A/N: So this is my first attempt at Sailor Moon fanfictions. I love BSSM to itty bitty bits, and out of all the seasons Stars is by far my favourite. I will be goin along mostly with the anime here, but at times I will make reference to the manga, or even the Starlight based PGSMs (this will show when i start to encorperate more songs into the work).
This IS Seiya x Usagi (have not decided on Seiya's final gender yet) but there is NO Mamo-chan bashing. I am basing my Mamo/Seiya choice on an essay I read, which I will link to in my profile.
Please be gentle with me, I know right now this is starting slow, and mostly filler, but it's the start of my idea and I would greatly enjoy feed back.
Kirux
Voices
Chapter One: They Start to Sound
"Odango...I'm glad you got your boyfriend back," Seiya's smile was false and sad.
"It's because you were with me, Seiya, that I could hang in there," I smiled back sweetly.
"Odango...I'll never forget you," His blue eyes stared into mine, and I saw him hurting. I knew that I was hurting him more, but this is the way it had to be, right?
"Yes, we'll be friends forever!" I exclaimed with feign naivety.
"Oh come on!" He sighed exasperated.
"I like that one," Taiki stated with a small laugh.
"She didn't get it..." Ami sighed.
"No, she didn't," Makoto scratched the back of her head.
"Whats' that Ami-chan?" I turned to the genius, pretending to be upset and lost.
"Usagi you're slow, aren't you?" Minako asked seriously.
"About what?" I turned to her, stomping my foot.
"It's obvious!" Rei exclaimed.
"I'm asking because I didn't get it!" I almost cringed when I saw Seiya look down sadly.
"You wont get it your whole life!" the fire senshi shouted.
"Oh please! You're nasty Rei-chan!" I yelled at her, and everyone broke into laughter for a few moments.
"Okay, let's go," Kakyuu-hime stated calmly.
"Mamoru-san," Seiya stared down Mamo-chan, who until this point had been silent, "protect her. It's words from some guy..."
"I understand," the green jacket clad man gave my shoulder a squeeze as he nodded.
"Bye...Odango" with that there was a flash and the Seiya I knew turned into his normal form, Sailor Star-Fighter.
"Take care," Star-Maker smiled at us, with her tradition all knowing grin.
"See you!" Star-Fighter's voice and eyes still carried that heavy sadness that broke my heart.
"Thank you very much!" Kakyuu-hime said with a bow.
"Bye-bye!" Star-Healer said with a wave of her hand, as nonchalant as ever.
"I won't forget you," Makoto nearly sobbed.
"Have a pleasant trip," Ami closed her eyes as she smiled to hide her tears.
"Please come see us anytime!" Minako invited, rather then beg them to stay as she truly wanted.
"We'll be expecting you!" I didn't run over to her. I didn't throw my arms around that beautiful soldier I had become so fond of over the past few months. I didn't cry, I didn't yell or scream or plead with them. I stayed by Endymion's side, ever steady.
"Good-bye," said Rei, the only one of us actually able to say words that contained such finality.
Later that evening I stood in that park with Mamoru, gazing up at the starry sky. So many thoughts in my mind, not knowing how to sort them all out. There were things I needed to know. Things about myself and my life; present and future.
"Mamo-chan?" I looked up at my long time boyfriend.
"Yes?" the older man looked down at me quizzically.
"Do you love me?" I knew the answer already.
"Yes," he said flatly.
"Really?" I knew he did I his own way but...
"Yes," he confirmed once again.
"Like how?" I needed to know how, why, and how much Mamoru loved me.
"Why so suddenly?" the prince of Earth looked down with a smile, assuming I was regular silly Usagi.
"Please...like how?" I felt the tears well up.
"Let's see...it feels wonderful to be with you," he smiled affectionately as I clung to his arm. I flashed him a smile and leaned my head against his chest, staring out into the open night sky. The stars twinkled at me tauntingly. Somewhere out in that vastness the reason I was asking all this was staring back.
It had been several months since Chaos had been sealed away. Life was back to normal, everyone was normal, well, as normal as they could be. Makoto still pined for Taiki. Minako and Luna (though she would never admit it) would often be caught sighing about Yaten. And myself, I was still with Mamo-chan, though my heart wasn't truly in it anymore.
Mamoru wasn't a bad boyfriend, in fact his brush with death had made him more caring, devoted, and loving. He would take me out to diners often, and buy me lots of cute outfits and sweets. I played along, day after day, yet every night I found myself laying in bed, my CD player on repeat as I gazed upon the stars in the sky. My mind drifts as I listen to his voice...and the words float into my mind.
*"Kinou a n nani yasashiku temo
Ima doro aitsunou denonaka
Tsukino hikari ga todokanu kanata he
Aa kimi wo tsure saritai"*
I wanted you to take me, or for you to stay here. I never wanted to be parted like this. I bury my head into my arms and cry, like I have every night since then. I cry harder than I ever did when Mamo-chan was gone. It was a message to me, it always had been, this song anyways. I had always felt it when he sang it. I stayed like that, that voice calling out to me, as I fell asleep. As I drifted off as vague sense of an idea washed over me.
The next morning I woke with a gasp as my mind drifted to the night before. His voice, his song, his message...If it worked for him, who's to say it couldn't work for me?
I sat at my mirror, perplexed. But how would Tsukino Usagi ever get into the position to project a message through song anyways? I do not possess the same idol skill set as Minako. Maybe...if I asked her for help...I sighed and set my brush down. Then I'd have to explain all this to her, and with her big mouth there's no way she'd keep it secret.
Ring ring....Ring ring...Ring ring...Ring ring
I looked down at the caller I.D. MAMO-CHAN flashed at me.
Right, then there was always Mamoru to straighten out. I grabbed the phone and answered it with a faux yawn.
"Mamo-chaaaan. Do you know how early it is?" I whined into the mouthpiece.
"Ah, sorry Usako," he seemed giddy, and that didn't usually bode well for my guilt factor. "I was just wondering if you were busy today?"
"Ummmmmmmm," I truly wasn't and I didn't know if I should lie or not.
"If you are that's fine!" I twitched as I heard the disappointment in his tone.
"No no, I'm free today. What is it you had in mind?" I felt like banging my head against my vanity.
"Could you meet me at Juuban park at noon? There's something I want to show you."
"Sure, where in the park?"
"The fountain, noon sharp! And Usako,"
"Yes Mamo-chan?"
"I love you."
"I know Mamo-chan. I," I took a deep breath and let it out slowly, "I love you too."
We both hung up and I stared out the window. I wondered what he had to show me. I frowned as I got a small knot in my stomach. Something told me today was not going to end well.
In case you're not an avid Three Lights groupie like I am and know all the words and meanings fo there songs; here's the lyrics Usagi focused on:
*"Yesterday you were so gentle,
And today you're in the other guy's arms.
Moonlight is shooting at the endless shore,
Alas, I want to take you with me."*