Ok so I started this role play of D. Gray-Man with my best friend, and as we role played she pointed out that it was turning into one hellova epic story, so I decided hey, why not turn it into one?

And thus here we are now XD I'll continue to thank said best friend as the story progresses, for without her, there would be no Yuu Kanda in this story, meaning there certainly wouldn't be any Yullen. 3

I want to warn you guys beforehand. This is Yullen. Guy on guy stuff. And it gets pretty intense cause me and my friend are both die-hard Yullen fan girls, making everything our characters do what every Yullen fan girl would want them to do. Of course, we are also fans of them staying IN character. So we managed to squeeze that into the Yullen goodness. If you don't like guy on guy stuff, please go. I made sure we didn't go overboard but it can still be pretty…uh I don't know. So anyways, enjoy~!

::~Sacrifice~::

True love is laced with sacrifices.

Chapter One: Decisions

Kanda glanced from his spot in the cafeteria, which was completely deserted because of the great fear he inflicted in every finder if they tried to sit near him. The samurai was watching a peculiar performance by the white haired bean sprout. It was the first time he'd ever seen Allen not inhaling food while in the cafeteria.

Allen looked like shit.

What the hell happened to him? Kanda began to glare at the boy, as if willing him to act normally with a piercing look.

Kanda waited a while, watching Allen closely as the boy sat with his head lowered at an empty table, with no food, and simply pet the golden golem that was sitting on the tables edge. It was like he was thinking deeply.

Kanda let out a rough "Che" and stood up abruptly, taking his cleaned off tray over to Jerry to deal with, then turning to go. However right before the samurai began his fast paced walk away from the counter he got an idea.

"Oi. I want mitarashi dango." Kanda stated quickly to the cook.

Jerry looked at Kanda with a sort of surprised look, and he didn't blame the man. Kanda loathed sweets.

But this wasn't for him.

"Alright coming up! How many do you want?" Jerry asked, leaning one elbow on the counter casually after starting up a few things in the kitchen. This caused Kanda to hesitate.

"However many you think the bean sprout would eat." Kanda said, unaware of how much that would be.

"Ah! Alright then!" Jerry rushed off. Kanda had a sinking feeling that he was in over his head… and soon it would be literally. With mitarashi dango. After a moment Jerry came back with Kanda's order, and the samurai cursed under his breath.

Really, Moyashi? You can eat THIS MUCH? The samurai mentally questioned in his head as he gazed upon the mound of food that was just given to him.

Ok…now to get it over to him. Without anyone seeing. And without me having to touch these…disgusting…things. Kanda thought for a while before a group of finders walked by conveniently.

"Oi. You three." Kanda ordered to them, they all stopped in their tracks in fear.

"Y-yes…Sir Exorcist…?" one replied shakily.

"Carry these to the Moyashi." the samurai said, motioning to the mound of mitarashi dango on the counter in front of him. They all stared at the mound, then back at Kanda as if he were asking them to braid his hair.

Kanda frowned then let his hand find its way to Mugen's hilt, causing the three finders to immediately dive at the pile of food and attempt to carry it. Kanda let a small smirk fall on his features as they struggled across the cafeteria towards where Allen was sitting.

The finders rushed away from the table as soon as the cargo was dropped off. Kanda approached the table slowly, as if acting like he had nothing to do with the three finders that just dumped a pile of sweets in front of the boy.

"Eat. You're always happier when you eat." Kanda ordered stiffly, eyeing the boy with a sort of concerned look, though he'd be damned if he let anyone notice this.

"I'm not hungry." Allen suddenly said after looking at the food. His eyes immediately dropped downward afterwards.

There was a long silence. Kanda stayed as still as a statue, waiting for some sign of the normal, annoying bean sprout. He got no such sign.

"Che."

Timcanpy, who had been happily sitting on the table being pet, managed to eat its way out of the deathly large pile of mitarashi dango that had landed on it, and began munching away at the pile since its master seemed to not want it.

Kanda gave Allen a hard glare. The boy was lucky enough to not be looking anywhere near the samurai.

"Fine. Sulk." Kanda said harshly after a few minutes of silence. He noticed Allen flinched, and looked every more distraught, if that was possible. The samurai narrowed his eyes and turned away, starting up his fast pace away from the depressed boy.

That's what I get for f*cking caring.

Kanda hissed out a venomous "Che" and made his way to his room, knowing what was waiting for him there, he slowed his pace. A sudden anger welled up inside of Kanda, causing him to stop completely in his tracks and grind his teeth together.

God damn it! Whoever the hell did that to him…

Kanda tightened one hand around the hilt of his sword, vowing here and now to kill the pathetic human that dared to cause Allen pain.

After satisfying his anger with mental images of him slicing, cutting, and stabbing said victim, Kanda marched off down a different hallway. Once the Japanese exorcist reached his destination, the training room, he went over to the quiet area of the room and removed Mugen from his belt and sat down, placing the sheathed sword beside him.

Now to clear my mind of these damned thoughts. Kanda let out a huff of a breath before closing his eyes. Meditation was always his way of escaping the world temporarily.

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Allen felt another pang of guilt hit his heart as he painfully rejected Kanda away. But he had to keep reminding himself that this was for his own good. Allen closed his eyes and let out a long sigh, it coming out as a sort of whimper accidentally.

The boy turned to glance at a clock that was nailed to one of the large walls of the cafeteria. His heart leapt into his throat. It was time.

I…I've made up my mind. I'll choose the second choice. It'll keep everyone safer…

With that decided, Allen stood up, a sad determination taking over his features. He turned and walked out of the cafeteria. Little did everyone inhabiting the large room know that this would be the last time they would see the parasite-type exorcist.

Allen slowly made it to his room, closing the door behind him quietly. Timcanpy flew off of the boys head and fluttered in front of its master, tilting its body in a confused-concerned gesture. Allen ignored the golden golem and let out a deep sigh, leaning his back against the door directly behind him.

I should get ready now… Allen glanced at the golem, which made the creature perk up at the attention, determine to help its master. Allen gave the golem a sad smile.

"I'm sorry, Timcanpy, but you'll have to stay here for me, alright?"

The golem tilted its body even more. Not able to grasp what Allen meant. The boy let out another sigh.

"I'm leaving, Timcanpy. But I want you to stay here." he repeated. Even though he was saying this to the golem, Allen felt like he had to repeat it several times for his own mind to grasp it.

I'm leaving.

Leaving.

Lea…

…ving…

Allen clenched one fist and leaned off the door, crossing his room. Within a few minutes he had dissected his room of all that was necessary, and packed it all in a bag. Allen set the bag down on his bed and stared down at it for a moment, hair covering his eyes. Timcanpy frantically flew around the boys head, panicking. The poor golem now knew what Allen was talking about, however it was helpless to stop him.

Allen realized he was still wearing an exorcist coat, and quickly changed that by removing the uniform, revealing his normal white long sleeved t-shirt and red ribbon along with dress pants. The boy took the uniform and folded it nicely on the edge of his bed. Now all he had to do was form a door to the ark, do one more thing and then he would be gone.

Allen felt a throbbing lump form in his throat. His blue-gray eyes suddenly began to sting.

No…not now.

The boy brought a hand up to his face, shutting his eyes for a moment. The sensation faded and Allen regained his composure, lifting the bag off the bed and swinging one strap over his shoulder.

Allen closed his eyes and focused on connecting with the ark. A silent procedure he had mastered in order to help exorcists move around the world faster by teleportation.

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I can't believe I'm doing this. Kanda thought as he marched towards the bean sprouts room in an angry, quick pace. The minutes of meditation that he had managed to get made him realize that mitarashi dango alone would not make Allen happy, the samurai would have to make a more direct approach.

Kanda reached the boys room door and let out a huff.

He better open up quickly, I'm not in the mood to deal with his sulking shit.

The samurai knocked hard on the door three times with his right hand, quickly withdrawing the hand to rest on Mugen's hilt casually.

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Allen froze, he was one step away from entering the white door of the ark before he heard three loud knocks on his door.

Shit! Who could it be?

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"Oi, Moyashi. Open the damn door." Kanda ordered taking his hand away from Mugen, or temptation to cut the door down, and crossing his arms impatiently across his chest.

If he doesn't open it ion the next minute I'm opening it myself.

::

…It's Kanda?

Allen had to swallow hard to force the newly formed lump down his throat. Kanda had come to see him? Why? The boy shook his head silently, less he made a noise of inner struggle loud enough for the samurai's sharp ears to hear. Allen forced himself to step through the door, not wanting to risk being seen by Kanda, who will undoubtedly get impatient with the silence and cut down the door. Allen soon disappeared into the white town of Noah's ark. His room deserted as the portal closed, save a sad, helpless and confused Timcanpy, and a neatly abandoned exorcist coat.

I'm sorry…I guess you were…too late, you slowpoke…

With those thoughts in mind, Allen silently went to the hidden room of the 14th, making sure he was seen by no one. Once there he played the white piano, the 'key', making one last request of the ark. The boy finished the song then let his hands linger there for a moment before withdrawing his hands and turning away, walking out of the room and then out into the empty streets of the white ark.

After finding an empty door, a door that was not connected to a dimension or place in the world, Allen closed his eyes and focused, connecting the door to a new place in the world. Once the connection was complete he let out a sigh, opened the door, and walked through.

The door closed behind him, and the abandonment of the order by Allen Walker was complete as of then.

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Kanda let out a hiss as he got no reply, and grabbed his swords hilt, drawing his blade out quickly.

"Fine, I'll open it myself." the samurai said roughly, then with expert aim, Kanda sliced two diagonal slashes in the door, cutting through the material with Mugen. He created a perfectly symmetrical "X" in the door, making the doors pieces fall over, opening the door.

Immeadiately the first thing Kanda saw was the folded exorcist coat. Already his mind was clicking with what happened.

Shit.

Kanda noticed a very distraught Timcanpy, confirming his belief.

That damned…Moyashi!!!

The samurai quickly rushed inside of the room, grabbing the uniform harshly and then stormed out, walking towards Komui's room. A few finders that were walking down the halls shrunk in fear as Kanda flew by them, a deadly aura of anger surrounding him.

You wont get away that easily…Allen!

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Broken: by Seether

I wanted you to know

That I love the way you laugh

I want to hold you high and steal your pain away

I keep your photograph and I know it serves me well

I want to hold you high and steal your pain

Cause im broken when I'm lonesome

And I don't feel right when you're gone away.

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Ok! Done with the first chapter! Wewt! I hope you all aren't angry at me for making Allen leave! I want to point out again that this is Yullen, there's no way I'm writing an entire story about the two stars being SEPORATED! So don't worry…too much ~evil grin~ Anyways, review! I'd love to hear how I did with keeping people in character and stuffs. I'm excited about this story X3

~Ulqy-chan ish FINALLY WRITING A DGM STORY jeez. What kind of fan am I? Took me long enough to write one.