Well, I've been getting into the habit of updating my stories.
I wonder how long that'll last?

Also, I don't think I've said thanks for the support or the great comments that you've given. So, thankyou all.

Anway, enjoy the chapter.

Song: Always on my mind by Tiki Taane

Edward sighed as he looked at his hands. They were pale and perfect, not a flaw marked their existence. He rubbed them together, trying to bring heat to his hands but failed. His own cold figure remained the same, the temperature not changing in the slightest. He dragged them over his face for no better reason than, well, because he could. And it made him feel human. Not so...still and lifeless.

Looking down, Edward saw the beautiful sleeping face of Bella. Soft snores emitted from pale, pink lips and every once and a while, a mumbled 'Edward' would escape, causing the mentioned to smile lightly. Of course, Edward saw the figure as beautiful and he knew that part of his heart loved the girl-how could it not? For nearly a year they had been together and he had grown very attached to the girl. But, he couldn't help thinking that her skin would look better tanned, or her hair shorter and darker, or her eyes a deep dark brown instead of the light, feminine tone it held.

Shaking his head, Edward forced those thoughts out of his head. This was it now-this was who he was with and it had been his choice. He had no right to compare, no right to want Bella, his sweet, innocent Bella, to be different or look like someone else or be someone else entirely. The thoughts alone made him sad but he couldn't dwell on it.

But it didn't mean he didn't.

Edward Cullen was broody-simple as that. Everyone who knew him knew that and, if he were honest with himself, he would say so himself. Being the creature that he was, he had an eternal amount of time on his hands which meant he had time to think alot of thing's over. One being his blond haired best friend. He'd been back for around a week now and it hurt Edward to know that Naruto was avoiding him. Edward loved the kitsune and cared for him deeply and wanted to see him badly. Although, if Naruto knew about himself and his ex-lover, it was no surprise that he was, in fact, avoiding him.

Which bought him to another topic he dwelled on often. His first love and, to be completely honest, his only love. The russet skinned wolf who plagued him day in, day out whether he liked it or not. He knew he didn't want to forget him; that would be an insult to memory. But it also hurt to know that the boy was on his mind constantly and that he himself had been the one to break their bond.

Jacob. He wouldn't say 'the love of his life' or something cliche' like that. To Edward, there were no words for how he felt for the boy. It was something that ran through his veins and made him feel hot, feel alive again. It embodied him completely and it was so utterly pure that Edward was scared that he was tainting it, even though he contributed half of the feeling. It amazed him fully, took over his mind and hazed his brain in a love-sick fog. The feeling was so euphoric that it always felt new, always felt over-whelming. Yes, the love he felt for Bella was there but nothing, nothing compared to his love for Jacob. It was complete and whole and right.

So, the question remains, why would he ruin all of that?

Because the fact is that Jacob didn't belong to him. They might have shared that deep connection, that practically tangible feeling but, in the end, Edward knew that Jacob wasn't meant for him. They fell in love, purely in love, but he wasn't the wolf's soul-mate. They weren't compatible. And it hurt Edward to think that.

Jacob hadn't imprinted on him.

At first, it didn't matter. The love they shared was so strong and amazing that it didn't matter that there was no imprint. They had each other and that's all that really mattered. But as time went on and the months went by, paranoia ate away at his brain saying, What if? It screamed it throughout the day, his mind flooded with the question. It became so powerful that it became hard for him to decipher other peoples thoughts.

What if? it taunted, snarling like a beast in his mind, What if he finds his imprint and leaves you? What if he falls in love with someone else? Realizes that you two together are immoral and leaves you behind? What will you have then, huh? Nothing. He'll steal what's left of your heart, boy. And you'll be broken with the world laughing at your foolishness.

Edward, of course, tried to reason with himself. That he and Jacob were solid and the wolf would never leave him. But in the end it failed. He broke it; he broke the boy and he broke himself. Of course, he couldn't voice his real reasons as to why he was leaving Jacob. If he did, he knew the wolf would follow him. Always following him. So he told him something that would pain the wolf and crack his own soul.

"Jacob," he had said, his voice cold and distant, "This can't work anymore."

Edward could still clearly see Jacobs beautiful face twist with emotion. Pain, anger and confusion flashed across his flawless face as he controlled his breathing. He naked chest sped up and down as the wolf breathed harder and tried to control his voice, "What do you mean?"

Edward nearly backed out, said it was a joke and he was sorry. He nearly did but the snarling beast in his head came back, "I don't love you anymore. This is finished."

And he could hear twin hearts breaking, and see it clearly on Jacob's face before he turned and left Jacob there by himself. It took all he had to keep walking and not look back. To run and repeat to himself, 'Its for the best. He'll move on, I'll move on. It's all for the best.'

It had been a lie though, his self mantra. He hadn't moved on, not really. He might have a smile on his face and his sweet Bella on his arm but he belonged to Jacob; whole heartedly, he belonged to the wolf who he had broken. So many times, he wanted to run through La push, see Jacob and beg for him to take him back. Say it was a mistake and that he would die a million times for a chance with the boy again.

But, he stayed. He accepted that life was like this now. That all he had now, was Bella and he appreciated that. Smiling sadly, he traced a cold finger down Bella's cheek and couldn't help but flinch when he thought, 'If only it were his cheek.'

Edward gripped his steering wheel tightly. Not overly-so, but there would be marks and impressions once he removed his hands. Currently, he was driving to Forks High School from Bella's house, Bella in the passenger seat talking animatedly. Edward could vaguely hear what she was saying but most of his thoughts were concentrated on Naruto and Jacob. The latter made him feel guilty, therefore, he decided not to talk, nodding every once in a while.

"Edward, are you okay?" Bella asked him lightly. He turned to face the girl and winced when he saw the concern swirling in her eyes, mixing with the love that she always held when she looked at him.

"I'm fine, Bella," he replied calmly, smiling sweetly. He took her hand in his and stroked it caringly, "Don't worry about me, love."

Bella blushed lightly but returned the smile, her fingers curling around Edwards marble-like hand, "I can't help it. It's what people in a relationship do. They worry about the others well being, even if the other is practically indestructible."

Edward chuckled and pulled his hand back, "Well, there really is no need for it."

Opening his door, Edward got out of his volvo and, before Bella even had a chance to open her door, Edward was there and helping her out. He knew it ticked her off, that she didn't need his chivilrous actions, but he couldn't help but do it. Smiling up at Edward, Bella kissed his cheek, "Thank you."

Winding his arm around her waist, Edward replied, "My pleasure," and lead her towards the entrance of the building. He could feel her shiver from his cold form every so often but, when he went to pull back, she'd follow his arm and body. Edward tried to push the thoughts of Jacob and Naruto from his brain and breathed in Bella's scent deeply. Although, normally, it would have a ravenous affect on him, it calmed him down and he looked down at Bella with a soft smile on his face.

Bella sighed with distaste as the pulled herself away from Edward, "Well, I guess its class time," she leant up and kissed his cheek, "I'll see you at lunch, yeah?"

"I'll be waiting," Edward replied with a smile, squeezing Bella's hand lightly before she turned and left with a wave. He couldn't help but chuckle as she knocked into a few people and nearly tripped over someone's foot. She wouldn't be Bella if she weren't adorably clumsy. Without Bella by his side to distract his thoughts, Edward knew he'd probably be broody through his classes until lunch. With a sigh, he turned and ventured to his first class, already not looking forward to the day.

Lunch didn't come as quickly as Edward would have liked it too. His classes before lunch were swimming with different things concerning those same two people and it put him in his signature brooding mood. He didn't even bother getting a tray of food for observational purposes and went straight to his table, where Emmett and Rosalie already sat.

"Brooding, Edward? You would of thought you'd be over that phase by now, really," Rosalie sneered at her brother, glaring at him heatedly.

"Rose," Emmett reprimanded lightly.

"It's okay, Emmet," Edward glared back at Rosalie but it lost its effect when he saw the hurt behind the general anger that she usually held. When he and Jacob had broken up, it seemed that Rosalie was the most affected by it. Although she had ben her usual 'bitchy' self, she held a soft spot for the shifter; always saving him from Alice's shoppng sprees or making food for him when he was around. She actually talked with him, without being callous and held a certain affection for the wolf. She blamed Edward when Jacob decided to stop seeing the Cullens in general and, when she held a grudge, she was amazing at it.

"Where's your pet?" She asked, venom in her voice, "Thought the human was attached to you. Idiotic girl," Rosalie turned her glare from Edward and looked at her nails snobbishly.

"Bella hasnt done anythin wrong," Edward voiced. He'd always known that Rosalie didn't like the girl, as she thought she was a cheap replacement for someone who couldn't possibly be replaced. Ashamedly, Edward had thought the same thing.

"Accept ruin everything," Rosalie countered, "And you know what? It's you who did the wrong! She's a fucking human Edward, she shouldn't know about us! With Jacob, it was okay-"

"Rose!" Emmett whispered harshly, trying to stop her before she said something she might regret later on.

"Don't talk about him," Edward seethed, seeing Bella walk into the cafeteria from the corner of his golden eyes.

"Why?" Rosalie hissed, "Can't handle hearing his name? Jacob? Well guess fucking what? He still exists! And because of your stupid, self-loathing, depressive reasons, you didn't only run him out of our lives, but Naruto too!"

Edward was sure he was about to jump across the table and rip her throat out, humans or no humans around, but a cool hand placed itself on his shoulder and instantly, calm flooded his body and the pure anger he felt dispersed.

"Calm yourself," he heard Jasper whisper, "There are people around and Bella's making her way over here."

Rosalie growled and left the table with a dramatic exit, Emmett smiling in apology and going after her.

Alice and Jasper sat down from across him as Bella took a seat next to him, worry in her eyes as she eyed the door Rosalie had just stomped her way out of, "Is something wrong with her?"

Edward forced a smile and turned to the brunette, grabbing her hand and using her light warmth to pacify himself, "There's always something wrong with her," he said casually, thankful for Jasper's presence, "It wouldn't be Rosalie if she weren't dramatic."

Bella giggled and nodded, turning to her food, "I guess. But she did look angrier than usual."

Bella contented herself to eating as the three vampires looked at each other with different expressions on their faces.

She didn't mean it, Edward, Alice told Edward through her thoughts, She's just been moody since Naruto's been back. Give her time.

Edward grunted and nodded, but the creases in his forehead showed that he was still thinking about what the blond had said. Her didn't enjoy her words; they left a nasty taste on his tongue but he couldn't help but feel that they were true. It just added more cause to brood for him, really.

"Oh," Bella dropped her utensils on her plastic tray, swallowing the food in her mouth before she looked over to Edward, "Mike, Angela and Jessica asked me if I wanted to go to the beach," she fidgeted with her hands in her lap, "I told them I'd go but, if you guys wanna come, that'd be cool."

Thinking it over in his head, Edward nodded, "It sounds nice, depending on the day, of course," he told her which made her smile widen, "Which beach?"

"Oh, um," Bella thought her previous conversation with her friends over in her head, "I think the one in La push."

Edward tensed but relaxed himself quickly. He could see Alice and Jaser throwing him looks but he ignored them. Alice quickly came into the conversation, "What day is it, Bella?"

"Saturday," the brunette girl replied.

"Oh, a shame really," the smallest vampire shook her head in mock disappointment, "The sun looks like it will come out so, it wouldn't be the best idea."

Bella's face fell lightly but she shook it off and smiled, "That's okay. Another time, okay? It'd be cool if you guys hung out with my other friends. Bond and stuff, ya'know?"

"Definitely," Edward smiled, but his brother and sister could see it was strained and fake, "Be safe," he said seriously.

"I'll be fine," Bella laughed, "Im not that clumsy."

Alice rolled her eyes in disbelief and Edward was glad that she had come to his rescue. He let the other three talk the most, contributing when he felt he needed to and wished for the school day to end as quickly as possible.

"I'm not sleepy," an obviously tired Bella mumbled, her eyes drooping and then snapping back open in an attempt to stay awake.

Edward chuckled from his position next to her, "Bella darling, go to sleep," he kissed her forehead and ran his fingers through her long hair, "I'll be here while you sleep."

Bella protested weakly, but turned over anyway, cuddling up to Edwards cold side and promptly falling asleep. Edward smiled down at her, his fingers still lightly running through her hair. He breathed in her scent and kissed her cheek. Her body shivered continuosly and Edward moved away from her. She whined lightly before turning over and hugging a pillow, falling back into her deep sleep.

Edward sighed, rubbing his temple. Although the night before he'd scolded himself for even thinking about it, his thoughts turned back to thinking that Bella could be someone else entirely and, it didn't seem that bad an idea. Not replacing her or leaving her...but just seeing him for even a moment. It was too easy; just cross the border, watch him for a second and then leave. Just to make sure he was safe and okay. In fact, as he dwelled over it, the better it sounded and the more excuses he gave himself to go.

Determined, Edward stood soundlessly, making his way to the window and jumping from it with an inaudible thud. His cell phone started going crazy in his jean pocket and, as he looked the caller ID, he found it to be Alice. Not wanting to upset his sister, he answered it silently as he started a slow pace into the surrounding forest, "Yes, Alice?"

"You have disappeared which means your either going to see him, or your dead. Seeing as you answered your phone, Im going to go with the first one."

"Alice," Edward sighed, stopping where he stood and looking at the moss covered ground, "I just...I need to see him. Just look."

"You sound like a stalker, Eddie," she said jokingly, "Don't let the others see you or we're all in trouble, alright?"

"Thankyou, Alice," Edward smiled and continued to his destanation, quickening his pace.

"Don't thank me yet. You have to take me shopping next." The girl quickly ended the conversation and Edward chuckled lightly, placing his phone back in his pocket and running full speed towards La push.

Avoiding the shifters who were on patrol was hard, but he managed to sneak by them. It was their keen sense of smell that held him off more than anything but, as the wind changed, he found his chance and slipped through the perimeter. He had forged the way to Jacob's house into his mind and it was something he'd never foget. When he saw the small, wooden house he smiled fondly and rounded it until he came to Jacobs window. He had peered into the minds of Paul and Jared-the shifters on patrol- and found that Jacob was indeed home.

Edward steadied himself, breathing despite having too, and looked inside the window. What he saw might his breath catch. The light from the moon surrounded the sleeping, russet skinned teen heavenly. He was bare chested, only white briefs giving him privacy, as he slept haphazardly on his too small bed. His now long hair framed his face beautifully, his long eyelashes resting on his flushed cheeks as he mouth hung slack, snoring rather loudly throughout his room. Edwards eyes roamed Jacob's body; along his broad shoulders, over his defined chest and chiseled abs and down his strong legs.

If he could of, Edward would have cried. His life was but a pane of glass away and he couldn't touch that magnificent, amazing body. He couldn't kiss his lips or touch his grown out hair. It hurt him but he stayed rooted to his spot, drinking in the amazing sight Jacob provided for him. The urge to stroke his cheek was almost overwhelming but he held his position strong, eyes turning black as he held off his burning passion.

The night continued on, stars alight and the moon shining bright but he didn't move. He watched Jacob toss and turn well into the night, even as it came to the early hours of the morning. And, as dawn approached and Jacob started to move and awake, Edward wrenched his eyes away from his ex-lover and left La Push, a cold draft being the only sign that he was there in the first place.

So, that was it. I hope you enjoyed it.

I really wanted to get some Edward perspective in there and I think it worked well.

Review, let me know what you think.

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