Truth
(A psychological analysis of Luc's feelings and perspectives in relation to Tru, shown through his subconscious monologue)
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A blazing fire hit me
Caught me off guard
Left me immobilized
My heart pounding so hard
I could not breathe, nor speak, nor blink
My eyes were fixed on the light
In the midst of darkness
A sanctuary that seemed so bright
Her voice echoed in my shaking body
A mix of love and sorrow reaching out from inside
How little did I know that the way I met her
Would resemble the way I died
She broke my camera on the first day
She broke my heart on the last
What this dazzling beauty had to say
Was enough to cause a big blast
A 'lucky guesser' and a good liar
Both seem so equally true
Enough fuel to add to my fire
Of not knowing the mystery that is Tru
*
A mystery so tremendous
So frightening, so strange
One I could not comprehend
One she could not change
How ironic for a photographer
To miss the big picture
Why is it that the truth behind her
Is mystified in nature?
Why didn't she trust me enough to tell me?
Or was it me not willing to listen?
Was it her way of trying to protect me
Or my way of avoiding her mission
Secrets upon secrets
She felt the need to keep
Building a high wall between us
Over which I could not leap
Yet the moment I broke through this wall
And caught a glimpse of what is behind
I did not feel the need to make the call
To which the day would rewind
*
Now as I lay in this coffin
With a red rose on my chest
Tears of loved ones that so often
On my shoulders came to rest
She plants a kiss on my cheek
And whispers words I long to hear
Unaware that from heaven I peek
Blow a kiss in the wind to show I'm near
But there he is standing, lurking nearby
Watching his latest prey
She storms her way to him and stare him in the eye
Life promising that death will pay
So now I know why she never shared
This secret she so difficultly carried
I wish I could tell her how much I cared
And how much I was worried
I hope she knows deep within her heart
The amount of love I had
That even death could not keep us apart
Our memories are far from sad
If I could relive that last day
If I had another chance at youth
All I'd want to do is to say
"I believe you're telling the truth"
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The End