Hey I know my last chapter was a bit crap and not worth the wait, and for that I am very sorry. I hate making excuses but the last couple of months have been a really hard time for me and my family. Also I have been doing my exams and studying, lol my Mum and Dad aren't happy i'm failing math :( So I am very sorry for making you wait and I hope the next few chapters will make up for it :) omg my story is being published ahhh cant wait its coming out in soon :D

The next couple of days were of me on bed rest and Sam pestering me with questions, "Are you comfy? Do you need any help? Here lay down you need your rest do want anything?" to say I pissed at him was an understatement, he was just fuelling my anger.

I has looked after myself long enough by now to know that I didn't need him hanging around on my every whim. I don't think he understood the more he pestered me the more angry I became.

Sam woke me up the Saturday after the attack at 6:00 am claiming we had work to do, I was still angry with him and he made my mood worse by waking me up this early. I begrudgingly got up and got ready to start the day with whatever Sam had planned. Walking down the stairs I saw that the pack were all outside waiting for me.

I smiled and walked over to Leah who put her arm around me and followed my lead and glared at Sam. Even though Leah wasn't angry at Sam she stuck by me not matter what, just like I would do for her. Sam rolled his eyes then cleared his throat.

"Right we all know why we are here-" Sam started before I cut him off. "well obviously not everyone" I muttered under my breath but of course everyone heard and smirked at me. "As I was saying we all know why we are except from Bella, we are going to teach you how to fight. We should have done so as soon as you joined he pack, but we'll start now. OK Bella you are going to watch Paul and Jared fight first and then we will see if you can take one of them down and we will go on from there"

I watched as Jared and Paul phased and started circling each other. I watched mesmerized as they lunged for each other, it looked like they were dancing, while one lunged the other counter acted with a swipe of the paw, and soon it was just different coloured fur rolling on the floor as they tried to take each other down.

I laughed when Paul when for Jared's throat, signalling the end of the fight. Paul jumped up and down yipping with his tongue lolling out, obviously happy to have won, especially in front of Emily.

"OK your turn Bells, just follow your instincts" Sam said encouragingly, I shrugged him off as he came over to me and phased without a second thought, pieces of my clothes flew everyone but I kept my eyes on Paul.

He circled me, taunting me in his head, but I blocked him out listening to what my instincts were telling me to do. As Paul lunged for me I ducked under his flying paws and at the last second turned around and jumped on his back. I lunged for his throat but he threw me off and I flew into a nearby tree.

I heard Sam growl, but ignored my instincts to go over to him. I don't know how long me and Paul were fighting for, but Paul finally got bored and just lunged and held me down by the neck. I growled at him and stared in his eyes as he kept me on the floor until he slowly released his grip on me.

Over the next couple of hours everyone took turns fighting with me and helping me to see the best techniques in fighting. After about two and half hours I was once again fighting against Paul and this time I took Paul down.

I yipped happily as I let him go, I was secretly glad I could hold my own against the pack, being the Alpha's mate meant that I had to be the strongest female and it was a bit embarrassing being took down by the pack when I was supposed to protect them.

After I got down from my high I went back inside to phase and get a change of clothes. I heard Sam shout up to me about Embry taking me out for a while. I ran down stairs excited to spend the day with Embry for once.

As I was putting my shoes on I faintly heard Sam mutter something to Embry, but I couldn't hear what he said. Stupid sexy over-protective boyfriend. Embry walked into the hall and I opened the door and walked out without saying goodbye to Sam. I heard him sigh before shutting the door behind us.

"So Bella, beings as you are so pissed at Sam, I am going to take you cliff diving to cheer you up." Embry said slinging his arm around my shoulders as we started to walk down the road. "Oh my god! Are you serious?" I squealed jumping up and down and staring at him with wide eyes. "Yeah of course, what are big brothers for" he said smiling as I jumped up and down again.

Sam had refused to take me cliff diving yet, saying that I had a lot of other things to concentrate on. Yeah right, I was in need of a good adrenaline rush. We walked down the roads and through the forest talking about different things that were going on.

When I saw the looming cliffs I couldn't control my reaction, I screamed and ran for the top. I smiled as I stood on the edge, the waves lapped at the bottom of the cliff and the wind whispered in my ears. It was quite a magical sight.

"You just gonna stand there all morning or are you gonna jump?" Embry teased. I laughed and without a second thought flung myself off the cliff. The wind rushed past me and it felt like I had left my stomach at the top of the cliff, I let out a scream and watched as the water got closer and closer. With a splash I sunk down in the sea, I pushed my arms and kicked my legs until my head broke through.

I laughed as Embry surfaced beside me " Dam women you have some balls" he laughed. "Wow that was amazing, the best feeling ever. Can we do it again?" I asked excitedly. "Sure come on i'll race you to the top" he laughed as he took off with me following.

We laughed as we raced to the top without stopping I ran past him and jumped as far as I could out into the air. I laughed again and watched as Embry tried to beat my distance. Once he resurfaced and swam over to him and hugged him. "thanks Embry this has been really good fun. I know we don't get to spend that much time together alone and I want you to know that I love you like all the other goof balls" I said smiling.

He just laughed and pulled me tighter into his chest. " Silly Bella I already knew that, but it's nice to hear anyway" we decided to jump a few more times before sitting on the edge of the cliff and looking out into the distance.

"You know life's changed so much since I have been here, I never thought that I would have such good friends let alone turn into a wolf and meet my soul mate." I whispered as I leaned into Embry's side.

"yeah I used to think I had a good life, I mean yeah my childhood could have been better, but everyone has their bad parts in life. Then when I turned into a wolf I thought fate was laughing at me but really she was giving me the life many can only dream of." he said quietly his mind far away. He snapped out of it and smiled " come on we have a pack meeting we should get back"

Once we got to Sam's the house was full of the pack eating all the food we had made for the meeting. "Hey I went through a lot of slaving away to make that for you and you don't even have the decency to save me some" I shouted. Everyone quickly stopped talking and looked at me standing in the doorway with my hands on my hips.

They probably thought I was in one of those moods again, yeah so i've been a bit cranky the last few days, in my defence I really need some time away from the pack and all their coddling. "Sorry Bella" Seth said putting down four of the five sandwiches he had in his hand.

"whatever" I muttered before grabbing a sandwich and made my way into the living room and sat on the nearest couch. I heard mutterings in the kitchen and knew they were probably discussing me, but I didn't really care I was used to it after the last couple of days.

They slowly made their way into the lounge with plates full of food. Sam walked over to me and lifter me and put me in his lap and put his plate on mine. He kissed me on the head before helping himself to a sandwich.

The meeting started slowly on updates of patrolling, this weeks partners, how we were on guard for other Wolves, yada yada. My mind drifted away until their voices were just murmurs in the background. I pictures a beautiful valley, tress everywhere with a clearing in the centre. A magnificent waterfall cascaded down the mountains into a stream that flowed through the clearing. The sight took my breath away.

I heard laughing and turned around, through the gaps in the trees I could see the pack racing each other, joking, laughing. Their eyes were bright and happiness shone out in golden colours, I smiled they looked so happy. One by one they each made their way into the clearing and started to splash around in the stream.

Laughing at their happiness I turned as my eyes caught a beautiful sight. My Sam stood on the edge of the clearing happiness shining out of his every pore as he watched his pack playing. A golden glow surrounded his body as he made his way over to them, his body making light movements, he was beautiful.

But suddenly the clearing turned dark someone was missing, I searched the pack, counting how many where there. With a jolt I realised who was missing. Me. The packs laughter stopped as they all turned, their faces menacing as their black eyes pierced into my soul.

I jumped in Sam's lap coming back to the present to see they were all watching me. "Bella are you OK?" Sam asked gently. I realised I was breathing hard and sweat beaded on my forehead. "I'm fine" I whispered, snuggling into Sam's body finding comfort there.

As they carried on talking I thought about my day dream. Why did they look at me like that? What have I done that would warrant such animosity? I didn't like the feeling of disappointing everyone.

I excused myself and walked up to my room, Sam thought I should have a room at his house so I wouldn't disturb my Dad with my patrolling schedules. I laid in the bed and tried not to think about the accusing eyes, I quickly fell into a fitful sleep of menacing dark eyes.

When I woke up the next day Sam was lying next to me, holding me. "Hey Beautiful" he whispered, I groaned and rolled away from him. "Bella, we need to talk, you have to stop pushing me away" his voice was no more than a whisper and I heard the pain breaking through.

I felt the tears sting my eyes, I didn't mean to push him away, I mean yeah I was mad at him but I didn't know why I was this angry. The tears slowly fell down my cheeks as Sam turned me over so I was facing him.

"Don't cry sweetheart" he whispered as he pulled me into his chest. "you need to let me into that pretty little head of yours" I swallowed thickly "I was mad at you, but I don't know why i'm so angry all the time now, I have to keep fighting with myself not to phase" I whispered.

Sam shocked me by smiling, "I think I know whats wrong, come on" he said grabbing my hand and taking me outside. Sam phased and waited for me to do the same, and then he howled for the rest of the pack.

Whats the problem boss – Seth

We are going to help Bella – Sam

Finally I can't believe you didn't think of this before – Leah

What are you guys going on about? - Me

We are going running – Sam

What? - Me

When someone phases they are all excited about it, but after a while all the pent up anger bursts out at once, leaving you confused. So today we are going to help you get rid of it – Sam

So I am not really going crazy – Me

No – Sam

He came over to me just as the rest of the pack made their way into Sam's back garden. He nuzzled his head with mine and I sighed in frustration.

Come on just follow us and then follow your instincts – Sam

Sam took off running with the rest following, I waited for a second before following after them. It felt good to stretch my legs and soon I caught up with Sam who was in front of me.

Thats it babe, just follow your instincts and we'll follow you – Sam

I heard the others howl in agreement. I wasn't sure what to do but soon something took over me, and I just ran, faster and faster until the tress were just blurs and the only thing that stood in front of me was a vast expanse of land.

I smiled my wolfy smile and let my tongue out tasting the air, everything smelt and looked so good. I howled out in enjoyment as I felt all the anger leave me, and heard the others soon join me, it was the best feeling ever.

I don't know how far we ran and for how long, but all I knew was that it was the best time of my life. It felt like the rush of jumping off a cliff only better. At some point long after it had got dark we found ourselves on a secluded beach, tired from running for so long we all found a place to sleep. I curled up next to Sam and for the first time in a while I felt content as we all fell asleep beneath the stars still in our wolf form listening to the waves gently lap at the beach.

Once again I would like to apologize or the wait I hope this makes up or it :) Also I really love you guys or sticking by me, I know my updating time are a bit hectic but I promise to try and make it better :)