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Chapter One: Lost

"You don't want me?"

"No"

The words played over and over in my mind as I lay on the forest floor and tried to convince myself that this is a nightmare and I will wake up and be in Edward's arms.

Except this isn't nightmare I'm awake and Edward isn't here, he left and he isn't coming back.

I try to hold in the tears as I attempt to make sense of what just happened and what I am going to do now.

Edward said he didn't love me but that doesn't make sense because he has told me he loves me over and over.

I always that it was strange that someone as perfect as Edward could love someone like me but he always told me that I didn't see myself clearly and that he was the one who didn't deserve me.

So what made him change his mind?

After thinking it through for a minute I realized that his brother attacking me is what made him change his mind.

As I was thinking all this through something Edward said to me in one of our first conversations popped into my head.

Edward had said something about him caring more about me than I did about him because he would be able to walk away to keep me safe.

A spark of hope ignited in as I thought about what that could mean.

If I was right this meant that Edward left not because he didn't love but because he was trying to keep me safe.

The instant this thought popped into my head I knew it was true because I knew Edward do anything he had to, to keep me safe and that included leaving me.

I guess when Edward came up with this plan he forgot I am a danger magnet and incapable of staying safe without him there to save me.

The second I realized there was a chance that Edward may still love me the hole that had formed in my chest minutes early started to heal and I was able to stand.

I started to walk through the forest on shaky legs and realized I didn't really know where I was.

When Edward ran away I had tried to run after him and when I realized I couldn't catch him I had collapsed I guess what I didn't realize was I had gotten myself lost.

I kept walking which was probably a dumb thing to do because I was most likely getting myself more lost then I already was.

As I wandered around the woods I tried to think about what I was going to do when once I was free from my tree prison.

I didn't have to think long to come up with a plan; I was going to do whatever I had to, to find Edward.

I kept walking and to my relief the trees started to thin out and the light grew brighter.

When I finally made it out of the trees I realized I was not where I wanted to be at all, I wasn't by my house I was by the highway.

I most definitely didn't want to go back in the wood so I started to walk on the side of the highway in the direction of my house.

I kept my head down while I walked so no one would recognize me because the last thing I needed was for someone to tell Charlie they saw me walking on the side of the highway.

After being whistled at by a guy in a passing car and splashed with water from a car driving through a puddle I decided that walking on the side of the highway was not a good idea.

Thank god a minute later I was able to turn onto a side street and continue on my way.

As I neared my house I prayed Charlie wouldn't be home because I would never be able to leave the house if he was and i would have to explain why I was all wet and muddy.

Luck was on my side because when I got home the only thing in the driveway was my truck so I knew Charlie was still at work.

I knew I didn't have much time so I ran in the house and up to my room as fast as I could without tripping.

I changed into some dry clothes and threw my hair into a pony tail before getting to work.

I found my duffle bag in the closet and shivered a little when I thought about the last I had had to pack this bag.

I knew I had no time to dwell on the past so I quickly ran into my room and threw as many clothes as I could and my bathroom bag into the duffle bag.

As I was running around my room I noticed that the picture with Edward in them, my plane tickets and my CD were missing and I knew Edward must have taken.

I guess he was really trying to make it seem as if he never existed.

Once my duffle bag was packed I dropped on floor and went in search of my purse which I quickly found and filled with my wallet, my hidden stash of cash, and my passport just to be safe.

When I went to pick up my duffle bag I noticed one of my floorboards had moved a little.

I bent down moved my duffle bag out of the way and pried the floorboard out of the floor.

I gasped when I found all the stuff I thought Edward had taken and my heart began to beat faster when I realized he didn't want me to forget him.

I quickly threw the stuff from under the floor board into my duffle bag as well before leaving my room.

I ran down to the kitchen to get my car keys when I realized I should probably leave a note for Charlie.

I got the pad of paper and pencil we keep by the phone and wrote:

Dad,

Edward left and I must go find him, I don't know where he is so I don't know how long I will be gone.

I don't want you to worry about me; you taught me how to take care of myself so I will be fine.

Don't hate me for doing this but I cannot live my life without Edward so this is the only choice I have.

Please don't try to look for me or try to stop me I promise I will call you as soon as I can.

Bella

I left the note on the counter and ran out the door and into my truck before Charlie came home and tried to stop me.

I knew where I was headed first and I just hopped then when I got there I would find some clue that would lead me to Edward.

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