Prologue;

Now that I was standing here, watching them all look at me with dull eyes that held so much pain…I felt like I didn't deserve them. That I deserved not to belong. Not to belong anywhere.

They didn't know because I didn't tell. Only she knew and all that time, she kept it a secret from the others because she knew if she said something then…

It didn't matter anyway, I was the glue that kept them together through the journey, through the pain and the anguish, through the good times and the bad and here I was…Keeping them together…But maybe also tearing them apart as well.

Her eyes hurt me the most. Because knowing her so well, I could creep past the barriers her eyes told me and see that inside she was in pain as well…So much pain, the pain that I was putting her through.

I was leaving her - without meaning to of course - and it hurt because so many people she had lost because of them leaving and getting killed.

I guess it hurt more because she knew that I wasn't going to die if I left, she knew I was going to live and be with my old (forgotten) friends and she knew that she would grow old and withered without me by her side.

And I knew at that moment, even if she was never going to say it or if she did, I knew already.

I knew that she loved me as much as I loved her. Maybe more.

A grin appeared on my face at the thought and a thought occurred to me.

"It's not goodbye y'know?!"

FFX;