A/N: I have been really busy with school work lately and my muse is stuck so here is a little ficlet for the Baby Mama Drama Glee challenge.

Good-bye and Hello

It's not like I knew about the baby when I left. If I had I never would have left. I knew that good-bye was going to be hard but what I didn't know was that hello was going to be even worse.

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"Alright Ms. Berry please take a deep breathe and slowly let it out." Said the nurse as she pressed the stethoscope to my back. "Good, good. Now lean back so we can check how your little girl is doing." I sighed and slowly laid down on the hospital table and prepared myself for bite of cold as she spread the gel on my enlarged stomach. I closed my eyes before looking at the small Ultra-sound screen. That small moving body always seemed to astound me. That was another living being inside of me. A little girl. A completely unplanned for and surprising little miracle. "It appears that everything is going smoothly and your second trimester is progressing perfectly." The nurse smiled at me. "You must be very happy. A little girl all your own." Then she frowned. "I know when you first came here you stated that you were not in contact with the father. Is that correct Ms. Berry?"

I took a deep breathe and nodded, before looking again at the small moving object on the screen. I never would have left if I had know about my baby. Our baby. I knew how much hurt he had suffered when Quinn had lost hers. But I've been gone for five months now. I can't just pop back into his life and tell him that he is going to have a baby. I've written him so many letters that I just haven't had the guts to send. He would be devastated. I had kept this from him. I never even told him good-bye. I blinked back the tears rapidly gathering in my eyes and smiled shakily at the nurse. "Yes that's correct. I have not had any contact with him since I found out."

The nurse smiled sympathetically at me. "I know this must be hard to do by yourself and I'm sorry but we are just about to make it harder." My heart began beating faster. "I'm sorry Ms. Berry but to fully understand any risks you might have during your pregnancy we the father's health records, as well as those of his family members." I jerked.

"What?" Talk to Noah. I couldn't he would hate me. I don't think I could handle. My breathe began coming in short quick gasps. "I..I don't think I..I can d..do that."

The nurse's eyes widened. "I understand Ms. Berry, really I do."

I looked sharply at her. "No! NO! You can't even comprehend! He'll hate me! I kept this from him! He'll loathe me. I can't handle that. I…I just….love him s..so much! I can't bear for him to hate me!" I wailed.

"I'm sure he won't hate you. He'll understand why you did this. Please calm down. Please. You wouldn't want to harm the baby. During her speech the nurse had wrapped her slim arms around my shaking shoulders and made me lay my head on her chest. "Everything will be alright Ms. Berry please calm down."

I let this strange woman rock me and comfort me for ten minutes before I sniffled and pulled away. "I am terribly sorry for my overreaction. I do not usually weep all over my nurses. It must be the hormones." The nurse smiled and nodded.

"It will be hard. He will be upset with you. But if you love him he probably loves you back. So that means there is no way he can hate you. You have to be strong for you and your baby girl. Everything will be fine in the end. Just make sure you get everything before your next appointment so we have ample time to prepare."

I smiled slightly and nodded. "Thank you very much for your support. I hope everything turns out like you say it will." I got up and wandered out of the OBGYN's office.

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As soon as I stepped into my apartment I collapsed on one of my kitchen chairs and called Kurt. Kurt and my fathers were the only ones who knew anything about the baby and I just didn't have the energy to consult my fathers. Kurt picked up on the first ring.

"Darling is everything alright? You don't normally call me till about an hour after any baby appointments you might have." I sighed and relaxed into my chair. Kurt always seemed to have a calming affect on me.

"No everything is not alright. Everything is awful and horrendous and…and very, very bad!" I yelled into the phone.

Kurt hissed sympathetically on the other line. "I'm sorry Rache. I'm sure whatever it is the baby will be fine."

I closed my eyes and spread my free hand over my large stomach and smiled slightly as the baby moved beneath my touched. "I'm not too worried about the baby."

I could hear almost here Kurt frowning when he asked, "Then what's wrong?"

I didn't answer for a few seconds. It was already so hard to comprehend, how could I even say it out loud. "I need you to come back to Lima with me." I whispered finally. "I need to talk to him. To tell him. He needs to know." All I heard from Kurt for about ten minutes was his deep breathing.

After about 3 minutes of silence he finally said, "Are you sure Rache? I agree that he needs to know but do you really want to go now?"

I frowned at the phone. "Why is now any different than any other time?" I asked quizzically.

"Next week is November 10th. It would have been your three year anniversary. My sources say he has not been taking it well."

I winced. Of course, three years ago was when we went on our first official date. "I can't believe I forgot."

"Its okay sweetie, you've had a lot on your mind lately, with the baby and taking all that time off of college. I'm so glad NYU agreed to let you study from home till you had the baby."

"I'm glad too. But yes it has to be soon. My doctor said I need to get his health records before my next appointment. And also I'm just so tired of the lies. I can finally admit it to myself Kurt, I need him." I sighed into the phone.

I heard Kurt sigh and begin typing on his computer. "I can get us to Ohio by 4 in afternoon, tomorrow." I closed my eyes and tried to ignore the swelling of my heart. Tomorrow I could see him as early as tomorrow.

"Book the seats, I'll just stay with my dads."

"Great I'll pick you up at eleven." There was a pause. "I hope your sure about this Rachel. I agree that he does need to know but I really hope you thought this through and won't regret it later."

I sighed and leaned back in my chair, closing my eyes and pressing my head into the cool wood. "Me too, Kurt. Me too."

A/N: This will probably only end up being a very short story. Three or four chapters at most. I hope it doesn't have to be complete to enter a challenge.