In The Beginning

I was awakened by an ear-shattering scream. at first I was unaware that it was mine, but I was able to piece it together once I felt my eyes stinging, and my cheeks drenched with what remained of my fears caused by the nightmare I must have had that night. As I tried to recall what I had dreamed about, I realized I really didn't want to remember but it was too late. The contents of my dream flooded back to me.

I was all alone, he left me there eyes bleeding in the corner, and the person who was my whole world was taken away from me. You'd think it would be easy enough to get over. That is if it wasn't true. Thoughts of my boyfriend subconsciously filled my mind; Akito Hayama was all I ever thought about since he left.

I lay there staring at the ceiling. I was totally oblivious to everything. I hadn't even realized that I tore up my bed in my sleep. I slowly returned to reality, my senses started to rise from my pooling thoughts. My body felt numb, but it wasn't because I was still half asleep or even from me thrashing around in my sleep. My room was freezing; and the layer of cold sweat that covered me like a new layer of skin wasn't much help.

I didn't have to fight the urge to stay under my warm covers because they seemed to be in a heap on the floor next to my bed, so that made getting up easier. I swung my legs over and slid off my bed. I didn't bother to stretch, it's not like I was stiff from lying in the same spot all night. It felt like forever before I reached my window. As I opened my blinds rays of sunlight burned my eyes like brands. It took a while before my eyes adjusted to the change, but after they did they reviled an open window. I slammed it shut and tried to remember when I had opened it, but only thoughts of Hayama filled my memory. There was no room in my life for something as stupid as an open window when I had Akito to think about.

A smile grew on my face when I pictured his perfect face but faded just as fast when I remembered what he had said to me, he told me not to cry and that he said to me that he wasn't going to go, But he did go, he moved to LA with his dad and sister. He did come and visit, and I feel guilty for ruining my precious time with him for m-chan. The same smile as before returned when I remembered him saying he was coming back for high-school, which was starting soon....very soon actually now that I think about it starts in like 2 weeks. This smile stuck unlike my first.

I decided that I could get ready since there was nothing else to do. I realized that my new layer of skin wasn't very pleasant feeling, or smelling. So I decided to rid myself of it by having a shower. A few minutes in the shower and I felt loads better. This was all just to typical the one time I would be ready for school early and it's the weekend.

I walked back into my room to dry my hair. As I was drying it I heard the window facing my back, slide open. I froze in fear, and started trembling. I wanted to turn around and see who it was but I was too scared. I tried to build up my scream but I could tell it wouldn't work. For some reason my body didn't feel a need to scream, or maybe it knew it was no use and that it was too late. Just as I was thinking about how my body and mind were reacting so differently and without my control. A hand skimmed my arm, my heart skipped a beat. I could feel a dead empty space building in my chest come to life.