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Beta-ed by Leah the Lone Wolf Girl.

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JPOV

Remember when
We never needed each other
The best of friends
Like sister and brother
We understood
We'd never be
Alone

I'm don't even know why am I thinking of Leah. We have become closer and
closer. She is my second in command after all or my Beta as Bella called me
when we were in Sam's pack. And it's just that now that she is no longer under
Sam, she is different. I see in her now the old Leah. The girl
with the beautiful smile. The girl that every kid wanted and couldn't have
because of Sam. He was so lucky to have her. She was gorgeous. We used to
play together when we were little. Of course she came to my house to play
with my sisters, but when she was at my house I didn't care much playing
with Barbie ( as long as I was Ken) just to play with Leah. ( yes I had a
crush on her like every other boy in the Rez)

Those days are gone
Now I want you so much
The night is long
And I need your touch
Don't know what to say
Never meant to feel this way
Don't wanna be alone tonight

But after Sam left her she became bitter and turn into the wicked witch
bitter harpy Leah. I didn't understand it then but now that we had this
unusual friendship I can see that it was just a mask to hide all of her pain.
After all, her first and only love left her for her cousin and best friend. Not
only that she became the freak she wolf the only girl shape shifter and to top
it all her dad pass away. All of these things happened back to back. She
didn't have time to recover from one pain to get hit by the other. And then
with the mind link of the wolves she had to see Sam's mind. His love for
Emily. His guilt and pity for Leah. And I just realize that I can relate with
her. When I see Bella with her bloodsucker all I wanted was to turn around and
run away and Leah had to see what Sam did to her every day in his mind. His
Emily. I felt sad, not because of all that she went through, but the way the whole pack treated her. She was just hurting and she
didn't want to look weak so she put on the show of the "biggest
**". All I wanted back then was for her to disappear so she can stop
making us miserable and now I can't see myself going one day without my
beta. I can't see myself without Leah, My Leah.

What can I do to make you mine
Falling so hard, so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do
How did I fall in love with you

I keep thinking and thinking how to approach her to tell her how I feel. Its
very hard to block my thoughts when I'm in my wolf form. Because Even if
she feel something for me (and I think she does) the fear of me imprinting
some random girl will always be there. I can't put her through all that pain
again. She deserved better she deserves the world. But just the thought of her
with some other guy make my heart ache. Why is my life so complicated? The
first girl I fell in love with didn't love me enough to stay with me and now
that I feel this new a fresh love for Leah, the fear of hurting her is
keeping me away from her.

I hear your voice
And I start to tremble
Brings back the child
That I resemble
I cannot pretend
That we can still be friends
Don't wanna be alone tonight

I have tried to avoid her as much as I can when She phased to wolf I just
give her instructions and phased quickly to human form because I just can't
let her see my thoughts. It's so hard to avoid her cause her voice is so sweet.
And when she smiles its like the sun is shining just for me. I can see
us as kids playing in my backyard with Barbie and Ken. I know it's
cheesy but I can't help it. I wish I can hold her close in my arms. I wish I
could hold her all through the night.

I wanna say this right
And it has to be tonight
Just need you to know
I don't wanna live this lie
I don't wanna say goodbye
With you I wanna spend the rest of my life

I need to see her. I can't avoid these feelings any longer. I need to talk to
her. I need to kiss her. I need to hold her. I need my Leah. I know she feels
something. I need to be brave and let this fear go away. What's the worse
that can happen? Knowing Leah the worse will be for her to punch me scream
at me or even try to kill me (yeah that's my Leah). But what if she loves me
too? I really don't know what I am waiting for. She could be with me in my
arms tonight. I could be holding her and kissing those sweet, soft lips. I could be
caressing her face. This is it. I'm not going to let another day pass by. I
love her and she needs to know. She needs to know that I want to be with her forever.