APOV

Not unlike any other night Jasper plagued my dreams, but tonight they could only be described as nightmares. Though, with a nightmare you can wake up with the comfort that it was only that; a nightmare. What was playing in my head all night was more than that, worst. It was a painful recollection of what had really happened. Over and over, but magnified a thousand times. Him holding her, they way I want him to do to me. Kissing her the way he should kiss me.

I woke up gasping for air, on the verge of tears for the third time that night. Rosalie's bed was empty as she was staying in his room. Half of my brain was telling the less logical half that she was staying in there because I wouldn't unlock the door and because of Emmett. That metal argument was short lived though because of the fact it was four am, and I'm anything but logical at four am.

Deciding once and for all that I wasn't going back to the torture that bombarded me when I closed my eyes, I grabbed my iPod and sat up. I needed something to get my mind off things, usually I would draw, but that reminded me of yesterday and how I fell asleep in his lap.

What I really needed was some fresh air to clear my head. Flipping my iPod on I stepped on to the porch as quietly as I could, the cool morning air drying the wet trails tears had left on my face.

I leant on on the railing of the porch, looking out over the early morning scenery. The sun wasn't up yet and everything was still dark and slightly dreary, yet at the same time it had this magical, dream-like quality to it.

I heard a noise to my right, and before I had the chance to react I was being spun around and pushed back against the railing.

Okay, someone's gonna get a slappin-

Next thing I knew, I had lips pressed against mine. Soft, loving lips. I melted into the kiss – stupid I know, as I only had a sneaking suspicion who this actually was. I brought my hands up to caress the mop of perfectly curly hair that could only belong to one person. I moaned into the kiss and unwillingly broke away for air.

"If you think you can just kiss me and make up for what you did you're wrong." I turned around to face the darkness once again, I hadn't looked at his face yet, I knew if I did I'd be a goner.

"I didn't think that. I just thought if you were going to hate me anyway, I at least wanted to do that before I lost the chance." He stood behind me and made no attempt at moving any closer.

"That is incredibly selfish you know."

"I do." I could hear the humour in his voice.

"You think this is funny Jasper?" I turned to face him, seeing that damned smirk fall from his face.

"No, ma'am."

"Don't you even think about 'no ma'am-ing me! You're a selfish bastard Jasper Whitlock, I'm glad you're interested in Rose and not me. Let her deal with you." He was silent for a minute, probably trying to think of what to say that wouldn't piss me off further. Right now, there wasn't much that wouldn't.

"You're completely right about the self bastard thing, though I probably deserve more than-"

"Yeah you do, I could think of something else if you like-"

"Alice let me finish please." Stupid ass-clown. "Last night was just a dare, a stupid, fucked up one at that. Bella was just trying to get back at Emmett, I shouldn't have done it, I know, Rose knows that too. Please, even if you need to hate someone, hate me, not Rose please. I don't want to be the reason you two lose your friendship." He had taken a step forward now, practically begging me to believe him and understand.

"A dare?" could I believe him? I wanted to, god did I want to.

"Yes, that's all it was, Alice, I swear to you."

"You seemed to enjoy it a bit much for a dare." I know I was being difficult, but I had to know the whole truth.

"Honestly," he said taking a step forward again; close enough for me to see into his eyes, "I was imagining you, darlin'."

"Really?" as if gravity or some unknown force was pulling us together, he put his finger under my chin so he could look me in the eyes.

"Really." He breathed just loud enough for me to hear him, before putting his lips chastely against mine. I dare you to find a more content person in this world. I'd beat them all, no problem.

We kissed like that for what seemed like hours, just small kisses, his lips brushing over mine over and over. His mouth ghosting up and down my neck and along my jaw line. They weren't the world's most intimate kisses, but I'll be damned if they weren't the most loving.

I finally settled into his embrace as we watched the dawn break over the trees. "You know you must have extremely light feet, because I didn't hear you come out here when you snuck up on me." I smiled into his chest as he held me to him.

"I was already out here when you came out, you just didn't see me, darlin'."

"Oh, how come?"

"I couldn't sleep knowing I'd hurt you the way I did, you mean a lot to me Ali, and I don't want you hurting." I hugged him to me tighter, the feeling of his arms around me and the feeling of his lips on my hair was the only reassurance I had that is wasn't a dream. Though at this point, I didn't care whether or not it was. If this was a dream, I never wanted to wake up.

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