Title: Can't Turn Back

By: Myra

Status: Incomplete [1/?]

Summary: While he was analyzing the difference between his former love and his current one he couldn't help but realize that he missed her. Chair, Nate/OC, Dangina + Milo

Disclaimer: I own this laptop… And this plot. And some OCs... But I swear that's it! Also changing the set up to my stories.

Thank You's: Noirreigne because this story would suck :)

WARNINGS: Abortion and depression, heavy implication of Dangina, Serena bashing (sort of), Georgie defending Blair, Dan/Chuck friendship, Nate/Chuck enemies, at least 4 OC (Melanie Coarsen-Bass, Casey Abbot, Arthur 'Ari' Rose, and Edward 'Eddie' Charles Waldorf), baby!Milo is Dan's son. I don't how much of season 3 and season 4 that I will use be warned. Actually, it's mostly AU.

Can't Turn Back:

Chapter 1: Missing You

Chuck was ready, almost. All he had to do was say his vows and 'I do'. It wasn't difficult, so why did it feel wrong? She was perfect…sure she was no Blair Waldorf, but she was close enough. Thoughts of Blair made him question his decision again.

It had been 5 years, 6 months and 2 days since Blair disappeared, leaving only a note that she had to make a quick trip and she would return someday.

He straightens his tie and looks in the mirror. Melanie would make a perfect Mrs. Bass. He heard someone clear their throat. For a second he wanted to believe that it was Blair, but it wasn't.

"The ceremonies about to begin," he heard Eric say. Chuck didn't turn and continued to fix his perfect tie.

"Having second thoughts?" his younger brother asked and Chuck shook his head. His palms were sweating. He could do this. Melanie didn't deserve to be left at the alter. He took one his final glance in the mirror and followed his younger brother out.

After the 'I do's', came the reception. It was filled with Manhattan's best and finest. The young Bass had finally wed Melanie Coarsen. Melanie was from a prominent family in the Upper East Side and she was very much like Blair in every way. That was probably the reason he chose to marry her. The only real difference was her eyes. Blair had beautiful chocolate doe eyes and Melanie had striking blue ones.

While he was analyzing the difference between his former love and his current one he couldn't help but realize that he missed her.

'Why?' He questioned himself.

He excuses himself and makes his way to the bathroom. He thanks his lucky stars that no one is in there. He starts to pace up and down wondering what his next move would be. So he didn't happen to notice when someone came in and lock the door.

"How was the ceremony?" That voice made him stop dead in his tracks. Oh the fates were cruel to him. He was hallucinating, now he was hearing her voice.

"You know it's very rude not to answer someone's question," she deadpanned. He turned to face her. She had changed in the most subtle ways. It wasn't so much her appearance, but just there was something different about her.

"Why are you here?" he nearly spat out. It wasn't that he was angry that she was there right in front of him. He was angry at her absence.

She got closer to him; she was exactly a couple of inches away from him. He wanted to slam her against the wall and fuck her, but he couldn't do that he was married.

"I asked you first," she said tauntingly, "So tell me how was the ceremony? Was it wonderful? Did you enjoy it? Because from where I was standing you looked like you were dying to get out of there. "

"You were there?" he choked out. Why didn't she stop him from marrying Mel? This could have been prevented.

"You still haven't answered my question," she insisted. There was little space between them. Chuck took this opportunity and wrapped his hands around her small waist. After all this time it still felt right. She put her arms around him.

"It was torture," he said hoarsely, "Now answer mine."

"Which one?" she asked and played with his perfectly combed hair.

"Why are you here?" He had every right to know, but more importantly when did she get back.

She looked up and saw those tortured brown eyes that she was so familiar with. She missed those eyes. She had missed him. She had her reasons for being gone for so long, but when she heard about Chuck's wedding to Melanie Coarsen she dropped everything and came back to Manhattan.

"I wanted to see it with my own eyes that you had moved on," she answered. It was shameful for her to come back and demand to know why he did move on. She couldn't ask him that.

Chuck didn't comment on that. He had no idea what to do or how to act. How could he prove that he still loved her while still being married to Mel? He rested his forehead on hers and they stood there waiting for the moment to pass.

Blair looked at Chuck and kissed him. Their kiss deepened and they could no longer deny that they needed each other. They made love to each other for the final time.

Blair lay on top of him and slept soundlessly. Chuck's mind wandered off to life with Blair or the life that could have been. He stroked her hair and let her sleep. It would be awhile before anyone came looking for him. For now he wanted this feeling to last.

An hour more and Blair would be long gone and he would be left feeling hopeless. When he left the bathroom he was confronted by Melanie, Eric, and Lily. He gave them no real excuse except that he had to leave the room for 3 hours due to business.

They bought it and he was glad that it was done and over with. After the reception came the first night of their honeymoon. Chuck nearly had to pretend that he was remotely enjoying himself, which was depressing because Blair had tainted him.

The months that followed Melanie and his marriage, Chuck quickly realized that Melanie was no substitute for Blair. She was becoming a Stepford wife, she wanted everything to be prim and perfect. It was annoying. She want the best things money could buy and she wanted children, a boy and girl.

"I think that an addition to the family would be lovely, right Charles?" she asked him during dinner.

"Get a dog then," Chuck replied instead.

"No silly, I mean kids. I think we sure have 2 or maybe three," she talked on, "Come on Charles lets go procreate."

If Chuck thought she was crazy before, he knew now that she was mentally insane. He questioned her sanity now more than ever. All she spoke of was having children. The conversations would go something like this 'Charles we have to have a boy and a girl', 'Chuck if we have a boy, we're naming him after your father', or his favorite, 'Charles do you think I'll look pretty pregnant. Not everyone can pull it off, you know'.

He let his mind wonder during times like these. He thought of Blair and Bass Industries, but mostly Blair. If only she would call or at least let him know she was ok.

But not a single phone call. Not one.

Months turn into 2 years and Melanie was finally pregnant. Chuck was losing his mind with all her hormones. He hired two maids to shut her up. She didn't annoy him so much and he was thankful for that.

He buries himself in paper work to avoid going home. It worked, he is so busy he didn't even notice when Dan came to visit.

"Chuck?" Dan looks over at his friend. Since his fall out with Nate so many years back, Chuck resorted to Dan Humphrey as a replacement.

Chuck didn't glance up and continued to work. Dan took a seat and waited for Chuck to acknowledge him.

"What is it Humphrey? Is Whore-ginia not satisfying you?" Chuck joked. He knew about Dan and Georgie dating and was completely fine with it. Serena freaked out, but since she travelled so much no one else minded.

"Actually Georginia and I have set a date." This made Chuck stop working. He was waiting for Dan to say he was bluffing, but his friend looked completely serious.

Dan must have noticed the baffled look in Chuck's eyes and added, "You know how I feel about Georgie."

"I didn't know she had any feelings," Chuck muttered.

"Anyways, there's actually another reason I came today," Dan shrugged off the insult, "It's about Blair."

Wait what does he know about Blair? Did he know where Blair was? So many things were running through his head.

He tried to keep a neutral expression, "What about Blair?'

Dan rolled his eyes, "Please I saw her at your wedding and I saw her going into the bathroom with you. I may not say things but I do see things. But this is getting off topic."

"You saw it and didn't say anything?" Chuck hissed.

"Chuck focus," Dan tried to get him to concentrate on the topic at hand.

"Focus? How can I focus when you knew that Blair was there while Melanie and I said our vows to each other? She saw it all," Chuck ranted.

"Chuck!" Dan snapped, "Listen, Blair called me."

"Why would she call you," he said in disgust.

"To relay a message," Dan said helplessly.

"And what is that," Chuck bit back.

"Don't shot the messenger, she said if you want to know the truth," Dan said lightly. He was actually afraid of losing Chuck as friend; it was probably due to the fact that he had so few real friends.

"The truth?" Chuck asked carefully.

"On why she left," Dan continued, "here's all the information." Dan took out a piece of paper and put it on Chuck's desk. Chuck reached over and glanced at the piece of paper.

Palace Hotel Suite # 1812 9 pm

"Look Chuck," Dan started and Chuck reread the piece of paper over and over again, "I'm sorry I didn't tell you. I just figure it wasn't my business."

"Its fine, Humphrey," he shrugged it. Dan was a pretty decent friend and he was technically family.

"I have to head back to the office so I'll see you later," Dan got up and left.

Chuck had to see her. It was the only way to find out why she abandoned him. He canceled all his meetings and silenced his phone. Chuck walked out of his office and headed for the Palace. The Palace held so many memories, so many heartaches.

He realized that it was only 3 and it way too early for him to be there, but he walks up to his old suite and hadn't realized how much he missed it. When he opens the door, he hears the TV on.

He sees a little boy on the couch. He had curly brown locks, hazel brown eyes, and a dimple on his right cheek. Chuck was about to comment, when Blair came in. She didn't look shocked to see him. She sat down next to the little boy and he curled up next to her.

"Hi Chuck," she greeted him. The little boy looked up and saw him then continued to watch the TV.

"Blair what going on?" Chuck said still standing. Blair got up and headed toward the bed, and sat down.

"There's kind of a few things you should know," she began.

"Are you married?" he hissed. Blair looked taken startled, it seemed like the obvious answer but she shook her head, "Than what? Who is that kid?"

"Aaron's," she said simply.

"Who the hell is Aaron?" he barked.

Blair furrowed, but then remembered everyone always forgot she had a stepbrother.

"My stepbrother, that's my nephew Ari," Blair explained further, "I'm taking care of him, since Cyrus and Eleanor have long since retired they handed me sole custody of Ari Rose."

"That's why you left?"

"Partly, but mostly because of Aaron's lifelong work in London, Paris, and Prague."

"So they left you responsible for all the shit he left behind?" Something wasn't adding up, "Blair what aren't you telling me?"

"I think you better sit for this one."

TBC...