Not Enough

~With this knife
I'll cut out the part of me
The part that cares for you
With this knife
I'll cut out the heart of me
The heart that cares for you~

I sat alone in the one bedroom apartment my girlfriend and I shared. Well I wasn't really alone, my six week old Siberian Husky is laying under the window sill, just below where I sat. He is white and black, the white fur mostly just on his stomach and parts of his face, including the inside of his ears, while the black covered his back and most of his head. He was the one that kept me company when my girlfriend was out. She wasn't home, not that she ever was anyway. Her friends and co-workers see more of her than I do.

I sighed as I strummed a melancholy tune on my acoustic guitar. I always wondered why I was still here, when I met Karin, I thought I would be happy. But I'm more miserable now than I have ever been. Why? We never spend time together, she's always out partying with her friends. I think she may even be cheating on me. And what a surprise, I'm still here.

I was currently seated on the window sill in the living room area. The glass frame was open as the wind blew through my raven-black hair that had a dark red on the tips, my eyes shared the same color as my raven hair and my mom once told me that she thought my eyes reflected mystery and wisdom. I guess its true, I am indeed a mystery, and I guess I was fairly smart but I don't like to brag. I didn't get good grades in school, but they were good enough to pass and get me to graduate. I had a rebellious streak when I was young...shit...I still have it.

Everything I wear is black, I'm even wearing a pair of black combat boots, as well as chains that hung from my pants. They are crossed like an 'X' and went through my belt loop in the back. A few tattoos were etched into the skin of my arms. I was surprised when they were pretty cheap to get. One that was on my right forearm was one of a snake, it was done around my arm making it seem like the snake was coiled around my limb. Its fangs protruded from its mouth as blood dripped from the white enamel. The other one on my left arm above my elbow was a grim reaper, he held the scythe as if he would cut your head off with it.

Karin was pissed when I got my second tattoo, she had been fine with the one of the snake, since it was the only reptile she liked, that of course was the only thing we had in common, she didn't like my pup, not really any common place there, though I guess its understandable, Fang doesn't like her either.

But anyway the day I got the grim reaper she just yelled at me, and that alone started a fight which ended up with me having to apologize for something that wasn't my fault. Another sigh escaped my lips, pierced lips I might add, as I strummed a whole new tune on my guitar, I loved music, it was the only thing that kept me sane, besides Fang that is. He was like my best friend. He perked up when he heard the tune on my guitar and just stared at me.

As I was saying before, I'm home alone. Not exactly how I wanted to spend my Saturday night, but at least its peaceful here. That is until Karin comes back, I'm really starting to rethink staying with her, sure she was, well I don't know, nice at first but now she is ignorant and selfish. I looked up to the sky as I saw jet black clouds swallowing the blue ocean above. Great it was going to rain. Oh well I enjoy rain so its fine with me.

The front door opening startled both Fang and I, but I soon relaxed when Karin came through the door, she was home earlier than usual. Her red hair was styled in a way most girls would be jealous of. Her small shorts showed off her legs as well as her thighs, the shirt she wore would definitely have guys thinking perverted thoughts. Not me though, I found it rather disgusting. She looked to me and smiled slightly before walking to our room. It was all silent until she spoke up and began to talk from the other room.

"Sasuke, I just came back to get my jacket and put my boots on."

She came back out of the room and I had to resist the urge to yell at her, though Fang didn't show as much restraint as I did, since he started growling at her. She only came back to get her jacket and boots, she didn't care how I felt, or that I was here alone. I glared at her before standing to my feet and setting my guitar down by the wall. I walked up to her as the chains on my pants made small noises from beating against each other.

"Why do you always do this?"

"Do what?"

"Leave me here while you go out and party. Your friends and co-workers seem to get more attention from you than I do."

"Excuse me, don't even start with me Sasuke, I will do whatever the hell I want, you have no say so stop trying to treat me like a little kid. I have to go, I'll see you later.

As she walked away, I whispered, "...No you won't."

"What?"

"Nothing."

I didn't say anything else, I've decided, I'm getting out of here. I'm not going to be treated like shit by some slut who doesn't know what she has until she loses it. I don't know if I did truly love her, maybe I was just afraid of being lonely. My parents would take me in until I found a place of my own. But this is it. Just then I heard a knock on the door, "Its open." I said as I started to gather my stuff, I thought it was just Karin again, but then again she wouldn't have knocked.

The door opened as my friend Juugo walked through and into the apartment. His orange hair was spiked, and he wore a black shirt with white pants. He spotted me packing my belongings in duffel bags and small boxes and just stared with a surprised look, I figured he probably thought I was crazy. But I managed a shrug before continuing with what I was doing. It wasn't long until he decided to speak up.

"Sasuke, may I ask what you are doing?"

"...Leaving."

"Karin again?"

"I'm tired of her using me as a doormat, she only spends time with me when someone upsets her. She just uses me and then throws me aside."

"Where will you go?"

"I don't know yet, but most likely back home with my parents until I can find a place of my own. If not, I'll go stay with my brother."

"Well I was planning to move out that way, I received a job offer so I'm taking it." He paused and knelt down when Fang approached him and began petting him. "...if you haven't found somewhere to stay, don't hesitate to call, you can stay with me there until you get back on your feet."

"Thanks Juugo. I appreciate it."

"No problem, I was coming over here to ask if you wanted to help me get some parts for my car but now I should ask if you would like some help packing."

"Yeah that would be great."

We worked at the packing all night, and Karin still wasn't back yet, no shock there. But frankly, I really don't care, she had the chance to be by my side, and now she was going to lose me. Juugo and I picked up my items and boxes and made our way out to my car. My favorite car, that I fixed up myself, a 1986 Chevy Camaro. It was a slick black that had a white strip from the tail all the way to the hood, stopping before it reached the front bumper.

I placed my stuff inside the trunk as Juugo put some on the passenger side floorboard. Fang apparently knew I was leaving so he hopped into the passenger seat and sat there with his tongue hanging out and his tail wagging happily. I only smirked at him before giving him a pat on the head and shutting the passenger side door. I had all of my things ready to go, and I soon bid my goodbye to my friend and watched as he drove off in his own car.

I told him to stay in touch, and maybe I'd go visit him sometime, but right now I had to get away. I had at least a four hour drive ahead of me, so I pulled out my phone called my employer and told him I had to quit. I gave him a new address, so he could send my final pay check there. After that call I dialed my mothers cell. I had to let her know I was coming, I didn't want to just show up unannounced. I was glad when she said it was fine with her and my father, now I just had to make it there.

After hanging up from my conversation, I pulled out my keys and started the car, the engine growled lively as I shifted it into gear. Pulling away, I looked back through the review mirror, no regrets, just the freedom I wanted as the wind from my rolled down window blew through my hair. I was actually glad to be out of there, though in a way, it still hurt, it hurt because she didn't care about how I felt, my feelings for her weren't fake, they were real, but again I have no idea why I even held romantic feelings for her.

I shook my head and flipped on the windshield wipers when I noticed that it started to rain. It isn't heavy rain, but just a light sprinkle, trust me if it were raining hard I would be rolling up my window right now. I continued with my driving before I realized I needed to stop for gasoline. Great. I sighed and pulled off at the next exit.

Filling up the car wasn't that all expensive, but it still cost a lot, these damn oil companies just like to milk us dry of our money but I guess that's just how life is. The gas tank was on the passenger side so I was being stared at by two blue puppy dog eyes the entire time. Not that I minded, Fang was really the only one that cheered me up, ever since I got him, he made me feel happier, even if it was just a little.

I finished filling up my car and received my receipt. I slipped back into the drivers seat and my thoughts briefly drifted back to Karin and what she would think once she got home and read the note I left her. I wasn't at all nice with my words either, it was more near an aggressive letter than a polite one. I sighed again and started the engine before setting off on the long drive.

It was about forty-minutes until I pulled off to the side of the rode to let Fang do his business. I also grabbed him some food from the small bag of soft puppy chow on the floor board along with some water I poured from a water bottle I stowed away for him, into his water bowl, which he drank up fully.

He looked at me when he finished and wagged his tail, the bone-shaped tag on his black collar clinked quietly as I smiled slightly. I grabbed the handle of my door and opened it, as Fang jumped into the driver's seat before jumping to the passenger side. I set his bowl onto the floor board, it was empty so I wasn't worried about anything spilling.

Glancing at the clock, I couldn't help but give out a yawn when I saw the time was ten o'clock into the night. I hadn't realized I've been driving for so long, but I was relieved when I saw the exit I needed to get off at to find my parent's home.

Fang had fallen asleep about an hour ago, I figured he was bored, he is a puppy still so being in a car without any place to run around isn't exactly a great place for him. That thought alone reminded me of the time I first went and picked him up, he was only a week old, I had to bottle feed him since the mother had died and couldn't give them any milk.

Fang surely could have died, since he hadn't gotten the nutrition he needed from the mother's milk, but he pulled through it, it was a mystery to me, but it made me wonder, did the other puppies survive? Numerous people had come to adopt them, but it was a first come first serve kind of thing, since they needed people to take care of them immediately. I just happened to be walking around that day looking for some things to photograph, and I ended up buying him.

I guess people would wonder why I say photograph? Well I am a photographer, that's what I do for a living. I take pictures for newspapers, magazines, etcetera. Am I a famous photographer? Well I guess I am considering I sell a lot of my work to people, and some are even in galleries. I got paid well enough so I didn't really care about the fame, as long as I had money to support myself and Fang, I would be okay without being known around the world.

Pulling into my parents driveway, Fang awoke suddenly and sat up to stretch out his stiff muscles. It was late but I what gave me a real surprise was when my parents opened the door and came to greet me. I thought they would have been asleep already but I guessed wrong.

With a sigh I got out of the Camaro and Fang followed me, my mother greeted me with a hug, she was always affectionate even if her sons' were not. But I always had a soft spot for my mom and she was the one that received the most affection from me, and it was rare when I showed any love for people. Karin was just one of those, but not anymore.

"Oh Sasuke, I'm so glad your here." My mother, Mikoto, squeezed me into another hug. "...Still my rebellious baby boy as always." She said this after she eyed my outfit, she didn't care what I wore, she still loved me the same, just as long as I didn't get involved with drugs, which I can proudly say I stayed away from.

"Good to see you son." My dad held out his hand and I took it in mine, my dad was just like my brother and I. Didn't show a lot of affection, the small hints he gave proved he cared deeply for his family, and that was enough for us.

"Who is this cute little thing?" I looked down once I saw my mom's eyes move to the ground, she had spotted Fang, and I just remembered I forgot to let them know I had a dog with me.

"This is Fang, I adopted him when he was newly born."

"Oh, but don't puppies need their mothers."

"Yeah, but, the mother died and they would have died along with her if they hadn't been adopted out to be take care of." I shifted my eyes back at Fang after glancing at my mom, he just sat on the ground by my feet waiting to do something.

"Well he's cute, but I wish you would have told us that he was coming with you so we could have bought some puppy food for him."

"No worries on that, he has enough in the bag in my car until I can get to a store to buy more."

"Oh okay."

They helped me bring my stuff into the house and up the stairs to my old room. The bed was still the same as it was before, black sheets and a raven black blanket over it. The pillows though were white so the bed didn't look too plain. I set my stuff down as my parents followed suit. My dad left to go and lock the front door and shut the lights off. My mom on the other hand lingered at the doorway, I knew she wanted to ask me something, I was almost afraid of what it was.

"Sasuke, can I ask you why you moved back here?"

"..." I couldn't help but remain silent.

"What about that girl you are dating? What was her name... Karin?"

"Was dating." I moved to pull some things from the boxes.

"What do you mean?"

"Mom, she wasn't the right girl for me." I looked to her and saw her hair flow out as she tilted her head slightly. I hadn't really noticed what she was wearing earlier but now I did, just a simple red shirt with long navy blue shorts. "...She liked to party more then spend time with me. I hardly ever saw her, and when I did, she only wanted me to make her feel better when she was upset. I just felt used, so I left."

"Ah I see," She gave a sad smile and walked over to me before placing a hand on my shoulder, "...There are other fish in the sea Sasuke, you'll find one some day, good things come to those that wait."

After she said that she just left and shut the door as she bid me a good night. I smiled just a little at her words, they were comforting to say the least and for that I was grateful. I finished unpacking my stuff and had just placed the last of my clothes into the closet. I decided I would keep the boxes, I didn't want to stay too long and annoy my parents.

I got ready for bed only wearing a pair of black pants and a sleeveless black shirt. I crawled under the sheets and was about to fall asleep when I heard whining. I looked over the side of the bed and spotted Fang looking at me with pleading eyes, poor little guy he was too small, he can't jump onto the bed. I gave a quiet chuckle before sitting up and reaching over and picking him up. I set him on the mattress and laid back down onto my side, he came up to me and curled himself against my back.

I sighed with content and closed my eyes.

My eyes cracked open when I felt something nudging my cheek. It was Fang, he did this everyday, he always woke me up in the morning, he was like my alarm clock. I pat him on the head and sat up, I lifted my arms up and stretched myself out, not a bad night's sleep, I was actually at peace during the night, unlike other nights I went to bed after a fight with Karin.

Yanking the blanket off of myself I slid out of the bed and headed into the bathroom. I just grabbed my other black pants that had the chains on them and a pair of my black boxers, I figured I would pick a shirt when I got out, since I didn't know which one to wear.

After my shower I came out with a blue towel around my shoulders as I used my right hand to rub the material against my hair to dry it, while my left wiped away any water droplets that fell onto my chest. I glanced annoying at my hair, the red dye was still in my hair, I wish I never agreed to let Karin do that, but she insisted and I just let her do it.

I opened the closet door and looked through the assortment of black shirts. Some are plain, while others had designs on them, I settled for a black sleeveless shirt that had a red rose wrapped in a thin chain printed on it. I tossed the towel onto my bed and slipped the shirt over my head.

On the nightstand near the bed I grabbed my phone and placed it in my pocket, while I grabbed the assortment of accessories that sat next to it. One was a chain, that was connected together by a small lock with my first name's initial, the other necklace that I slipped on was a black skeleton key on a small chain made of small metal balls connected together.

The rings I decided to put on after I put my belt and bracelets. It was white with black designs of skulls and bullets, I only hooked it through one loop of my pants on my side so the belt just leaned like it would slip off my thin waist. Next I put on a chain bracelet on my right wrist while a black wrist band was on my left. I sighed as I finished with putting my rings onto my thumbs and pointer fingers before grabbing my wallet and sliding it into my back pocket, along with a small notepad and a pen. I used those to write down challenges for myself to photograph.

After I was completely dressed I left the room, while grabbing the leash hanging on the door handle, Fang was following me while wagging his tail. I had to suppress a laugh when he started to paw at my ankles when he walked behind me. It was obvious he was wanting to play. I made it downstairs and I spotted my parents at the kitchen table drinking coffee, well my father was drinking coffee, my mother had tea.

"Morning Sasuke."

"Morning."

"What are you're plans for the day?"

"Well, I'm going to go look for a job, I'm taking Fang with me, so he can get some exercise, maybe I'll stop at the park but I haven't decided yet."

"Oh, sounds like you have a busy day ahead of you."

"Yeah I guess so, well I'll see you guys later." I left with a wave of my hand and headed out the door.

As soon as I was outside, I hooked the leash onto Fang's collar and we made our way into town. I wasn't worried we'd take too long to get into town, it wasn't far so I didn't want to waste the gas in my car when I could just walk. I shook my head when people passed down the road in their cars, it was a pointless waste of money when the shops aren't far from the houses. Besides I had taken Fang with me and I knew he wouldn't want to ride in the car again.

Coming to a stop outside a small business that sold water and small portions of foods as snacks, lucky for me they had a window so people could order from outside so I decided to get a large bottle of water and an order of their food that looked like fried bread and ramen soup. It was pretty good, the fried bread I mean, and I gave come pieces to Fang who enjoyed them as well.

I asked the woman at the register for a small cup and she handed me one. Opening the bottle I set the lid in my hand and grabbed the cup. I poured some water into it and put it on the ground, where my pup drank it up. I sat at that table for a little while just petting Fang.

That was until I heard someone yell from up at the counter. It seemed like they were having a problem inside, I heard a male's voice as he yelled, "GET OUT OF HERE! IF YOU CAN'T PAY, YOU CAN'T EAT!"

As soon as those words were uttered, the manager, or so I guessed came to the door and threw out a man about my age, twenty-one or twenty-two. His hair was blond and his blue eyes looked at the man with fury and pleading. "Come on man, don't leave me out here like this, I'll find a way to pay. Just put it on my tab for now."

"Your tab is already as long as my wife's shopping list. And I ain't talking about groceries boy."

"I'll pay you, I promise."

"Yeah? With what money?"

"Uh..."

The blond haired boy looked at me all of a sudden and soon was instantly by my side. He grabbed my hand and shook it forcefully. "Hi I'm Naruto, nice to met ya, want to be friends? Great! Say can you lend me some money?"

I twitched at this as I closed my eyes annoyingly before opening them and punching him on the head. "...OW! What the hell dude?"

"Naruto, do you know this guy?" The man asked since he obviously didn't hear Naruto quickly introduce himself to me.

"Of course I do, we're best buds." He made a move to put an arm around my shoulder.

"Any part of you that touches me, you're not getting back," I said with no hint of emotion in my voice to get him to believe I was serious.

He stopped and stepped back and rubbed the back of his head, while laughing nervously. I rolled my eyes before turning to the manager of the small business. "How much does he owe you?"

"One hundred and fifty dollars even."

I couldn't believe I was doing this, but I pulled out my wallet and handed the man my credit card. He took it to the woman at the register for outside orders and she rang up the total tab that belonged to this spiky haired male. I received my card back and grabbed Fang's leash and walked away. I thought I was going to go in peace but to my surprise Naruto came up to my side and began walking along side me.

"Hey thanks for that back there. I'll pay you back-" I cut him off. "...How are you going to pay me back? You couldn't even pay your own damn tab. Who the hell needs a tab anyway?"

"Well I do teme, I love ramen and I guess I got a little carried away."

"A little?"

"Okay fine, I really got carried away."

Shaking my head I attempted to walk faster to get him off my back. But he still stuck by my side and continued walking alongside Fang and I. "So you new here?" He asked me, trying to make conversation.

"Yeah. Well I have to go." I walked quickly away as he stopped and stared at my retreating back.

I walked until I came to a stop outside a small bar, it didn't look very packed but I could tell a lot of the slut came here. And how would I know? I was approached by some just now. They started to hit on me, and I was getting disgusted as they tried to make themselves seem appealing. I shuddered and pushed my way out of their clingy hands. To my surprise I spotted my mom across the street, she saw me as well and looked both ways before running across the street.

"Mom, what are you doing here?"

"I was looking for you, I wanted to ask you if I could borrow your dog. My friends and I are having this little competition at our get together today."

"Oh, uh.." I didn't get to finish when she snatched the leash from my hand and grinned with a sweet smile, leaving me there with a raised eyebrow and confused expression...My dog was just kidnapped by my own mother. Who knows what she would do to him? I was too late to stop her, since she was already out of sight.

Turning I walked into the bar and headed to a stool by the bartender. The bar had a calm vibe to it, it was dark inside but lights still illuminated my surroundings. I ordered a glass of beer and sat there thinking. I pulled out the notepad and pen and began writing things down. I tried to come up with new possible objects to take pictures of but I was interested in photographing the sky and nature as a whole.

What I noticed from the corner of my eye, was a group of girls, one kept talking to her pink-haired friend and then gestured to me with her head. I figured they thought I hadn't seen them, but as soon as I turned my head I caught the pink-haired girls emerald eyes with my onyx ones. Her face flushed and quickly looked away, she was embarrassed since she got caught.

I ripped out a piece of paper and wrote a small sentence on it and stuck the rest of the notepad back in my pocket. I stood and gave a gesture to the bartender that I was out of here, and he nodded and cleaned up my area.

I walked over to the group of girls and handed the one with the pink hair, the slip of paper. I walked away silently leaving the bar, but not before I heard her friends squeal at her, she was proabably feeling really embarassed now. For what I wrote on the paper was a question to what she was doing.

Why do you keep staring?

A/N Okay, some people probably want to bash my head in for not updating Let Me In, but it will be posted tomorrow. So yeah, you know, read...review...PLEASE!!