Ace sighed as he looked out his window thinking of the day that was ending with the pitter patter of rain against his window. It wasn't like it had been a bad day, him and Luffy had gone to school and the like as usual for the brothers, nothing different save one thing. Luffy was on a date at the moment...with Nami. They had been friends for a while now and he knew she liked his little brother but something tugged on him that made him feel uneasy. Was it jealousy? Odd, he was happy for his little brother; finally getting out and dealing with girls, but a part of Ace WAS jealous. But why? He looked down and gave a small smile seeing Luffy walk up to the small fence that surrounded the two bedroom house that they lived in thanks to Garp, his smile faded how ever when he saw Nami round the corner looking rather flustered. He unlocked his window and lifted it a crack to hear the conversation between the two teens.
"Luffy, I don't understand...I thought this was the kind of date where we got together as a couple, I mean we made out at the movie theater for crying out loud!"
Ace felt his chest tighten hearing this but didn't know why, the thought of his little brother kissing her made it feel like he couldn't drag in enough air.
"Take it easy Nami, it's the first date I've ever been on...I didn't know that's only what couples do."
"Monkey D. Luffy you are such a knuckle head!"
Luffy only scratched the back on his neck sheepishly.
"Uh...Gomen Nami."
She crossed her arms and huffed as she stalked away from Luffy leaving him feeling a little embarrassed and slightly hurt that she wouldn't take his apology. After a moment or two when the rain began to pick up he shrugged and headed for the door, Ace closed his window and leaned on his wall thinking as sounds of Luffy raiding the fridge came from downstairs. He should have known his little brother would be eating again even if the two of them had gone to dinner, Luffy was always hungry, than again so was Ace. He was prodded out of his thoughts as his bed shifted and he looked over to see Luffy sitting next to him eating a sandwich.
"How was the date?"
"Meh, okay I guess. The movie was fun, but dinner sucked, wasn't enough food."
Ace reached over and took his cigarettes from the bed side table and lit one, taking a drag off of it he blew the smoke up and away from Luffy. Luffy never cared that Ace smoked, only when it ended up in his face did he mind. Ace looked over at him.
"What about spending time with Nami?"
"It was alright I guess, she kept leaning into me and making me feel weird."
Luffy polished off the last few bites of his sandwich and leaned on Ace putting his head on his shoulder and took a deep breath.
"You mean like you do with me?"
Luffy looked up and seemed deep in thought.
"Not really, it didn't feel as good as it does with you."
Ace felt a warm blush creep into his cheeks; that was unexpected.
"W-What do you mean?"
"When I do this with you it's comfortable, like...food, it's good."
Ace rolled his eyes, count on Luffy to make a connection to food with everything.
"So, you like sitting like this with me, but not Nami?"
Luffy nodded.
"I suppose it's just a brother thing for you."
Luffy shook his head almost violently.
"No, Robin, Zoro and Sanji try it sometimes too, it's just weird."
Ace felt the red flame burst back to life in his chest, not only was Nami trying to get in good graces with Luffy, but Robin, Sanji and the green haired freak as well? Ace squeezed his eyes shut blocking out the images of Zoro or any of the others sitting with Luffy like this. Between them it just felt right, neither one of them had thought anything by it, but Ace found his mind cooking up image after image of Luffy, some of them were cute, but than again Luffy didn't need help in that department. The boy was cute all on his own; but than there were others. Ace felt a flush creep to his cheeks as an image of Luffy under him, arching his back and moaning Ace's name flashed through his mind. Ace's eyes widened in shock.
Where the hell did THAT come from!
Ace jumped as Luffy spoke again.
"Ne, Ace?"
"Hm?"
"Do you think I could sleep in here with you tonight? My room always gets to cold when it rains and you put off alot of heat."
Ace mentally punched him self as more images of his little brother came to mind and shook it off.
"Aren't you alittle old to be cuddling with Big Brother?"
"Please Nii-chan?!"
Ace looked over at Luffy, why did he look over at Luffy? His eyes were wide and bright, looking at him with an over dramatic innocent look in them, Ace groaned inwardly. How did Luffy get to him so bad. Rolling his eyes Ace let out a breath he didn't realize he had been holding.
"Fine, I guess it wouldn't hurt."
"Yata!"
Luffy leaped from the bed all other events flown from his mind as he rushed to his room to get ready for bed. Ace sighed, what had he gotten himself into?
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Luffy skidded into his room and hit the wall in his excitement. Luffy replayed the night over in his head as he got dressed for bed. Nami, the way her lips had felt under his as she kissed him, it didn't feel right. And for some reason his mind kept returning to his big brother alone at the house...he found him self wishing for it to end so he could get back to Ace. Ace was always there for Luffy no matter what it was. Ace was always there. Luffy than recalled the feeling of Nami's tongue as it invaded his mouth. It wasn't unpleasant but it wasn't what he expected either. Sanji had always told him that making out was supposed to be fun and 'turn you on' what ever the hell that meant. As Luffy kept running through the date over and over in his mind he realized that the entire night he had kept thinking of Ace. Even when Nami had followed him home and began to yell at him, he had just wanted for her to go away so he could go in and talk to Ace and upon entering the home and not seeing his big brother Luffy had felt a stab of disappointment, he was sure Ace would at least be waiting up for him, but as Luffy looked into Ace's room he saw the older teen was indeed awake and staring out his window as he usually did during rainstorms. He recalled the feeling of Ace's warmth against his side when he sat down next to his older brother and leaned on him, how his heart seemed to speed up out of it's own accord like it had a mind of it's own. Luffy grabbed his pillow and rushed down the hall to Ace's room and peeked in the door to make sure Ace was decent. Ace sat on the edge of his bed, his face in his hands looking stressed. Luffy was instantly by his side worry flowing from his words so thick Ace could feel it.
Nii-Chan, what's the matter?!"
"Luffy, I don't think it's a good idea for you to stay in here with me tonight. Something is wrong with me."
"What?! Are you hurt Ace?! What's wrong?!"
"No, not hurt, just...bothered."
"Talk to me big brother, it's what I'm here for."
Luffy blinked as Ace looked up at him, his eyes were glazed over and he was breathing heavily as if he just recently had a nightmare, but the pink flush in his brother's cheeks told him other wise. Neither brother was a stranger to sex. Luffy put his hand on Ace's cheek gently.
"Ace talk to me..."
"I'm not right in the head Lu, you shouldn't stay here."
"Why! Please Ace help me understand!"
Luffy fell silent, a feat in itself as Ace threw him self forward knocking the younger D onto his back on the floor and matched his lips to Luffy's. Luffy felt his eyes flutter shut as Ace kissed him and a part of his brain registered he was kissing Ace back. He knew it was wrong...but how could something wrong feel this damn good?
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Luffy tasted sweet, his lips were warm and soft under his, and he wasn't fighting Ace, in fact, as Ace slowly emerged from his floating state,he realized Luffy was in fact kissing him back, and what a kiss. Ace noted the thin but strong arms wrapping around his neck holding him in place and knew this was getting carried away. He pulled back and away from Luffy with some difficulty thanks to his younger brother's death hold on him. He closed his eyes biting his bottom lip as he heard Luffy whine in protest from the lost heat of Ace's body on his.
"Lu...get out of here."
"But Ace!"
"I mean it Luffy! Get out!"
Ace watched as Luffy picked up his pillow and walked towards the door and than stop as his hand hit the door frame.
"No."
Ace's head shot up looking at Luffy's back, his blood turned to ice with dread as Luffy turned, his face red.
"I'm not going!"
Ace suddenly found his arms full of the lanky teen and felt his heart squeeze as Luffy hugged him tight.
"Please Ace...it felt right...it felt good..."
Ace blushed as he heard the words fall from Luffy's mouth.
It felt right...it felt good.
Yes it had, Ace hated to admit that but it did feel right...and oh how good it had felt molding Luffy's lips to his in an intimate kiss such as that. Almost as if on cue Ace felt Luffy's lips press against his lightly, as if asking Ace to show him. Knowing deep down it wasn't right Ace threw everything out the window and obliged his younger brother's wants, and his needs. As he licked Luffy's bottom lip asking for entrance into his mouth he groaned as Luffy allowed him in, his thoughts racing back to a few moment before when Luffy had left.
Ace felt his blood turn to ice as he realized what he had just done to himself, he hadn't had a girl friend, or boy friend in quite a few months; and Luffy was to damn cute for his own good. That ebony hair and dark smoky eyes that seemed to sparkle with merriment over the smallest little things. His pout, the way his bottom lip quivered. Ace felt heat, burning heat rise to his cheeks as the image of Luffy under him, arching and moaning his name flashed through his mind again.
I'm sick, in the head...he's my brother.
Another image, this time Ace felt his body respond, Luffy on top of him this time, his back arching, head thrown back, moonlight shining on his well toned body. Ace groaned again.
Very sick.
Ace chalked it up to the fact that he hadn't had any sexual release in months and his brother was just to damn cute, yeah that had to be it but as Luffy fell to his knees beside Ace and began to ask worried questions Ace felt a wave of guilt wash over him for worrying his little brother, and than it hit him; like a ten ton sack of bricks. He loved Luffy...more than a brother should love another. It was wrong, it was sinful, and wrong. But it was there as clear as day. He wanted Luffy, he loved him...
As Ace came back to the present he wrapped his arms around Luffy and pulled him closer to his chest deepening the kiss, Luffy moaned urging him on. Yes, it was wrong; and they both knew that, but how wrong could it be when it felt so right...so good. Ace pulled away again, this time with more difficulty than before, Luffy let a small whine escape him as Ace removed him self from the tangle of limbs that was his brother and picked him up off the floor, carrying him to the bed he set him down and lay down pulling Luffy to him protectively.
"Lu...I-"
Ace blinked as he felt Luffy place a finger over his lips.
"It's okay. "
"No, Lu...this is wrong...we shouldn't be doing this"
"But why? Don't you love me Ace?"
"Yes and that's the problem, I love you more than I should Lu...much more than a simple brotherly bond."
"Good."
That got Ace's attention, he looked down at his little brother and saw him blushing deep and looked towards the window.
"How is that good?"
Luffy tucked his head under Ace's chin and nuzzled him there purring.
"Cause I love Ace too. Much much more than as a brother."
Ace pulled Luffy closer, his chest swelling with the feeling of love that threatened to over whelm him. Yes they loved each other, and yes it was wrong; but neither cared if it was wrong...it felt so good, and so right. Ace looked up at the ceiling long after Luffy had fallen asleep in his arms, his head using Ace's chest as a pillow. It had been a long day but an even better night, this would be their own special anniversary, the day that realization had hit both of them, the day they realized they wanted to be more than brothers. Ace smirked. Realization...what a funny word.