When you're dreaming with a broken heart

The giving up is the hardest part

She takes you in with her crying eyes

Then all at once you have to say goodbye

Wondering could you stay my love?

Will you wake up by my side?

No she can't, 'cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....

Happy Mother's Day, mom. It's a really sunny day with a breeze, you would've liked it. We could sit outside with cucumber sandwiches and discuss the Tony noms. They were announced last week. Promises, Promises got nominated for best choreography. I wish you were here to teach it to me, like you used to. American Idiot also got nominated for best musical. You would've liked it, considering how much you liked Green Day. I used to hate them because they sounded too angry and loud, but now I like them. Especially the American Idiot soundtrack. It's a lot more theatrical.

I brought daisies to your grave. They look really pretty. I saw another girl there and she smiled at me. I didn't smile back. I didn't really feel like smiling.

Dad's locked in his room, not really talking to anyone, as usual. You would've known how to make him feel better. You always knew how to make everyone feel better.

I ate ice cream. I really shouldn't have but I did. Coach Sylvester said I should lose a few pounds, and the tub of strawberry Ben N' Jerry's I ate isn't going to help. I remember that was your favorite flavor. Mine was chocolate, but you didn't like chocolate. I don't really like chocolate anymore either.

Finn's celebrating with Carole. Part of me wants to go celebrate with them, but that would in insensitive to you, of course. Besides, even though Carole is pretty cool, we both know who I would really want to be hanging out with. I really love him mom. I hate myself for it but I really do. I know you're probably sick of hearing that but you're the only person I've ever told.

It's around 6:30 now. I should get something ready for dinner. Maybe I'll make vegetable lasagna. That was your favorite. Or maybe I'll just order a pizza. Screw Coach Sylvester and her diet plans.

I love you mommy. Happy Mother's Day. I wish you were here.

Sorry if I've seriously bummed anyone out. I just felt the need to write this. I didn't write one for PoM, Home or Bad Rep because they had lots of Kurt in them and I didn't think anything needed to be added :)

Happy Mother's Day :)

The song is "Dreaming With a Broken Heart" by John Mayer