Bella's point of view
February 16th.
I crept into Edwards's office and peeked in. I watched him write with his long lazy strokes on some documents.
"Bella." He chuckled still looking down at the papers.
"I know your there sweetheart." He looked up and raised an eyebrow.
I sighed and walked in shutting the door behind me.
I walked over and sat in his lap burying my face in his chest. God he always smelt so good.
He ran his hand down my back and kissed my hair.
"What's wrong?"
"You know what's wrong." I mumbled.
Ever since the night with the smelly oils Edward has not let me take a pregnancy test. He also wouldn't have sex with me. Cause 'Too much sex can diminish your chances of getting pregnant'. This Valentine's Day was filled with lovey dovey sexless fun.
"Today is exactly two weeks. How about you take the test when we get home?" He sighed and rubbed his face roughly.
"You don't think I'm pregnant do you?" I snapped.
"No. I didn't say that. I just don't know. And I'm worried of what it might do to you. And I'm really stressed about this one case I had to quit."
Edwards never quit a case before.
"Why'd you quit?" I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed his cheek.
"I just couldn't do it. I couldn't defend somebody who is so completely obviously guilty. I'd lose. And if I won I would feel horrible."
He put his forehead on my shoulder.
"I doubt you would lose baby, you're so good."
"This guy, Bella he tried to murder his two kids and wife. I couldn't do it."
He shook his head against my shoulder.
I ran my hand through his hair.
"Edward you don't have to do these kind of cases-"
His office door swung open and a grungy guy with a bad five o'clock shadow stomped in.
"Cullen!"
Edward leaped out of the chair; he caught me with one arm twisted behind his back. He tried to push me behind his back but I moved so I could see over his shoulder.
"What the hell is this about you not being on my case anymore?" He yelled.
Then he stopped and smiled sweetly at me.
"Well, well, well. This must be the gorgeous wife you talk about."
Edward tried to push me behind his back with more force but I refused.
Two body guards walked in and grabbed him by the arms.
"I told you Mr. Davis. I could not do your case because of things going on at home. I sincerely apologize."
Edwards's voice scared even me a little.
He sounded dangerous.
Nick came in and pushed the guy out of the doorway. He was dragged down the hallway and into the lobby. I could hear the threats he was shouting at Edward as he retreated.
Nick walked back in and shook his head sharply.
"Crazy ass loon."
"That was the guy?" I asked looking at Edward.
His body was shaking and he looked enraged.
"Was it?" I insisted.
"Edward!"
"Would you just stay behind me for once? Is it so damn hard to do something when I want you too?"
I jumped back when he screamed at me.
He slammed his fist down on his desk.
I grabbed the Volvos keys off his desk and walked away.
I heard his footsteps after come me.
He went into the boss's office to do something and I just kept going outside.
I started the car and waited for him to get in then started driving home.
I tried so hard not to cry on the way home. I hate it when he yells at me. He's only done it a couple times and it always ends up in me crying.
I felt the urge to put my hand on my stomach. But I wasn't pregnant. No matter how badly I wanted it or craved it. I don't think I'll ever be.
When we got to the apartment I threw the keys in his lap and got out.
I walked straight into the bathroom and slammed the door.
Sighing, I sat down on the cold floor and cried. Crying was the only thing I was remotely good at.
After about five minutes there was a knock on the door.
"What?" My voice came out as a croak.
Nice.
"Can I come in?" Edwards's voice sounded tired, and worried.
"No."
"Please love?"
"No."
The door creaked open and he walked in. He took in the sight of me crying in a heap on the floor and frowned.
Edward sat down beside me and sighed.
"Don't you know what 'no' means? Or do you not listen?" I moved away from him and pulled my knees up to my chest.
"Bella I'm sorry. Ok? But that guy is dangerous. And you not listening to me ever doesn't help."
"I don't have to listen to you. You do not own me."
"No. I don't. But, you are my wife. And I love you more than anything else in the world. And I want you to be safe. Always."
I rolled my eyes and wiped at my nose.
He maneuvered in front of me and took my chin gently in his hand.
"I would give my life for you. Over and over again. No matter the pain."
I stared into his eyes for what seemed like an hour until he glanced up to the medicine cabinet.
Where I kept the pregnancy tests.
"Did you-"
"No. And I don't want to."
"Why not?"
"Because I already know the answer. Negative."
"You don't know that."
"No. But we both think that."
I got up off the floor and went into the bedroom.
"Bella. Come on love. Take it. For me."
"Nope." I popped my lips and took off my heels.
"But-"
"Edward." I gave him a glare and he sighed.
"Please." He pouted out his lips and made his eyes go real wide.
"What the heck? That's my thing!"
"Well if it worked…"
"Ugh." I sighed and walked back into the bathroom.
The little white box with directions on it made me shrink away.
I shut the door and did my business.
"I have to wait 15 minutes." I told him when I walked back out into the bedroom.
He nodded and wrapped his arms tight around me.
We stood there for the whole 15 minutes like that.
Embraced by one another, smelling him, and his cologne.
Edward stood behind me with his hands on my shoulders while I held the white stick upside down.
Before I flipped it over I turned to him.
"You know I just want this baby so badly because it would be yours right. It's not that I'm bored or I just want it because I crave it-"
He gently took my chin between his two fingers and brushed his lips against mine so gently I almost couldn't feel them.
"I know. And I want it too. I've gotten used to the idea. And I'm not ready to quit now."
"Ok." I sighed and handed him the test.
"Then you tell me the results."
He pouted again. I laughed nervously and urged him on.
OK. Here we go Bella. Don't be negative. You could be pregnant. Maybe just maybe…
Edward flipped it over and I quick rush of air whooshed from between his lips.
He leaned back against the wall and covered his mouth.
"I knew it. I'm not pregnant am I?"
I was afraid I would start crying again. The crushing blow of it sunk in each time like a fresh wound.
"I knew it. I just knew it."
Suddenly, a slow smile crept its way across his lips.
"I don't know how you're happy. Now I see what's going on you never really wanted-"
He showed me the white stick that read "Pregnant."
I stood there not breathing. I was reading it over and over again.
Pregnant. Pregnant. Pregnant.
Oh my GOD.
"No way." I breathed.
"Yes way." Edward picked me up and spun me around.
"I can't believe it."I giggled and kissed him hard and deep.
"Neither can I." He smiled wide and tackled me on the bed.
Well, I think you can guess how we spent the night celebrating.
March 23rd.
I am now 35 days along in my pregnancy. 4-5 weeks.
Edward and I went to the doctor the day after I took the test just to be positive that I was absolutely pregnant. Well I was!
Am I'm starting to show. Edward thinks I'm showing already because I'm so 'tiny'.
It's a small but noticeable bump compared to what I looked like before.
Right now we were both working. Well, actually I was trying to sneak past Edward's office to the vending machine in the hall. It was right after his door, and if he saw me he would hold it over my head for the next couple months. In a teasing way.
But I really want a Snickers.
So I started going all ninja.
I had my back pressed into the wall and tilted my head to looking into his office. When I looked in he glanced up quickly then back down to his papers.
I sighed heavily.
Nick walked by then stopped to look at me across the lobby.
He raised an eyebrow at me. I motioned for him to be quiet or else I would throttle him. He held his hands up in surrender and laughed as he watched me peak into Edwards office again. He knew how Edward was.
Now he had his back to me while he typed on his computer. I ran across the entryway to his office and to the vending machine.
"Phew." I breathed and heard a few workers that knew me laugh in the lobby.
The three quarters I held in my palm were a little sweaty and Washington was engraved in my palm from how tight I was holding them. God help me if I dropped one.
I looked for where the Snickers were always held and gasped quietly.
They were all gone. Those bastards.
Oh well. A Twix will do.
I inserted the three quarters into the machine and tried to press B6 for a Twix.
It took me a minute to figure out that a need a dollar. One more quarter.
"Oh no." I said quietly to myself and started searching my clothes for one more quarter.
I searched and searched till a hand popped out from behind me and put another quarter in the machine.
I jumped, startled and turned around to meet eyes with my husband.
He looked very amused.
"Whatchya doin?" I asked rocking back on my heels.
"Don't even." He laughed.
"What?" I asked innocently and batted my eyelashes at him.
"Your cute. But no so smooth. I saw you when you first looked into my office." He grinned when I frowned.
Damnit.
Nice going Bella.
Stfu.
Great. Now you're talking to yourself.
Umm…it's the pregnancy hormones.
You did this before…
I pressed B6 and bent down to get my Twix.
"You want to know what's really funny?" He asked.
I narrowed my eyes at him.
He pulled a Snickers out of his pocket.
"I saw it was the last one and got it for you. I was going to give it to you at lunch."
"Thank you." I grinned and kissed him sweetly.
"No problem beautiful. But I need to talk to you."
"About what?" I asked around a mouthful of Snickers.
"Things." He said quietly. He took my hand and led me into his office, shutting the door behind him.
I propped myself up onto his desk and he started pacing.
"What baby?" I asked picking at the Snickers.
"Ok, so your uncle was talking to me yesterday."
"'Bout what?"
"Well, he says I'm doing really good and I'm really close to getting that promotion."
"That's great."
"Yeah… Well he says that he wants me to go on a business trip and see how I do. Then he will evaluate my work."
"Oh."
"It will only be for three days. But I'm not sure if I should go or not-"
"Of course you should!"
"So eager to get rid of me, eh?" He chuckled.
"No. Edward this is what you've been waiting for, you have to go."
"But I'm not sure if I want to. I know that it would be awesome if I got this promotion but…"
He crossed the room and placed his hands on my sides, he looked down at my stomach.
"But now you're pregnant." He rubbed my stomach with his thumbs.
"Not that I would have left you anyway. It's our first baby and I don't want to miss a minute of it."
"Edward its only three days. I sure as hell don't want you to leave. I'm not going to grown huge in three days though." I kissed him lightly.
"No. I will be here when you grow huge."
"Thanks." I rolled my eyes and he chuckled.
"I'm still not sure." He both his hands on my belly covering it completely.
"Do you want this promotion?"
"Yes."
"Good then go."
"I want you and the baby more. I love you more than anything."
"You'll only be missing us for three days." I cooed and pinched his cheek.
He chuckled lightly.
"Three days can seem like a lifetime, baby girl."
Oh my gosh, I know it's been FOREVER. Things happened over the summer, now schools starting again, blah, blah, blah, etc, etc.
You don't want to hear my problems, you want updates I know. LOL.
It seems like I update more during the school year/time than summer. Which to me is weird. But whatever. I promise it won't take remotely even close to this long again.
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P.s. I need a better summary for this story. If you could please help me with it you can get your name in a future chapter, or you know, something else you want. Just be sure to mention Edwards's troubles, Bella's attempts to make him happy, and how they grow up. Or something along those lines! THANK YOU!