Author's Note: My first Fan Fiction ever. I hope you enjoy! Just so you know...this is mostly an all human story except for our wonderful Edward. No Vampires either...you'll just have to read the story to find out the many suprises I have in store for you all. This is a completely different story then most. I know where it's headed and I'm sure all of you will love it.

Disclaimer: I do not own any of the twilight characters. They all belong to the wonderful and talented Stephenie Meyer.

"Parting is all we know of heaven, and all we need of hell."

- Emily Dickenson

Prologue

I have loved, I have lost, and I have cried until all the life was drained from my body. My parents always told me to never be afraid of death. You can explain it. You can't predict it. You just have to endure it, for it is one of those mysteries in life that you have no control over. We are born into this world to have some purpose on earth and then when it's time to leave life behind, you're gone but, not always forgotten. At least, not by the ones who loved you. Just like my father Charlie Swan. He was my best friend. I was by his side 'til the very end. Until the sweat slowly faded from his face, 'til his hand lost its grip from mine and fell as he took his last breath, 'til his eyes closed for the final time as he fell into eternal slumber.

After that day, I became numb to the world around me but, the pain never went away. No matter how hard I tried to push people away or pretend that I was having a never ending nightmare and that I was just having trouble waking up from it. In reality, I was just trying to protect what was left of the beating object inside my chest.

My whole life I always felt as if there was some kind of presence near me. It was always like someone was watching my every move if my parents weren't. I never truly understood anything that I was feeling meant. That was until this past summer when my mother Renee decided we needed to get away for awhile before my senior year. I knew it was so I wouldn't give her any more problems that I had caused over the years. It was the last two months before my 18th birthday. It was also the last two months when all of her control over me meant nothing since I would finally be an adult.

Then out of nowhere, he came to me like a dream. All the rules of never letting someone take control of the pieces left of my broken heart completely disappeared. It's because of him I learned to breathe in the good and exhale the sadness that lingered in me for so long. He was the guardian angel that as always there even when I thought all hope was lost. He also became the love I never knew existed. My Edward.