Hi sorry it's been so long since the last update, I have recently moved houses and had some issues getting the internet all set up so that I was able to upload again, but here is the next one.
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A Love of a Different Kind
Strategic Love
Bella's Point of View
This was so difficult, I wasn't so sure of myself anymore. I know that my plan is the best idea we have in order for us to have the best chance to escape, I didn't want to think of the amount of things I would have to do in order to join my family again, but I was sure that this was the only way we would have a chance to survive.
But now this was the hard part, sure as I was that my plan was the best bet for us to escape how was I supposed to convince Jasper of this? He was too worried about me, and I didn't want him to be thinking of the things that could go wrong, but I didn't know how I would convince him to let me go through with my plan, even though the rest of the family was behind me, I needed his support as well.
I chased him through the halls, wondering where he was going, he couldn't be going to far, surely, there wasn't many places that we were really 'allowed' to go. Of course the Volturi hadn't openly mentioned we weren't allowed to leave, though we all knew we were being watched and we would be stopped or hunted if we walked away.
I hated myself for getting into this situation and I hated myself even more knowing that my family had been bought into trouble once again because of me, I really was a danger magnet, even when I try to do what's best I can't seem to manage to keep out of trouble.
Finally Jasper stopped, marching straight backed and obviously angry into my room, that might be a good sign at least, he had chosen that he would at least be able to have this conversation with me, maybe I could convince him to change his mind.
I followed him in cautiously remembering the anger I had seen just a moment ago and wondering if he would at least be rational and hear me out, Jasper was all about strategy, his military training should shine through now and let him realise this was the best idea that we had, the only chance of us all escaping.
I looked at Jasper, sitting on my bed, the Cullen's all still more practiced in acting like humans then myself, even though I was in the public eye a little, they actually looked like humans where as I was still slightly awkward and uncomfortable when I was around my old kind.
"Jasper, please hear me out, I know you can understand that this is the best plan for our family to escape. I can't let them pay for my mistakes and they will if I don't get rid of Demetri, and unless I go alone, someone I love might be killed."
Jasper shook his head, I could see the hurt in his eyes and realised straight away that this wasn't going to be easy, he had missed me, lived without me never knowing what had happened to me for years, and now just as he had found me and his wildest dreams of being with me had finally come true, I was trying to convince him to let me go again.
Jasper glared at me and I looked away quickly remembering his ability to manipulate my emotions, and feel what I was feeling, that probably wasn't a good thing right now, I was about to get ripped into for what I was feeling then.
"Isabella Marie Swan, don't you ever feel like you are not worth this, that you don't deserve my love and that I am going to suddenly change my mind, as though that's even possibly, this is easier for me to explain then it was for Edward, you are one of us now and you understand the way our emotions work. Don't you think that now you can realise how attached I am to you? Forever?"
I nodded slowly still avoiding his piercing gaze until Jasper took my face gently in his hand and turned me to stare into his eyes, I nodded again this time with more conviction it was slowly, very slowly settling in that he does love me and want me, whether I felt as though I deserved it or not he had decided I did, and now I didn't get a choice anymore.
"Now, Miss Bella, I have decided what I am going to do. Your plan is a very good idea, strategically, however I can't allow the one I love to walk into the way of danger in that way. So this is what I am going to do."
I glared at Jasper, why couldn't he understand that my idea was the only way we could possibly survive, and have all of us escape. Of course it was going to be risky for me but there was nothing else that we could do.
Jasper feeling my frustration put a finger to my lips to silence me and I was forced to nod silently to let him know to continue, I suppose it wouldn't hurt to much to at least hear him out and see what he was thinking of, would it? It did.
"Bella, I am not leaving you, what I am going to do is tell Aro that I will offer my talents to his services, meaning that you will stay too, on the condition that he lets the rest of our family leave in peace, my talents will be useful to him when the Volturi go to war, and the added bonus of not losing you will definitely make him choose my way. Therefore our family escapes and nobody is harmed, and we stay together.
I stared at him in shock, how could he even suggest that we stay here? I didn't want to be here anymore this wasn't home for me, and it certainly wasn't home for him. Obviously it would ensure the others safety but how could he want to live the rest of his life with Aro as his boss, and Jane , Alec, Felix and Demetri as his 'brothers'?
"Jasper how could you possibly even suggest that? We stay here? You don't want to live with these guys, they manipulate you and use you for nothing but personal gain, I know you respect what they did throughout the Southern Wars, but that doesn't mean you want to be one of them, and what about me Jazz? I've lived this life, and I don't want to keep going now I have you guys back, I want to go back home and live like a family they way I know we can."
Jasper was already shaking his head and I was shocked to realise that he looked angry, I didn't understand at first but his next words hit me as though he had physically struck me, though I must admit, the physical blow would have hurt a lot less.
"Well Bella, you don't have a choice, because you're the reason we're all here, you're the reason that we are scheming ways to get out of here and still have our own lives, you're the reason that I may have to live here for the rest of my life just so that I can protect you and my family, so you don't get a choice, because you made yours along time ago when you came here in the first place."
Jasper's Point of View
I couldn't believe I had said all that to Bella, I wish she would understand what I am going through right now, though I could see it in her face and feel it in her emotions, all of a sudden her old insecurities set in as she wondered if I was only offering to stay in order to protect my family, always doubting herself.
I stepped closer to her, wanting to look at her and convince her it wouldn't be so bad to be here with me, though I couldn't be all sweet and tender now, I had to let the sting of my words take effect, she needed to realise that I was staying here so that my family could escape. I couldn't see any other options.
Bella looked away from me, stepping away she nodded silently and walked out of the room, I knew she would be returning soon, she wasn't sure of the plan I had and I knew she didn't agree with it, there would be more talking before anything was set in stone, Bella would try at least one more time to change my mind.
But how could I? I had finally found Bella again, convinced her of the love I had for her and was so overjoyed to find out that my feelings were shared by her, and now she was suggesting a plan of action that could take her back out of my arms forever? I couldn't except any plan like that.
I would wait for Bella to return and think of any other plans that I could, but for now I was sticking with mine, surely being with Bella at Volterra would be better than being anywhere without her, and knowing that I would never see her again because I let her walk into a fight alone.
I was still thinking of it when Bella returned, she was silent as she came and sat next to me, refusing to look at me, she had perfected her patience in the time we had been apart and it was many hours before I finally looked over to her and asked what she was thinking.
"The family disagree with you, they don't want to leave us behind, Emmett says it's like leaving another soldier in the war zone. Though Carlisle says that it's our choice, he said he knows the pain you would be in if you were to go with my plan and let me walk away and I was... unsuccessful."
I nodded silently, that was basically the responses I had expected of course the upset begging from Esme would come later, Rose would offer her advice quietly and otherwise pretend to be indifferent, and Edward and Alice would use there powers to make a decision on what they would like to do.
"Jasper, I want you to understand that you haven't seen me in years, you don't know the power that I have now, the training that I have received. I am as strong as Felix now, and I will have no trouble defeating Demetri he has never been able to get the better of me, not even once."
I shook my head, there could always be a mishap, Demetri could get back up before Bella destroyed him, and there was no way that Bella could fight more than one skilled fighter and win, no matter what kind of training she had been through since I had last seen her.
"Let me come with you, that's the only way you are going after Demetri is if I am by your side the whole time, I won't let you get hurt and I am going to need to know that I can protect you if anything goes wrong."
Bella shook her head the anger evident on her face, she could see a flaw in my plan obviously and she wasn't at all impressed with it.
"And if Demetri is tracking you? He will be following us to ensure we don't escape, I'm the only one Demetri can't follow."
"We'll have to take the chance, if he turns on you I'll be close enough to attack and protect you, then we will just have to escape on more of a time limit. It's your choice Bella, either you let me come with you to go after Demetri or we stay here and join the Volturi, but think carefully, this will kind of be a life sentence either way.