I'm Sorry

I lay on
The cold, hard ground

Waiting to die.

I smile

Through the pain.

She is safe.

I wince

As I feel myself

Creating a pool of red around me

My blood drains out of me,

Even as my life.

And yet, I feel glad.

I feel rain,

Sprinkling down

On my face.

I realize

The raindrops are her tears.

She is crying for me.

I raise my hand

To cup

Her face.

So full of sadness

And sorrow.

I want to take away all her pain.

My heart

Flutters weakly

Within me.

I find the words

To comfort her.

"It's okay"

She laughs,

A heartbroken,

Bitter sound.

I mouth the words

"I'm sorry."

She doesn't see.

I hear my name,

Spoken from

Her beautiful lips.

My eyes widen

In shock at her next words.

"I love you"

I smile gently

And say

"Me too."

Her violet eyes close

In grief and regret.

I need to stop her pain.

I get up,

Hesitating for only a moment,

And kiss her

Ecstasy

Is the only word to describe this moment.

A dreamlike sensation washes over me.

I don't know

Whether it is fatigue

Or just contentment.

I am intoxicated

By her.

Is this what love is like?

I am weakening,

And as my grip loosens,

She lowers me onto my back.

She squeezes her eyes shut,

Trying to stop the tears.

Still, she mourns me.

Her small,

Fragile hand

Finds it's way to my chest.

It clenches

As it feels my heart slowing.

It feels nice.

As the dark

Slowly closes in

Around me,

All I see

Is her beautiful pale face.

The face of my white moon.