Quick think, I told myself. I thought to Christian, give me 24 hours.

Fine, but be sure or it will kill you more then anything, goodnight my sweet.

I sighed with relief. And reached my mind out to Stefan. Can you go please. I'd appreciate it greatly.

Stefan nodded and patted my hand left.

"Scar?"

"Yes Damon?"

"What happened? To you?" Damon asked looking deeply into my eyes.

"Christian can hurt me through my mind, his giving me 24 hours to decide."

"Decide what?"

"If wether I let him kill me, join him or fight him, his giving me a choice."

"What the hell Scar. Since when did you have to make a choice? Do you want to us, me so badly? Since when is there a choice?"

"Damon."

"Don't Damon me!" and suddenly Damon was out on the balcony from the room.

I brought my knees up to my chest and wrapped my arms tightly around them, and put my head onto my knees, hiding my face, letting tears slowly drip down my face. Damon didn't get with every time that Christian hurt me it weakened me. Tears went down my face in a rhythm, never stoping. Then there were arms around my waist and a head nuzzling my bear neck. I felt his mind wander into mine with soft gentle words.

I'm truly sorry Hun. I just don't want to lose you, I love you Scar.

I pulled up my teary face and kissed his forehead. I love you too Damon, I'm just so weak.

"I know darling, I've been trying to get that form my mind, and I've always known you've been unwell. I just never knew how much lately."

"I can't believe you would I think that I wanted to leave you."

"Would you think I wouldn't say it if it bothered me?"

"I'm sorry." I cuddled up against him and he wrapped his arms around me tightly.

"I don't want to lose you. Do you think that it would be less painful to let him control you, change you?"

"I would assume I wouldn't feel as bad as this. Why?"

"If it makes you better then this, I want you to change, even if it means losing you. You don't deserve this."

"Damon but yo-" he cut me off.

"I know Scar, I want you before you go, im not wasting a single moment with you Scar."

He leaned forward and kissed me, deeply. He nudged my mouth open and deepened the kiss even more, pushing me into the pillows and he moved on top of me, pressing against me. And in no time at all he was shirtless, his fine body pressed against mine shivered with delight. He pulled back the slightest and spoke as soft as silk.

"I love you Scar."

"I love you Damon."

And with that he continued to kiss me and, well, it's better you don't know.