A/N: Hi there folks!
You know, I've been itching to make a story with this summary for a long time. And then a VERY dear, long term reader of mine gave me a request – and I couldn't hold myself back any longer. (chuckles) So here's the result!
WARNINGS: YAOI, cheating, adultish themes, suggestive themes, darkness, weirdness… (grins) What else could you expect from my story?
DISCLAIMER: Me own? (laughs hysterically) Well, pigs and cows aren't flying yet, so…
THEME SONG OF THIS ONE: 'Your love is a lie' by Simple Plan. You can find the lyrics from underneath the chapter.
Awkay, because the clock keeps ticking and I SHOULD be asleep already… Let's ROCK – I truly hope you'll enjoy the ride! (gulps thickly)
Cracking Frames
VERSE ONE: Your Love Is a Lie
If someone had stepped into the ominously dark and quiet house that night, they might've thought that the apartment had been hammered by a hurricane.
The devastation was systematic and affective, and it proceeded from the kitchen to toilet and ended up through the living room to the bedroom. Dishes, gifts, photographs and memories – things that'd not too long ago meant the world for some reason – were now shattered and forgotten all over the floors.
In the middle of the disaster area a very young and pale man had slumped to the floor, usually neat raven locks now nothing but a mess and his whole frame trembling under a storm of emotions. He wasn't crying – his pride would've never allowed him such when he knew that he wouldn't be alone for long – but his cheeks were tinged red and his eyes stung hellishly.
It was utterly silent and still until the apartment's door opened with a screech neither one of the inhabitants had bothered to fix. Steps paused as the arrival took in the sight of the devastation, then continued cautiously.
A blond young man stood by the living room's doorway, blue eyes wide and filled with several emotions. "Sasuke? What…?" The rest became wiped away when their gazes met.
Electricity and a storm of unvoiced words traveled through breathtakingly tense silence.
In the end the raven just couldn't take the silence any longer. His voice was a dangerous snarl as he spoke, filled with so much despair and frustration that he was sure it'd suffocate him. "Did you honestly think I'd never find out – that you could play me a fucking fool forever?"
When Naruto appeared between shocked, guilty, horrified and pained, he roughly grabbed the answering machine that'd landed nearby and played the most recent message.
If possible, the voice that soon filled the house made his wrath escalate.
"It's already ten past nine – where are you? I miss you."
The silence that lingered after the message ended was so heavy that they both felt like suffocating and being crushed.
Of course they knew full well why Naruto had been late.
Ten to nine they'd been having sex in the bathroom, with steaming hot water washing over them and wiping away the filth the raven hadn't even known existed. (Sex was the one thing that'd always worked between them.) Now, the Uchiha couldn't help wondering if Naruto had been glancing towards the clock all the time, exasperated when seeing how precious minutes slipped by.
Sasuke was so nauseous and filled with wrath that he could barely speak, so his voice was nothing but a hiss. "You forgot to erase that message along with the rest of them." Sasuke's eyes narrowed at his partner's expression, and his nose wrinkled when the foreign scent slapped him across the face, making him feel sick to his stomach. "You should've at least washed away that stench before having the nerve to come home."
Somewhere deep inside, in a place he would've never admitted existing, Sasuke wished – almost prayed – that the blond would deny everything, tell him that he was an idiot and wrong. But those desperate wishes were never granted.
For Naruto took one step backwards, as though his very presence had burned, then approached two steps. He wasn't sure if the clearly visible almost spilling tears infuriated him even further or pleased him. "Sasuke…" The blond swallowed thickly. "It… It was never supposed to go this way."
He snorted bitterly, barely managing to believe that he'd heard right. "Do you honestly think that changes anything – that I give a damn?" He shook his head, his eyes blurring all of a sudden, and bounced up from the floor far faster than his head would've liked. "You're ever more of a moron than I thought."
He had to get away – before the stench on Naruto would suffocate him, before he'd d something he'd regret, before there'd be even more damage.
In some other situation he might've found it amusing.
Less than an hour ago there'd been a million questions in his mind.
(How long? Where? Why? What the hell happened to the promises they'd made? What happened to the two of them? From where had the silence come into their relationship?)
But now… His mind was empty, blank, and also much too full. He didn't want to know, couldn't stand even the idea of listening to the answers.
He just wanted to get out – as fast and far as possible. And so he took the small bag he'd packed up hastily and prepared himself for walking away. But Naruto, of course, couldn't make leaving that easy. For before he ever made it out a hand grabbed his wrist with a desperate force.
He pulled his hand away sharply, fearing that anything slower would give him the chance to act on his desire and punch the blond. "Don't", he hissed like a wounded animal that'd been hurt beyond repair.
Naruto swallowed thickly, unshed tears shining in blue eyes. "Don't do this", the blond pleaded in a soft tone that'd once upon a time been enough to make him do almost anything. "Please."
In some bitter way, it was almost amusing. Even now, Naruto thought this was all about him – that this was all in his hands?
He snorted, because at the moment that was all he could do, then moved. Before either one of them realized what was happening he'd made his way past Naruto, almost all the way out of the life they'd just shared.
Once again Naruto's voice tried to reach out for him. "I… I'm sorry, 'k? You have no idea how sorry." There was a thick gulp. "Does that change anything, at all?"
He trembled violently while his fists balled, and he could barely control the turmoil of rage and hurt that stormed dangerously inside him. His eyes burned, and he fought with his all not to recognize the warmth on his cheeks. "Leave me the fuck alone already."
Something about those words obviously struck Naruto hard, for he could actually hear just how stiff and still the boy became. He grabbed on his chance and took the final steps towards the apartment's door, where he paused.
His eyes narrowed, his ears and mind never registering Naruto's words. "Sasuke, please…!"
It was time to stop pretending. It was time to stop walking towards a slow, painful doom. He wasn't about to let another piece of him get destroyed.
The door was easier to open than he'd ever thought – walking through it wasn't.
This place… was his home – had been for a long time. He'd been loved and he'd loved, and he'd been so damn sure he'd finally found a place he'd never leave.
He grit his teeth so hard that it hurt.
He'd been an idiot. And he wasn't about to repeat that mistake ever again.
"You… You can punch me, okay?" Naruto was obviously crying. "You can do anything. Just… Just don't leave, please. Beat me up, but don't leave me."
His eyes sharpened significantly. He realized that he couldn't even look towards the blond anymore. "I won't punch you", he stated in a dangerous tone. "Because I wouldn't be able to leave it there."
There was a loud sob that, despite all, wrenched him. "I love you."
"No, you obviously don't." He felt like snorting, but the sound that came instead was something choked and incoherent. "Oh yeah, and Naruto? Happy anniversary." And with those words as the final seal, he walked through the door and closed it eerily silently. For the first time in years the door didn't screech.
After the door closed, it took Naruto several moments to realize what was going on. And when he did, the gravity of things struck all strength from him. He fell to the floor with a loud thud, gasping loudly and his head spinning so that he could barely sit upright.
With a mind of its own, his head turned and he saw something that made his chest clench painfully.
Shattered not all that far away, was his favorite picture of him and Sasuke sleeping in each other's arms about five years earlier. Kiba had taken it and showed it mercilessly to everyone, and as from that day everyone had considered him and Sasuke the perfect pair.
That was what it took for him to lose all control over his emotions. Tears filled his eyes and rolled in rivers, blinding him. His chest had never hurt the way it did then, and quite soon he realized that that he could barely breathe.
"I'm sorry", he whimpered to the deaf walls, his head buried into his arms and tears running in a constant river. "I'm so sorry."
Nothing but silence answered him.
TBC, OR PERHAPS NOT?
A/N: So… (gulps) How did that sound like for a startout – is this something I should push forth, or trashcan material?
And, in case you're sliding to the direction that this should be continued… A POLL: Should this be AU or canon? You decide – this can still swing either way. (grins)
PLEASE, do let me know your thoughts – it'd mean a lot especially now that this is only just the possible first chapter! (gives puppy-dog eyes) Pretty please?
Until next time, I hope – be it with this story or whatever! Thank you so much for reading this!
Take care!
Simple Plan
"Your Love Is A Lie"
I fall asleep by the telephone
It's 2 O'clock and I'm waiting up alone
Tell me where have you been?
I found a note with another name
You blow a kiss, but it just don't feel the same
Cause I can feel that you're gone
I can't bite my tongue forever
While you try to play it cool
You can hide behind your stories
But don't take me for a fool
You can tell me that there's nobody else
(But I feel it)
You can tell me that you're home by yourself
(But I see it)
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want
But I know
Your love is just a lie
(Lie)
It's nothing but a lie
(Lie)
You look so innocent
But the guilt in your voice gives you away
Yeah you know what I mean
How does it feel when you kiss when you know that i trust you
And do you think about me when he fucks you?
Could you be more obscene?
So dont try to say you're sorry
Or try to make it right
Don't waste your breath because it's too late, it's too late.
You can tell me that there's nobody else
(But I feel it)
You can tell me that you're home by yourself
(But I see it)
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want
But I know, I know,
Your love is just a lie
(Lie)
It's nothing but a lie
(Lie)
You're nothing but a lie
You can tell me that there's nobody else
(But I feel it)
You can tell me that you're home by yourself
(But I see it)
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want
But I know, I know
Your love is just a lie
(Lie
I know you're nothing but a lie
(Lie)
Lie
(Lie)
Lie
(Lie)
Lie
Your love is just a lie