The way things should have been

Disclaimer: I don't own these characters but boy I wish I did there is s much that could have been done with them and I just don't think Joss and co saw the potential in the love of the best couple EVER!!

Spoilers: based soley in season six of buffy and season three of Angel kind of in between smashed and older and far away with a few flashbacks from seasons 1, 2, 3. There are a few differences like Angel does not know Buffy is alive yet so they have both gone all this time her sleeping with Spike and him thinking she is still dead so the goal behind my story is that Willow finds out from Tara what is going on with Buffy and decides to call Angel who is just finding out about Buffy being alive the rest you will just have to read!!!! Please be kind as this is my first attempt at a fanfic i hope it's good and that you enjoy it and please give feedback so that if this story does suck i can try and learn from my mistakes anyway this is what my take of season six would have been like!!

Buffy walked home from her horrible job at the Double Meat palace thinking and worrying about way too much stuff. The Slayer still for the life of her could not figure this thing out with Spike and how Willow almost killed Dawn and almost got her taken away and all the stuff she was putting her friends through by not being her old self. But she felt like the old her was in there she just had to find a way to bring that fire back. The last time Buffy had thought she lost her edge was the summer after she sent Angel to hell but it came back even before he showed up and knocked her down in the woods. It will come back again she thought to herself once I get over this whole thing I will get my fire back she kept saying it over and over to herself as a few creatures from the shadows attacked.

Willow ran downstairs to answer the door. When she opened it she was surprised to see Tara standing there. "What are you doing here?" Willow asked unsure if she wanted to hear the answer."I have to talk to you about Buffy it's really important she needs our help!" "Well come in and sit down and let me get you a cup of tea or something then we can talk." Said Willow a little disappointed "Of course she is here for Buffy what else would she be here for." Willow muttered to herself. "So what's up?" Willow said as she entered the living room carrying the tea "Well have you noticed that Buffy has been acting weird around spike lately?" "Ya but we all just figured it was cuz we knew he liked her sexually I mean" "Well the thing is" Tara began "Buffy has been sleeping with spike for at least a month now!" "WHAT!!" Willow stood up from the couch and started pacing "Are you sure I mean hoe did you find this out?" Tara looked at Willow and was starting to worry if she had done the right thing by telling Will about it "Well she asked me to find out if she came back wrong with Spike being able to hit her and everything and that night when I came to tell her that nothing was wrong she broke down and started crying saying there had to be something wrong if she had to sleep with Spike to actually feel something." Tara looked at Willow who just stared at the floor in complete shock "I'm her best friend why wouldn't she tell me about this?" "Well maybe because she knew how you would act I mean you can be very judgemental at times!" Tara exclaimed Willow did not know what to do with this information and has she sat and thought about it for a moment "Well I think I know what I'm going to do and it's long overdue!" Willow said as she walked towards the phone. "Will what are you going to do?" Tara asked really worried now "I'm going to make a phone call I should have made about two months ago!" Willow said as she dialled the number "Hi Cordelia!!"

Buffy threw a round house kick to the one vamp running at her then staked the other one "Come on I know you can do better than this!" She said with a cocky smile "You're going to die slayer!" The angry vamp said with a snarl "Oh haven't you heard that if you kill me I will just come back dying twice before hasn't seemed to stop me!" she announced as she threw the vampire into a head stone and staked him. When she looked up at the head stone a flood of memories came rushing back to her. It was back in the graveyard she and Angel were having smoochies and she was telling him about the egg project "Oh, I told you, that faux parenting gig we're doing at school. Like I'm really planning to have kids anytime soon. Uh, maybe someday, in the future, when I'm done having a life, but... right now kids would be just a little too much to deal with."

She remembered how he looked at her when he said "I wouldn't know. I don't... well you know I, I can't," he looked so sad has he said that to her and that's when she looked up at him with her hopeful eyes and all the love in her heart and said. "Oh! That's okay, um... I-I figured there were all sorts of things vampires couldn't do. You know, like work for the Telephone Company, or volunteer for the Red Cross, or... have little vampires" He looked at her again with that concerned look that made her think of a sad puppy "So you don't think about the future?" he asked "No" Buffy said still starring into his eyes "Never" he asked again 'No" she announced with more urgency this time Angel looked away and looked back at her "So you really don't care what happens a year from now? Five years from now?" he said sounding a little worried. Buffy looked deeply into his eyes and said "Angel when I look into the future all I see is you, all I want is you" Angel looked at her with all the love in the world and said "I know the feeling."

Buffy continued her patrol there were so many memories of her and Angel all over Sunnydale but the graveyard held the most. Buffy could remember when she and angel had just gotten back together during her senior year and she was complaining about how he never took her anywhere different and then being sad about him being young forever and how she will be old and wrinkly at 50 and then him saying "Let's get you to 50" and all the memories of them being together for the first time and even all the consequences that happened like him going bad and jenny's death and sending him to hell that was still the most memorable night of her life and even though she was way more experienced now nothing she did with Riley or even now with Spike could compare to what it was like with Angel. Buffy could not figure out why she was thinking about her vampire lover so much but her only wish was that he was safe and happy in L.A.

Hyperion Hotel L.A

Cordelia Chase was running around answering phones and doing paperwork trying to get Angel Investigations organized. She was running around so crazy she didn't even see Fred answer their personal line "Hello Angel Investigations we help the hopeless umm.. No this is Fred would you like to talk to her ok one moment please." Fred walked over to Cordy's desk and cleared her throat. "Is there something you want Fred I'm really busy." "Well there is a girl on the phone who says her name is Willow and she says it's very urgent it's about someone named Buffy!" "WHAT!" Cordy yelled as she ran to the phone "Willow what's going on WHAT!! What do you mean Buffy is alive and needs help how the hell... yes willow I understand but... ok well I will get a hold of Angel just give me time I will call you and let you know what he says he is not going to be happy.. Yes ok bye." "What is going on Cordy" Fred asked in her innocent Texan droll "Well I have to talk to angel first Fred then I will tell u all about it k." Cordy exclaimed as she ran upstairs to try and get ahold of Angel.

"Angel look out!" screamed Wesley as Angel whorled around and cut the demons head off "Thanks Wes" Angel said with a triumphant smile on his face "Gunn you ok over there?" "Ya I would have had him you know" Gunn said getting up and clearing the debris off of his shirt "If you would not have finished him I would have" "Sure Gunn we believe you." Said Wes who was cleaning his weapon and getting ready to leave "What's with the tone English I would have done it" Wesley was still snickering at the way Gunn got so offended when he picked up his cell "Wesley Wyndam-Pryce" he said in his watcher like tone "Ok Cordy calm down we are on our way back right now... yes ok see you soon." "That was Cordy we are wanted back at the hotel ASAP" "Is there a problem Wes?" Angel asked in his concerned way "It will get explained as soon as we get back to the hotel Angel." And the three warriors rushed back to the car.

Sunnydale

Buffy walked up to her front steps wanting to go straight upstairs and go to bed only to be surprised by the one person she did not want to see tonight "Wanna have a romp in the trees pet" "You're disgusting Spike go away I told you this was over!" Buffy stated as she pushed him aside and walked into her house. "Buffy!!!" Dawn screamed from the kitchen "We are having pasta for dinner if you want some you better get in here or Xander will eat it all." "I will not." Xander screamed back boy it was good to be home she thought to herself.

L.A

Angel pulled up to too the hotel and ran into the hotel with Gunn and Wes at his heels. "Cordy what is going on what is so urgent that you could not have Wes tell me on the phone?" "Angel you might want to sit down" "No dammit Cordy just tell me!" "Ok you're wanted in Sunnydale..." "Sunnydale but.." "Ok Attack boy will you calm down and let me finish... Buffy needs your help!" There was a sharp pain that flashed across his face then Cordy was staring into yellow eyes instead of the warm brown ones his human form had. "What the HELL are you trying to pull Cordelia Buffy is dead and your making jokes.." "Angel no wait will you listen Buffy is NOT and I repeat NOT dead Willow called me there is a whole story to it but the bottom line is....." Angel did not even let her finish he ran upstairs grabbed some stuff and was on his way to Sunnydale hoping he got there before sunrise.

Sunnydale

Buffy woke up feeling a familiar safety that she had not felt in a very long time and when she sat up she looked over and saw tears welling up in the warm loving brown eyes of the only vampire who held her heart. "Angel what are you..." Buffy did not even have a chance to finish her sentence before Angel was kissing her she responded immediately and wrapped he arms around his neck and fell into the kiss Angel pulled away and just held her "Why didn't you tell me" he said his voice obviously cracking he held her face in his hands and just stared at her and then he started to cry "I thought I lost you" he cried and held her and refused to let her go they just laid in Buffy's bed and held each other till they drifted off to sleep.

That's where Willow and Xander found them they had gone up to see if Buffy was awake and how angel was doing but when they opened Buffy's door and found the two lovers fast asleep in each other's arms. "Well that's just great if it's not one vamp it's another but at least this one is better than the blonde haired freak show" "Xander shhh.. Angel will hear you and he doesn't know anything about Spike and Buffy and if he did he would kill spike." "Maybe that would be better I mean then he would not be around to annoy the hell out of us then." Xander stated as he and Willow walked downstairs both of them could hear Dawn watching T.V as they walked into the kitchen to get some coffee just then the back door burst open and a tarped figure ran inside yelling "Shut the door, shut the bloody door!" "What the hell are you doing here Spike." 'It's a free country i can go any bloody place i choose." "Well you're not..." just then as Xander was about to finish his sentence they heard giggles and laughter coming down the stairs and as buffy and Angel walked into the kitchen and spike said "What the hell is the captain forehead doing here?" "Well if you must know he came to see me." "Well she is my slayer now so go find your bloody own!" Spike said practically yelling "What the hell are you talking about peroxide boy!" Angel said angrily growling his vampiric side now showing. He grabbed Spike and flung him against the wall. "Didn't your little precious Buffy tell you we've been getting kinda pelvic for awhile but i guess she left that part out while you two were going at it." Just then buffy punched spike and kept punching him till her knuckles bled "Get the hell outta my house before i throw you into the sun or stake you so help me god she screamed.

With all the commotion going on in the kitchen Dawn came running in and screamed "Angel" she ran at him and gave him a huge hug and would not let him go. "I can't believe you're here wait... what are you doing here?" asked Dawn still clinging to Angel as they all watched Buffy throw Spike out of the house with his blanket and they all watched him scream and run for cover. "Well to answer your question Dawn im here because i just found out that buffy was alive." "So are you and buffy back together then or am i gonna have to watch you leave again." Dawn asked with a pouty face it was still hard for Angel to believe that this young girl had not been around him as long as buffy had all of his memories of buffy had her complaining about dawn in some way shape or form but as he looked at her now he could only give her one possible answer. "I dont know Dawn we haven't talked about it." "Ok but i really hope you guys do cuz i miss havin you around." She exclaimed as she grabbed the juice Willow offewred her then went back to watch more cartoons. "Umm... Buffy i think we need to talk could we go upstairs?" "Ya sure you go a head and i will be right up."buffy said in a kinda worried voice. When she heard Angel head up she wispered to her friends "What the hell was Spike thinking." Was all she could stay as she walked upstairs to find out the fate of a past love.