Hi Guys, this is my new story. I'm afraid that The Icy Winds might not be continuing, I seem to have hit a bit of a wall. My current plotline is a bit of a paradox, but once I get that sorted out in my head I might well carry on writing it. Sorry to all those who were waiting so patiently for a new chapter!

Meanwhile I have been working on this, so enjoy! XD

The chapter titles are all the names of songs that I was listening to while I wrote this, so very loosely its a songfic. This chapter is based on Over and Over by Three Days Grace

Chapter 1: Over and Over

Kagome sat at her desk, chin in hand. Despite the pile of work mounting on her desk, she couldn't bring herself to stop staring out of the window. Silent tears made steady tracks down her face. It had happened again. He had pushed her away again. Even though he had promised this time would be different, in the end she was still crying.

"Kagome?" a quiet voice said from behind her.

Kagome jumped, her elbow slipped and the mountain of work flew off her desk. Quickly wiping her face with her sleeve, she turned to find Kouga, her supervisor, looking at her with concerned eyes. He kneeled to pick them up, never taking his eyes off hers.

"You ok?" he asked.

She simply nodded, not trusting her voice not to betray her. She even tried for a weak smile that he didn't believe for an instant but, respecting her need for privacy, didn't call her on. Quickly piling her work back on her desk, he gently said

"Can I have this done by five please Kagome?"

At her nod, he quickly moved away, leaving her to her brooding. Kagome went back to staring out of the window but refused to let the tears well up again. After all, her crying at work was nothing new. In fact it was almost a regular occurrence. It wasn't that Kagome was an overemotional person; she was almost the opposite. It was just that her romantic choices were never exactly good for her. Over and over she made a fool of herself about this one guy. And he didn't even realize how much he hurt her every time he pushed her away. But even so, each time he opened his arms she came running.

Sighing, she pulled her eyes away from the window and onto her computer screen. She had made a promise to herself not to do this again. So he was gone. So what? She was an independent, modern young woman who didn't need a man to make her feel complete…….at least that was what she kept telling herself.

In reality since he had walked out yesterday morning she had been feeling like part of her was missing, like she was slowly being split in two. She was just about to sink into another round of self pity when a mug of hot chocolate was set down in front of her. She turned to see her best friend, Sango, who also held a huge bar of Galaxy and another mug of hot chocolate. Sango smiled before dragging up a chair and flopping into it.

"Ok," she said, unwrapping the chocolate "Spill."

Kagome couldn't help but smile in return. Something about Sango always put her in a better mood. They had been friends since nursery school, stuck by each other through the tortures of adolescence, roomed together at university and had even been flat mates until Kagome had moved out to live with her boyfriend. And though it all they had always watched each others backs. Sango had never approved of Kagome's boyfriend, not least for the way he casually left her for his ex.

"Inuyasha's gone again." Kagome said glumly, snapping off a chunk of chocolate.

Sango put her arm around her.

"Kagome, I don't mean to be a bitch but it's hardly unexpected. You knew at the beginning that he had never got over Kikyou. And you knew after the first time he left that it was going to keep happening. He was never yours, Kagome, and you could wait for him forever, but nothing will change that."

Kagome nodded without saying anything. She knew all of this, had known it for a long time, but it still hurt to hear it said out loud. She didn't want to believe it, didn't want to accept that she had wasted the last three years of her life.

"What if he comes back, Sango? What if next time he stays?"

Sango's face fell. The hope in Kagome's eyes broke her heart. Each time Inuyasha left she had to watch her best friend shatter, over and over again.

"Honey," Sango said gently, "If you truly believe that then I can't help you. But think about this; are you really willing to live your life based on a 'what if'?"

With that Sango got up and put her chair away.

"Just think about it ok?"

Kagome mustered a weak smile for her friend and then watched her walk to her own desk on the other side of the office. Sango was right; deep in her heart Kagome accepted that. And she knew that if she never moved on she would spend the rest of her life waiting for a man that couldn't care less about her. Was she willing to live her life based on a 'what if'? Deciding that she wasn't, she knew what she had to do. Getting up she marched over to Sango's desk.

"Can I move back in with you?"

The look of surprise and pleasure that flooded her friends face almost made it worth it.