Hey all... I hope you enjoy this :D

at the moment it is in Dimitri's POV but from this next chapter it will be from Rose's but it all depends on you guys!

Here I am yet again its 3pm and I cant get to sleep. All the thoughts of the past few months keep running through my head. The night we found the Princess and rose, my first training session with rose, are first kiss, the lust charm, the shopping trip, Spokane , seeing her that broken all most killed me, the cabin. Oh god the cabin. Could it of only been 3 nights ago. The Striogi attack on the school and the rescues mission where I was nearly taken by them. The only thing that stop me was Roza screaming my name. I knew then I could never hear her scream like that again. So now here I am thinking about that and the offer Tasha gave me not so long ago. How could I let Roza feel this deeply for me. I know I feel just as worse. Roza is completely under my skin to the point where she is apart from my soul and my life. But could I really do this to her. Yes I know we talked about what we could do after graduation. Even that wouldn't be enough even if I become Christian's guardian, he will be with the Princess 24/7 which means so would me and Roza which also means if a Strigoi attacks them I will still put Roza before them. That's what finally made my mind up. The saying it is better to have loved and to lost then to never love at all comes to mind. I'm going to speak to Tasha and see if she still wants me as her guardian which I know she will.

Beep....Beep.....Beep

I rolled over groggily and looked at the time, grrr is 6pm I've only slept 2 hours if that and now I had to do something I truly wasn't looking forward too. I quickly got a shower to wash away the guilt that had been there since I made my mind up. I got dressed and sat at the end of my bed with my head in my hands trying to forget the reasons or the reason of what im about to do. I picked up the phone and press number 4. I had Tasha on speed dial since she was always a good friend to me and now I was giving her what she's wanted for along time, for me to be more then a friend. She picked up after two rings.

" Dimka!"

"Hey Tasha." Why does this women have to so excited when I phone her? Oh yeah in the famous words of Rosemary Hathaway, 'she's into me'

"What do I owe this pleasure?" oh yeah she's going to enjoy what im about to ask.

"Well I was just phoning to see if that offer is still open?" I heard a slight gasp I don't know if it was me or her

"Yes it is Dimka, it will always be open for you." great just what I wanted to hear.

"OK, I would like to take your offer, ifs that OK?"

"Of course it is, when can you get here?"

"well I need to go and speak with the headmistress and I'll be on the next flight."

"Great just phone me and let me know when the plane is due to land and I'll come and pick you up."

"OK Tasha. I'll speak to you later."

"Bye Dimka."

I slammed my phone shut and threw it at the wall.

I walked straight into Kirova office without even knocking.

"What the need in this Guardian Belikov?" She all but shouted at me making me flinch.

"I'm quitting and I'm leaving within the next 30 minutes so if you don't mind just sign the papers so I can go!" It must of shown in my face just how much I needed to get out of here before I broken down because I notice Kirova took a step back and her jaw looked like it was hitting the floor and the guardians in the room flinch due to the power in my voice.

"May I ask why you need to go right now and who are you planning on guarding?"

"I just need a change of scenery and I'll be guarding Miss Ozera. Now can I just have the papers please my plane leaves within 2 hours."

"OK Guardian Belikov. Its going to be a shame to see you go." she barely whispered as she signed this but the look in her eyes told me she knew the real reason why I was going and frankly I didn't want to ask her about it.

I took the papers, thanked her and ran to my rooms to collect my bag I packed last night. I walked down to the gates and got the keys to the schools Audi A4, Kirova said I could use to get to the airport, out of my pocket. Before I got into the car, I phoned Tasha to let her know what time my plane lands and took one last look at the building I was leaving my soulmate behind in. I prayed to god she wouldn't hate me for this and understood why I did it. As I got into the car and put the keys in, I felt a tear fall from my eyes. This was crunch time but I just started the car and drove off, thinking this is the best I could do for my Roza and the saying 'Its better to have loved and to lost then to have never loved at all' kept running though my head.

this is my 2nd Fanfic for VA :D

I dont know if im going to continue this or not it depends on the reviews! so press the little green button down there now!!

and i must admit this whole story is dedicated to an amazing person AlexRozaBelikov who actually had the idea for this story

and hopefully will be either majorly annoyed with me or jumping up and down about this... i hope its the latter =S