A/N: This is a series I'm doing with songs. There will be 8 chapters with songs and pairings. I'm not exactly sure that I like how I ended this chapter, so I might edit it. Please R&R!!!
Chapter 1: Karen-centric
-Hurt-
The first time she did this was when she was 17. She was just out of high school, living with her boyfriend, and on so many drugs, she didn't know what day it was. Her boyfriend practically forced her to do it. He said it "helped." It did for a while, but she grew tired of covering up her arms and legs, not being able to get a job because she couldn't pass the drug test, and she was definitely tired of her boyfriend beating her up. So, she pulled her life together, got married, became rich, and got a job at Grace's office. But that was years ago. Now, she was just alone and once again on drugs and alcohol. Her husband…ex-husband…was gone and out of the house, her Poodle had a new boyfriend, Grace had a new little girl, and Will had Ben. But, Karen had no one.
I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything
What have I become,
My sweetest friend?
Everyone I know goes away in the end
And you could have it all,
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt.
She wrapped the towel around her arm and lay back on her bed. The pain in her arm brought tears to her eyes, but the pain in her heart seemed to flutter away. She lifted her left, uninjured arm and saw all of the scars then took a look at the other one and saw the blood.
"Oh, God," she groaned, "What have I become?"
I wear this crown of thorns
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here
What have I become,
My sweetest friend?
Everyone I know goes away in the end
And you could have it all,
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt.
If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way.
"Karen?" Graces asked as she entered the bedroom.
Karen quickly hid the blood soaked towel and pulled her sleeve down to cover her new wounds. Jack followed Grace into the room and lay down next to her on the bed. Grace cuddled up with them, but unlike Jack, she didn't notice Karen's uneasiness. Jack looked at Karen and saw that her hand was buried in her sleeve.
"Karen," he sighed, "Not again."
Jack was one of the few people who knew about Karen's past and he knew about her attempts to just "end it all." He lifted her sleeve up and revealed a row of fresh wounds. Grace gasped and looked at Karen's tear stained face and felt the urge to cry also. The urge grew and grew as she listened to Karen's heartbreaking sobs. Grace wrapped her arm around her and quietly whispered sweet things in her ear.
"Room in there for one more?"
They all looked up to see Will standing there. Karen reached her arm out and motioned for him to join them. Despite the fact that Will and Grace weren't talking, he got in behind her and grabbed Karen's hand. Neither one of them spoke as they watched Karen fall asleep easily with a smile on her face. All she needs are her friends…and that's exactly what she has.
End Chapter 1