"Max!" I dove to catch her from falling. Ari had her by the throat.

"She is coming with me!" he yelled at me and flung himself off the cliff. I sank to my knees and put my hands on either side of my head. She was gone. She was never coming back.

"Max!" I yelled. "No!!!!"

I could hear the flock crying behind me.

" If there is a fucking god. He is a cruel bastard! He took my love from me. I hate this fucking place!" I yelled.

I ran the few steps and dove towards the water below. I caught myself with my wings in time something Max couldn't have done. I lowered myself onto the bloody rocks.

Her body laid there crumpled and broken. She was covered in blood. Her eyes were open and staring at me. Those big beautiful brown eyes. I landed by her head. I stood rigid. Emotionless on the outside burning on the inside.

I picked up the body that would never move again. I fly upwards. The flock stood gathered as I landed in front of them.

"Fang?" Iggy asked. "We have to leave her."

I threw him a deathly look and started walk toward the small grove of trees.

"Do not follow me." I growled. Angel sobbed into nudge. Nudge was silently crying and Gazzy sat with his arms wrapped around him self rocking back and forth staring at the stop max had fell.

I carried her into the trees and buried her in the final place of rest.

Never again would I say her.

Never again would I remember her.

Never again would I let myself love.

Not anyone.

We took to the sky and went back to New York City. When we got there I got us a apartment on the lower west side in the projects. Nudge and Iggy really took charge. They both got jobs and sent Gazzy and Angel to school. I never said anything. I never ate with them. I never did anything. I sat and tried to forget. We were grounded. Nobody flew anywhere. It just didn't feel right without our leader.

1 year later....

I got into drugs. I was doing coke and H as much as possible. I would sit in my spot by the window and not move just kill as many brain cells as I could. At night I would go up on the roof and shoot up. I cut myself it made me feel something. Until they caught me. Nudge and Iggy came up on the roof. Nudge saw the blood. I had cut deeper then ever before today and I looked forward to seeing my angel soon. Nudge grabbed my wrist and stopped the bleeding while Iggy whipped out a cell phone.

They sent me to a rehabilitation center. Where I detoxed and was sent home.

I had been back for six months and no paid attention to me. Everything was about Gazzy. He still wasn't talking. Nudge was worried about him but today she was proud. He brought home a report card today. They were perfect grades. But she wasn't suppose to be the mom. My angel was.....

I have been home for a year now Iggy and Nudge was saving money for eye surgery. Some doctor was willing to help Iggy get his sight back. Iggy sat in front of me one day and sat there. Finally he said "I'm going to get that surgery tomorrow. You know you can move on but its gonna have to take some work on your part. Please come back to your family brother." I just shut my eyes and turned away. Later on He came home and everyone was happy he could see for the first time since he was little. But I couldn't feel happiness not even for my brother.

2 months later...

One day the little kids were home from school. I didn't even know what day it was but there was snow outside and Nudge and Iggy were making more food then usual. Angel came up to my spot next to the window.

"Merry Christmas Eve Fang." she said in a small voice and climbed into my lap. It was the first time she had talked to me since...her. I froze. I wouldn't allow myself to love. Not anyone.

But she wrapped her small arms around my waist and bury her face in my chest. I relaxed a little she wasn't doing anything else. Maybe just this once I could let my self feel. I pulled Angel closer to me and held her there. I felt her little body relax and melted into my strong arms.

"I miss you Fang." I realized I had given up on her. And she was my angel's baby... How could I Angel needed me. I abandoned her. She is practically our daughter and I have ignored her for nearly two years. I would feel for Angel. I will live for Angel I needed to take care of Angel.

"I heard Nudge talking in the kitchen. "Iggy come see!" she said a little to loud.

"Holy shit!" He gasped.

"You think it is a good thing?" Nudge exclaimed.

"Of course its good. I'm going to go talk to him." Iggy approached us. I looked up at him. He was changed. He was leaner stronger. His eyes bright with excitement.

"Would like to eat with us tonight Fang?"

I looked down at Angel she took my hand and squeezed it. "Please Fang?"

I looked back up at Iggy and nodded. Angel started to get and I froze would I be able to handle this. Yes Angel needed me. I stood up and Angel took my hand and led me into the small kitchen. Nudge pulled up an extra chair and motioned for me to sit.

"Gazzy dinner time." Gazzy came barreling down the hallway with a smile on his face but he froze when he saw me. He stared at angel's hand in mine and slowly walked to his seat across from angel. I watched as Iggy and Nudge got the food on the table. Then finally they piled their plates and started shoveling food in their mouths.

Angel was excited for the next morning and want to get to sleep soon.

"Do you think Santa Clause will give me the new puppy I wanted?"

"I don't know Angel. Santa Clause is magical but you have to be thankful for what you get." Iggy smiled. I stared at him I hoped they got her the dog. Maybe the dog would make the dark circles under her eyes disappear.

Nudge started to clean up and I noticed that she was still in her waitress uniform. I pulled the dishes she started from her hands and started to clean them myself. He face brighten and she smiled.

"Thank you Fang." Iggy came up behind her and kissed her on the cheek.

"You worked all day Babe go relax with Gazzy and Angel in the living room. Me and Fang will finish the dishes." She turned to him and planted a kiss on his lips. I turned my head. It hurt to watch. They reminded me of.... I would think her name. I heard Nudge walk out of the room and Iggy was beside me drying the dishes I watched.

"Its good to see you moving around man. Maybe when the time is right You could start talking to Angel."

I shrugged my shoulders. We finished the dishes and went into the living room . Nudge,Gazzy and Angel were watching Its a Wonderful Life on TV. I sat down on the far corner of the couch and settled in to watch. As soon as I was settled Angel came over and sat on my lap. I felt OK for the first time since her...

Pretty soon Angel was asleep in my arms. Nudge started to wake her up to take her to bed. I shook my head and picked up he small warm body and carried her down the hall to her room. I softly kicked the door open and look at the tiny room. There was a lot of pink... but she had a little hammock in the corner which was her bed. Placed her carefully into the blanket and pillow full hammock and covered her up. I looked around a little more I saw some photos on the windowsill. I picked up the small album and flipped threw it the first ones were of angel with little chicken feathers on her wings. She was smiling in all of them. Then there was one of me holding angel in my lap while we were on the run. The last few were of her... with angel. The picture sent pain directly into my heart. Seeing her smiling face with Angel's and I flipped threw the last ones quickley the last picture made me freeze. The last one was from when we were Hawaii. Me and my angel were on the pier. Her lips were crushed to mine. My hands were around her waist. I put the photos back quickly feeling the pain increase in my chest. It made me want to shoot up.

I closed the door on my way out and went back to the couch to sleep. I passed Nudge's room and I saw Iggy going in. His face turned pink. I raised my eyebrows.

"You have been out of it for a while brother. We have been going out for close to a year now." I nodded and continued down the hall I stopped again When I heard Nudge's voice from her room.

"God, please let Angel continue to help Fang, and please let Fang rejoin this family we need him, and please allow Gazzy to to speak soon. I thank you for giving Iggy his sight back and in your name I pray amen."

I snarled to myself. There was no god.

I flung myself onto the couch and pulled the blanket off the back and curled in on myself and let myself imagine. I have felt enough pain today that this would hurt to much. I closed my eyes tight and imagine her here with me. Her head tucked under my chin. Her arms around me her lips against my throat. I heard a whisper in the air and I bolted up. Was that her?

"Fang?" A quiet voice said. I whipped my head toward the hall way. Gazzy stood there. I looked around again. Had Gazzy spoken?

"Fang? Can you help me. I had a bad dream." His voice was quiet and small. I nodded and sat up so Gazzy could pillow his head on lap. I laid my head back against the headrest and closed my eyes again. Gazzy ran over and laid down next to me I put a arm around his shoulders.

"Do you ever think of her?" He whispered. My eyes shot open. I heard the tears in his voice. " I know you don't like to talk like I don't like to talk but I talk to her sometimes." I knew he wanted me to talk to him. To relate himself to me but I didn't think I could do it.

"Ya Gazzy I think about her but I try not to it hurts to much." I whispered painfully. Gazzy burst into tears and sobbed into my lap. I patted his back and realized he was going throw the same thing as me he had lost his mother like I have lost my love. I t was just a different type of love for him though. I felt selfish. I had purposefully distanced myself from my family just to make myself feel better. Angel appeared in the hallway with tears in her eyes.

"Angel come sit tell me whats wrong?" She ran to me and I pulled her into my lap and put my around back around Gazzy.

"I lost my mother too." She cried. Her words shattered my already broken heart.

"I know and I was a jerk for doing this to you guys. I'm sorry you lost me when you had already lost her."

I felt my own tears run down my face. But we all felt better . Angel fell asleep against my chest and Gazzy was asleep on my other side.

The next morning...

I woke up to barking.

"Eek!" Angel squealed look Fang Santa brought me puppies! Two puppies wraped in green bows were on the floor by the small tree.

Iggy and Nudge emerged from their room to watch and smiled. The dogs had names on them one had To:Fang from:Santa on it. It was the slightly smaller boy. The puppy look up at me with big eyes.

I shot a look at Iggy and Nudge. "What the heck would I want a puppy for?" Their mouthes dropped.

"You talked!"

"Hey sooo did I" Gazzy said everyone rejoiced.

"So why did I get a puppy?" I whispered to Iggy at breakfast.

"We figured you needed something to do."

The puppies were both Great Danes and they were tiny things. Angel's was a girl which she named Mari and I named mine Tank because He would push everything with his little head until it moved a little bit.

I was beginning to feel happy and I wanted to keep it that way. So I to do one more thing that would always make me feel good.

I had to fly.

"Lets go to the roof I have a surprise for you guys. Nudge and Iggy both looked worried but I ignored them and led the family up the stairs. We pasted the blood stain that I had caused when I was at the peak of my pain.

I went to the edge of the building. "Up and away." I told them. All of them smiled and took running jumps off the building. I went last and snapped my wings out at the last second and flew up. Adrenaline pumped through my veins, the wind in my wind the sky and clouds around me I finally felt happy.

Then a bullet pierced through my shoulder.

"NO!" I heard Angel yell. I hovered for a minute then I couldn't hold myself up. I fell and seemed to last forever. I seemed to see the clouds park and there she was a slight shine to her skin and her wings glowing.

"Max!" was the last thing I said before I hit the pavement.

End

I might do a epilogue if people ask for it. Hope you enjoyed.