of how we parted, a Dear John letter and the front door open, you deserve so much more then that, a true face to face explenation. I cannot give you one because I have no idea what was running through my head when I left. I know I was the one who ended it all but you still mean the world to me, it hurts to watch you walk in from a case bruised or hurt. Make sure you tell the team how much they truely mean to you, I was lucky and got the second chance to finish writing this letter but you may not be so lucky. You do not want to go without them truely knowing you love them all very much, like the children you never got to have.

Oh, losing you is tearin me apart
but a part of me will be with you
no matter where you are

Even after all these years I am still kicking myself for what I did to you. My heart is completly torn and no matter how hard I try to put it back together I cannot. Even though you do not know it, you have always held a little piece of me in you and until there us a you and me, which I do not expect to happen, I will never be whole again. I hope that I can now go with you knowing the truth i have finally made peace with you and that is what I needed.

To finish off my note I have a few llast words I need to get off my chest. I know it sounds cliche but life is too short and love is too valuable not to tell people how much they mean to you, I still love you Jethro. My last intention is to make my death harder on you but the last thing I ask is not at all easy for me to say and even harder for you to understand,

I wish you still loved me.

Jen put the letter down and looked over at Jethro, she could almost see the wheels turning in his head, comprehending all she just said. He looked up at her, his eyes meeting hers and he leaned in and kissed her softly. When he pulled away he smiled at the flushed look on her face.

" You do not have to wish Jenny I still love you so much."

He brought his lips back to hers and all she thought before her thoughts turned strictly to the man pressing his lips to hers was, OK there really is a God!

So what you think? The song is " I wish you Still loved me" by Jo Dee Mesina and I listened to it and found the two of them popping up in my head. So review and tell me what you think?

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