A/N: Just to say italic is thoughts Bold italic is Phineas's inner voice thing and underline italic is Ferb's inner voice thing REMEMBER THAT!
Secret Crush or Forbidden Love?
Chapter 1
"Boys we have to tell you something" Dad said, Phineas and Ferb looked at him. "What is it dad?" Phineas asked, Mom came over to them. "We just got news that one of Ferb's relatives has passed away, so you dad and Ferb are going back to England for awhile for the funeral." Mom explained, Phineas and Ferb looked very surprised. "But why will they be gone for awhile? Why can't they just go to the funeral then come back!" Phineas asked, he was really panicked now. Phineas and Ferb haven't been apart for very long since their mom and dad got married. "Honey…It'll take them atleast 2 days to get back to England, another 2 days to get back, and their family is going to need a little support…" Mom said, she knew it hurt Phineas to have his brother taken away for awhile. Phineas didn't say anything as he just looked down. Ferb looked at his stepbrother, he too was surprised but didn't say anything. He knew they'd be coming back so he wasn't as panicked, but he felt upset knowing Phineas wouldn't be as happy without him around.
Dad saw how Ferb looked concerned about Phineas, he went over to Ferb. "Hey, don't worry about Phineas too much. You both have lots of friends here that he can play with, and I promise we won't stay too long." Dad said, Ferb looked up at him and nodded. "Well you two better go start getting ready, the plane leaves tomorrow." Mom said, Phineas was caught way off guard. 'Tomorrow!? But that means I only get the rest of the day before Ferb leaves for awhile…' Phineas thought sadly, Ferb wanted to help make him feel better but he didn't know how.
Phineas watched as Ferb got his stuff ready, he didn't know what he'd do without Ferb here. When Ferb looked at his stepbrother he immediately regretted it, Phineas looked like an abandoned puppy that was left alone in the rain. He thought nothing could help Phineas feel better now, but Ferb just couldn't shake the thought of trying to help him. Phineas saw that Ferb was thinking about something as he packed, he didn't know what but he knew that he shouldn't bother him. "You know…It's not like I'm moving back to England…I'm still coming back home…" Ferb said quietly, Phineas looked up. "I know it'll be upsetting while I'm not here, but we'll be back as soon as we can…" Ferb continued, Phineas smiled slightly. That's the thing about Ferb, he only talks openly with him, he almost never speaks when around anyone else. "Yeah, I know…" Phineas agreed. 'But I'll still miss you a lot…' Phineas added in his mind, he didn't know why but he'd been having mixed feelings for his stepbrother recently. He thought it was just because of how close they were, but a little voice in his head said differently.
'You know that you'll miss Ferb, so why not just tell him?' The voice in his head spoke up, Phineas mentally groaned. 'Not you again! I thought I got rid of you for awhile!' Phineas thought to the voice. The voice chuckled. 'Nope! And I'm not leaving until you finally listen to me about these "mixed feelings" you're having!' Said the voice as Phineas frowned. 'I know what I'm feeling and it's not what you keep saying!' Phineas argued with the voice. 'Denial…Keep that up and you might freak him out…' the voice taunted, Phineas mentally growled at the voice. 'I don't have a crush on Ferb!' Phineas denied the voice and it chuckled 'Oh? Then why is it that you want to blush everytime he speaks? And why do you keep telling yourself how much you just LOVE his accent?' The voice questioned, Phineas just blushed. What he didn't notice is that Ferb looked back at him, he walked over to him.
"Phineas? Are you ok? Your face is a little red…" Ferb asked, Phineas blushed even more. 'Told ya…' the voice teased as Phineas looked away trying to hide his ever-growing blush. Ferb was confused. 'What's the matter with him? First he keeps watching me, now he turns away…' Ferb pondered, Phineas took a risk, hoping his blush was gone, and looked back at Ferb. "It's nothing…You should probably finish packing…" Phineas tried to distract Ferb, it didn't work. "Phineas are you sick or something? You cheeks are bright red." Ferb asked as he touched Phineas's cheek. Phineas's face light up like a red Christmas light! 'You might want to try and control your blush, you look like a Christmas light...' The voice said, Phineas didn't respond this time. Quickly as he could Phineas ran out of the room, he ran all the way into the backyard before he stopped.
His heart was pounding against his chest, he sat down under the tree and held a hand to his chest. 'Still want to deny that you like Ferb?' The voice asked, Phineas's blush never completely left his face. 'Maybe…I have a slight…crush on him…' Phineas thought, the voice scoffed. 'Are you kidding? You're head over heels for him, if he said he liked you back you'd probably feel like the happiest guy in the world!' the voice said, Phineas actually agreed with the voice. 'You're right…That is, IF, but I know he knew would…if I told him, he would be disgusted…The love I want to share with him is forbidden…' Phineas thought sadly, he knew he'd miss Ferb much more then he should now…
While Phineas sat outside, Ferb sat in their room. 'Should I go see what's wrong? What if he runs away again? Why did he run away in the first place…' Ferb thought as he looked out the window at Phineas. 'You should talk to him…' A voice in his head said, Ferb blinked. 'Who said that?' Ferb thought. 'I'm you're, as you could say, inner voice. I help you make hard decisions that can change your life…' Said Ferb's inner voice, Ferb sighed. 'Ok, but what would I say?' Ferb asked the inner voice. 'Just ask him what's wrong, he's your brother, he wouldn't lie to you, and if he did he would have a really good reason…' The inner voice said, Ferb frowned. 'Are you saying Phineas would lie to me?' Ferb accused the voice. 'Of course not! Although he might if he feels he needs to, but I know he'd never be able to keep a secret from you for long…' Said the inner voice. Ferb got up, he went downstairs and stood outside the backdoor. Phineas had a notebook with him and he was drawing something, Ferb quietly opened the door.
While Ferb was in their room Phineas had gotten a notebook from inside and went back out, He sat down and started sketching something. 'What'cha drawing?' 'Me and Ferb…' Phineas thought as he finished sketching it, he started to go over it and clean it up. 'That's cute…Are you going to tell him before he leaves?' 'No…I'm going to throw it away after it's done…' Phineas thought, he didn't want anyone to see this… 'What! Why?' 'Why not? I'm not going to risk it being seen…' Phineas thought as he wrote something on the page. ' "You say it best…when you say nothing at all"? Why'd you write that?' 'Because it's true, When Ferb doesn't talk he expresses more. He doesn't need to speak to tell me things…' Phineas thought, just when he was about to tear it into shreds, he heard something.
Phineas looked up to see Ferb walking towards him, in a panic, he quickly held the drawing to his chest. "What're you drawing?" Ferb asked as he stood in front of Phineas. "Nothing… It didn't come out right so I was just about to throw it away…" Phineas said as he stood up and threw the beautiful drawing into the garbage, he was to panicked to shred it so he ended up crumpling it a half way and going inside. Ferb went up to the garbage and took out the drawing, he un-crumpled it and went wide-eyed as he looked at it. On the paper was a drawing of him and Phineas sitting beneath the tree and Phineas looked like he was laughing while Ferb was just smiling, then Ferb saw the writing. You say it best…When you say nothing at all. 'Does Phineas mean that when I don't speak I say things to him better?' Ferb wondered, his inner voice then spoke up. 'No, he means that when you don't speak you can express things best.' 'But why would Phineas throw this away? It looks fine to me…' Ferb questioned, he thought the drawing looked great. 'As I told you, he might be hiding a secret from you…' Ferb sighed and went back inside, leaving the drawing outside.
When he came in he saw Candace setting the table and Mom finishing dinner. "Oh, Ferb could you go tell Phineas that dinner is ready? I saw him go up to your boys' room." Mom asked, Ferb nodded and went upstairs to their room.
Phineas was in their room writing in his journal, he'd been writing in it since Ferb moved in. He wrote about their summer adventures and just things that they did together, he started writing about his feelings for Ferb about a week ago when it started. He was right in the middle of his entry when Ferb came in. "Mom said dinner's ready…" Ferb explained, Phineas nodded and left his journal on his bed.
When they got downstairs they saw Mom already put dinner on their plates, so they just sat down and started eating. The rest of the family was quite surprised that the two weren't talking, the just ate silently until they were done. Afterwards they went up to their room, Ferb still needed to finish packing and Phineas continued writing in his journal. 'Are you just going to stop talking to him?' 'No, but I don't want to screw up anymore for one night…' Phineas thought, he continued writing as Ferb finally finished packing his things. 'Should I ask him about the drawing?' Ferb wondered and his inner voice sighed. 'You shouldn't ask him about the drawing…Try asking if something's bothering him…' Ferb agreed and went over to Phineas.
"Is something bothering you?" Ferb asked, Phineas stopped writing. "No, Why?" Phineas lied, he just couldn't tell Ferb…Atleast not now, if he did Ferb might not want to come back… "Because you've been acting weird since Mom told us that I'd be going back to England with Dad for awhile, What's wrong?" Ferb asked, Phineas sighed. "It's nothing ok, just don't worry about it, I don't want you to be worrying about me while you're back at England…" Phineas lied again, it was something, and he did want Ferb to be atleast slightly worried… 'Just stop lying and tell him the truth!' 'I can't! If I tell him now, he might want to stay in England!' Phineas thought, he just couldn't bare to know that he'd never see Ferb again because he fell in love with him…
"Boys! It's time for bed!" Mom called, the boys called their goodnights and got into bed. When they fell asleep, both of them had dreams about eachother…