*** Authors note: This story takes place after Bella leaves for Italy and returns with Edward. She can't get over her feelings for Jake even though she has Edward back.

Why Can't I see you?

"Jacob Black don't you walk away from me!" Bella Swan demanded as the rain poured down around them.

A few feet from her Jacob stopped, his feet digging into the ground to hold him into place. "What could you possible want now Bella, huh?" He stared at her as the rain sopped his black ear length hair down into his eyes. "What more can you possibly do to hurt me?"

That question hurt. They all hurt. Every word that came from his mouth stung like knives. "I don't want to hurt you anymore Jake, you know that." Bella took a step forward and she watched as Jacob visibly flinched. She knew it had been a mistake to come here today. Staying away from him was no longer an option. Being apart from him was like having a black hole inside of her heart. Edward had started to notice her short answers, Alice was constantly fretting over her and Charlie had become annoying with his questions of Jacob. The truth of the matter alone was that she needed Jacob. Just as much as she needed Edward to live, Bella needed Jacob to breathe.

Jacob looked Bella down with a cold stare. He couldn't figure out why she had come all this way just to bring him down another peg. She chose the bloodsucker and left him behind. After all the time he spent trying to help her, not for himself but for her alone she had repaid him by tossing it all away and kicking mud on him. How could she possibly have known that the moment Edward left her lying in the woods that day, Jacob would feel the same exact way when she chose to fly to Italy to get back the very man who destroyed her. His heart was broken almost beyond repair and yet her she was, taunting him.

"What do you want Bella?" He tried again, looking away from her brown eyes. Methodically he stared off into the woods and tried to think of something happier, like how it was going to feel to beat in Embry when this was over.

"I already tried to tell you, I want you." This time she took another step forward. Bringing her within hands reach of him. "I need you Jacob." Her voice was pleading now, urging him to turn and look at her.

Jacob felt the anger bubble beneath the surface of his hot skin. Even as the cold rain poured down around them his temperature spiked a few more degrees. He couldn't help but shout at her now, "How dare you say that to me! How can you do this to me? Jacob I want you, I need you…Forgive me for not believing you."

Bella flinched as his temper exploded. This wasn't exactly the reaction she had expected when she thought this situation over in her head. It had been easy enough to convince her self that she could come down to the Black's house and tell Jacob how she felt and it would end with sunshine and rainbows.

Stomping away fiercely this time as to make mud splatter Jacob turned away from her again and moved towards the woods line. He needed to get away from her now so he could think. "Go away Bells, come back tomorrow I might be ready to talk to you with out being angry then okay?" and with that he quickly phased into the giant russet wolf and took off at record speed for the woods.

The car ride home was slightly brutal to Bella's ego and she bit back stinging tears as she rounded the corner and turned into the Cullen's drive. They would instantly know where she had gone, and dodging questions was going to be tough enough as it was. Alice couldn't see Bella when she went to the reservation and since their return she had been constantly seeking Bella's future to make sure she wasn't going to do something reckless again.

Before she had a chance to push the car door open Edward was there opening it for her. He reached out one perfectly marbled hand, which she took in her own, as he helped her down.

"Why did you go?" He asked with quiet precision. He hadn't wanted to scare her off before he had a chance to get the information he required.

"Edward, not now." Bella heaved a sigh and moved in front of him to let herself into the house. "Just let it go okay?"

Edward couldn't help but to make the human emotion of grinding his teeth together with frustration. If she wanted to go to the reservation to see her friend that was more than fine with him, he just preferred that she told him in advance so he wasn't worried. Or Jealous.

"Oh Bella, thank heavens you are safe!" chimed Alice from the stair as she skipped silently to her side to hug her with granite force. She took Bella's hand and wrinkled her nose. "Wet dog plus wet human. Come upstairs and lets get you changed or you will catch a human cold."

With a look over her shoulder Bella gave Edward the no nonsense stare. With vague disappointment he silently followed them up the stairs, but at the top turned right and went into his room.

After being changed into something warmer, Bella thanked Alice and excused herself to Edwards's room. She shut the door behind her and turned to cross her arms over her chest. "Don't push it Edward."

He smiled innocently at her. "I don't know what you mean." He reached for the sound system and dropped a CD down into it, closed the lid and pressed play.

Soft piano music accompanied by saxophone filled the air and Bella couldn't help but smile. "I'm still not going to tell you why I went to see Jacob, it really is none of your business."

"You're right, it really is none of my business." Edward agreed lazily as he reached out and pried her arms apart, giving her a cool hug. "Stay here tonight, Charlie is in a good mood he'll let you and Alice have a slumber party. I can tell you now there wont be much sleeping though…" and with that he gave her a golden wink.

The next morning, Edward was still pretend sleeping when she woke. She slipped silently from the futon/makeshift bed and grabbed the silk sheet to wrap around her waist as she went to the bathroom. Bella was going back to the reservation today to see Jacob, and once and for all get it through to him how she felt.

Edward was a wonderful man who loved her and obsessed over her. Jacob was also the conflicting love of her life. The months that they spent together, nearly everyday had seeped into the tight cracks of her heart. She got dressed, washed her face and then snuck (as much as you can in a house full of over sensed vampires) down to the kitchen.

Naturally Esme her mother for all sakes and purposes was already preparing a human breakfast. She smiled a huge smile when she noticed Bella.

"Come eat! Its all hot, and foods I think you'll love!" With a hum she moved gracefully to the table and dished hot eggs, bacon, toast, fruit, juice etc.

"Thanks I really need to run home quick though…" and with that being said Bella felt the pang of regret for lying in her stomach. Quickly she sat down. "A little wont hurt though."

It was then that Edward came down the stairs and sat next to her. "Did you sleep well?" he asked softly taking a piece of toast and giving her the cheers sign with it.

She felt her face immediately blush red with embarrassment. "Yes thank you. I'm just going to run home for a few okay Edward?" she said standing and brushing her long chocolate colored hair over her shoulder. "I want to go and talk to my dad about a few things."

Edward stared quietly at her face, debating whether or not he believed her. After a moment he sighed. "Alright but you'll be back for dinner right?"

"Oh yes! For dinner tonight I thought I would make rack of lamb with a red sauce and broiled potatoes." Esme said as she removed the barely touched dirty food plates from the breakfast table.

"Yes of course." Bella said as she stood. She walked quickly to the main hall and retrieved her coat, Edward was naturally there to help her put it on before she could blink. "I'll be back later I promise." she said giving him a quick kiss before hurrying to her car.

"Alice." Edward whispered.

Before he finished her name she was standing at his side looking out the open front door to where Bella's truck was heaving out of sight onto the main road. "Where is she going Alice?"

For a moment she got a blank look, and then a serene smile. "Learn to trust her Edward. She is going to Charlie's. For now anyways." and with that she turned and skipped away.